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Hey, do you have chemistry notes for today? I feel like I slept all through that class
yeah I got some
can I borrow?
of course
awesome
can't promise they make sense though
gotta be better than what I got, which is NOTHING
😅
how come you're so tired?
idk, trouble sleeping I guess
roommates being noisy or something?
nah
more like my mind being noisy
oh?
it's like, lights out hits and my brain goes LOL, NOPE
RELATABLE
really?
what's on your mind though??
oh
well
I guess I can talk to you about it
you can talk to me about anything
always
of course, I know that
well
I kinda been thinking about
… guys
🙈
?
you know
what do you mean?
OH
are you gonna make me say it?
you mean you've been Thinking About Guys??
…………
yes
that
!!!!!
have you got a crush on someone?
………… 😳
idk
maybe
OMG EDDIE
WHO
nah, I'm not telling you that
booooooooo
Idk if it's real or if I'm just confused, you know?
okay…
so.... do you wanna kiss this guy?
............... yes
😳
you’re so cute
what?
you’re so cute!
getting all shy about a crush
……………..
if you wanna kiss him you should just kiss him
whoever he is
nah
can’t do that
why not?
see, the thing is ... pretty sure I have to be straight
........... ???????????
I don't think my family would be cool with it
🙄
sorry to break it to you but if you're thinking about kissing guys you're probably not straight
and even if your family isn't cool with it, that doesn't change who you are it only changes what you might let them see
... that sounds so complicated
it doesn’t have to be
look, your family's not here are they?
no
okay
so forget about them
what do YOU want?
idk
boarding school is like, the pERFECT time to explore your sexuality BECAUSE there's no family around
I’m just saying
if you wanna kiss some guys then kiss some guys
hell, I'd kiss you 😉
😳
😏
🙈
where are you?
.... in the library, failing to understand chemistry
I’ll bring you my notes
cool
and my lips 😘
uh. no.
but thanks
lol
well, if you change your mind…
I know a place 😉
omg
anyway I’ll be there in a minute
great
thanks for trusting me with this, btw
oh, that’s okay
thanks for being cool with it
I'm here for you, okay?
whatever you need
okay, thanks Buck
🤗
*
hey
are you awake?
oh yeah. wide awake
why’re you up?
hiiiiiii
I can’t sleep 🙃
heyyyyy
why not?
brain just won't shut up, you know how it is
oh I KNOW
I was hoping you'd be awake 😅
thanks
otherwise I'd just be lying here dying of boredom
so
fair enough
you still can’t sleep
I still can't, correct
thinking about a guy? 😏
……………
😳
how are you SO comfortable with this?
idk?
probably helps that I've made out with a bunch of guys in my time
……. right
yeah
have you ever kissed anyone…?
um
not yet
not even a girl??
nope
wow
that’s a tragedy
yeah, okay, whatever
your poor mouth
😒
I'm just saying, a mouth like yours deserves to be kissed
😳
what?
lol
idk
your lips look kissable I guess
.... okayyyyy
well, no one else seems to want to kiss me, so
I meant what I said the other day…
I’m sure you did
it wouldn't have to mean anything
yeah, I don't think so
alright, can't fault a guy for trying though 😅
right
sorry if I made you uncomfortable
nah, it’s okay
I just don't wanna be another person in your string of hookups. We're friends, you know? it might get awkward
……….
okay
sorry
you know you can just say you're not attracted to me
……………. what?
forget it
let's talk about your crush
Buck, all I meant was –
oh
what?
what did you mean?
I was just gonna say, you can make out with anyone. You don't need me
whether or not I'm attracted to you isn't even part of it
…. what???
wow
that's how I come across??
as someone who'll just 'make out with anyone'?
No!
I meant people WANT to make out with YOU
okay…..
but you don’t
I ........... dunno
look, it’s fine
it doesn’t feel fine
I’m sorry, okay?
what for?
I shouldn't've made such a thing out of you kissing me
oh
just because you like guys doesn't mean you're gonna like me
so
let’s move on
…………….
okay
I'm sorry too, ftr
thanks
so tell me about this guy you're crushing on
omg 😳
uh, what about him?
are you gonna tell him you like him?
I have NO plans to do that
why noooooot?
is he straight??
um
no
HE’S NOT??
omg so you have a legit shot!!
maybe, idk
are you friends at least?
yeah, we get on
then why don't you wanna tell him?
idk
he wouldn't have a crush on me
how do you know?
I just know
😒
so you’re assuming
I can tell, okay?
hm
then no offense but he sounds like an idiot
what?
if he doesn't have a crush on you he's an idiot
................. okay
you make it sound like having a crush on me is a smart thing
yeah
exactly
have you seen yourself?
yeah?
you’re hot, Eddie
and you're a great guy too
looks AND personality
WHAT? 😂
..... I'm just saying anyone would be lucky to have you
well, thanks buck
I appreciate that
sure
............ my crush is super hot
it’s unbelievable
of course he is
why “of course”?
oh
um
…. idk
am I shallow?
is that it?
no!
that's not what I meant
okay
I'm sorry it's just late and I don't really know what I'm saying anymore
oh
should I let you sleep?
if you want to?
I don't want to actually
but I will if you need to sleep
it’s fine
if you're happy to I'd like to keep chatting
I’d like that
okay
good
and every single topic of conversation just vanished from my head 😅
ahaha
okay, well
do YOU have a crush atm?
..... are you kidding?
......... no?
I thought it was pretty clear who I was crushing on…
oh
so there is someone?
yeah….
you seriously don't know??
............. why would I know?
you haven't told me who it is, so
………….
I'm not a mind reader
wow
is it someone I know?
did you flirt with them when I was supposed to be paying attention?
Eddie…. it’s you
WHAT
..........................
me???
seriously?
… duh?
NOT DUH
I had no idea!!!!
I literally offered to kiss you multiple times
anyway, forget it
you’re not into me
What, no!
Not forget it!
Buck…………..
I don’t wanna talk about it
you’re MY crush
.............. no I'm not
🙁
You are though
what????
I would know
I’m so confused
okay, well …
um
what’s got you confused?
if I'm your crush why wouldn't you jump at the chance to kiss me??
because .... you said it wouldn't mean anything
I want it to mean something
I said it didn't HAVE to
I didn't think you were interested in me
I'm so interested in you 😭
omg
I think about you all night long
ME TOO
I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about your nameless crush that I was SOOOOOOOOOO jealous of
oh
I’m sorry
🥺
I didn’t realise
wow
I think maybe I'm just not so good at this, huh 😅
I think maybe we both need to work on it tbh
.................. maybe we can work on it ... together?
yes please
I really like you, Eddie
I really like you too!
😊
.......... I can't believe you like me 🙈
I do
so much
wow
so, um
I really would like to kiss you
omg
you would?
yep
like, a lot
...... how does now sound?
😳
really?
yeah
um
I have the room to myself
you what?
we don't have to do anything
other than kiss, I mean
okay
but…. yeah
lemme just make sure Neil is asleep. he's such a nark
sure
I flicked his ear and nothing
we’re good
😅
alright, I’m on my way
omg
you’re on your way
don’t get caught
I’m very light-footed
good
is your roommate gonna come back?
I don’t think so
you don't THINK so? 😬
he didn't give me exact details
… okayyyyyyyy
but he said he was gonna hang out in his girlfriend's room
ohhh, okay
well, if he tells on us, we'll tell on him
good thinking
hey
yeah?
I’m at your door
ready for me to come in?
👀
I’m SO ready!!
come in!
🥰