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R–
I know we’re not supposed to see each other, but I can’t stop thinking about you.
Can you get away this evening?
–D
D–
11 o’clock. Our spot.
I’ll be waiting.
XX
–R
Golden warrior
Fighting evil by moonlight
You leave me breathless.
To the super-cool gorgeous Tuxedo Mask,
Oh my god, I can’t believe you would send me a love letter?!? I didn’t even know you knew who I was. It must be that we’re fated to be together, and you’re magically drawn to me or something ❤️❤️❤️
Anyway I’m so excited that you like me, too!! I think you’re the most handsome guy I’ve ever seen, and it’s so romantic when you sweep me out of danger how you always rescue Sailor Moon from evil just in time.
I’ll definitely meet you at the MS mall tomorrow night. I want to learn all about you. Maybe we can go up to the top of Tokyo Tower and kiss look out at the city.
Hugs and kisses,
Usagi 🐇
I saw you on the street today, and it took everything I had to turn away.
When you look at me with those eyes – those eyes filled with nothing but love and trust, begging me to take you back – it makes me want to die. I never deserved you, and yet somehow you granted me the power to crush you – and I took it. I want to crawl across the broken shards of our relationship, take your hands in mine and beg on my knees for you to forgive me for hurting you like this.
But then, I remember.
Remember the blast of energy, your scream. The empty glass of your eyes, your body slain across the rubble.
All the light, blown from the world – because I was too selfish to let you go.
And I know you won’t understand. That you wouldn’t care about protecting yourself from some future catastrophe, not when we could be together right now. That you would push, and push, insisting we risk it, and I wouldn’t be strong enough to say no. We would end up staying together… right up until it’s too late.
I’m not worth that.
And so, I turn away. I live with the hurt in your eyes, because it’s better than the void.
I don’t know how to stay away from you.
But I have to learn.
Dear Mamo-chan,
How are you today? How is the United States? Are you completely fluent in English yet?
Can you get so good at a second language that you start to forget your first language? You’re not forgetting Japanese, are you?
Sometimes I think that might explain some things…
I know worrying doesn’t help anything, and I do my best not to. I stay busy with school and my friends and fighting against the new Sailor Animates. But it gets hard to feel positive sometimes when I haven’t heard from you in so long. I think maybe you’re too busy to answer, or maybe you’re starting to forget Japanese and so you can’t really read my letters anymore. So I try to use easy words, just in case, and then I remember you already know way more words than I do, so it probably doesn’t matter even if I use the most humongous and complicated words in my vocabulary.
I thought about asking Ami-chan to help me write you a letter in English, but then I’d have to tell her that you haven’t been answering, and I don’t want her to worry.
Some days I’m afraid you’re not opening these letters at all. Other days, I’m afraid that you are, and it’s just too much trouble to answer. I don’t want to be trouble for you, Mamo-chan. I know Harvard is an important school and you’re very busy.
If my letters are troublesome, please just write me back and tell me to stop. I won’t mind, I promise.
I hope you’re safe.
With love,
Usagi
My Usako,
In some ways, it feels as though my entire life has been nothing but holding my breath, waiting for this day. And yet, a part of me knows the only thing that will be different is the name written on some paperwork.
Growing up, I always felt less because I didn’t have parents; as if I was somehow incomplete, standing against a hostile world without anyone in my corner. And then I met you.
From the very first moment, you mesmerized me, filled my world with color – and drove me crazy in the best way. The greatest joy of my life has been getting to know you, learning how to support you and basking in the warmth of your love. Even years in, I’m constantly amazed by the new ways you find each day to surprise me and make me laugh. A lifetime won’t be long enough to truly understand all the wondrous and complicated parts of you, but it’s the best place for me to start.
Today has always been an inevitability, as if I’ve been counting down the days until I could call myself your husband since I first saw you outside OSA-P. But no matter what the law might say, you are already my family. The family I chose, who chose to walk this life alongside me. A ring and some words in front of a priestess won’t change that – it will only prove to the world what we already know.
I know that I love you, Usako, and that my life feels complete only with you in it. I cannot wait to take this next step in our journey together.
All my love,
Your Mamo-chan
Dear Dr. Tsukino,
Okay, it’s so fucking cool to actually write that. My husband is a doctor!! Doctor Mamo-chan ❤️
You have worked so unbelievably hard these last 10 years – your whole life, technically, but I’ve been around to see the sweat and stress of the last 10 years – and now you’re finally getting to do what you set out to do!! I am so proud of you.
I wanted you to have something extra special for your first day, so I convinced Mako-chan to make your lunch today. Don’t worry, we’ll be back to the usual conbini bentos tomorrow!!
I hope the other doctors are being friendly and I can’t wait to hear all about your day when you get home tomorrow morning. Which is way too long, imo. Once I’m queen, the first thing to go will be these ridiculous 24 hour shifts at hospitals – 1. I want to see you more often than that and 2. There’s no way that’s good for either the doctors or the patients.
Whoops SORRY, lost my focus for a second.
The point is I love you, Mamo-chan, and I know you’re crushing your first day!! I hope you impress your supervisor and make a friend.
See you soon ❤️❤️❤️
Love,
Usako
Groceries – 18 July
- Laundry detergent (2x)
Coffee- Baby wipes
- Nursing pads
- Nipple cream
- Häagen-Dazs chocolate chip
- Avocado cream cheese tortilla chips
- Hello Panda cookies
- Tofu (silk)
- Pork
- Panko
- Green onions
- Cabbage
- Coffee (decaf)
To my husband, the future King of the Earth (see, now you can honestly say someone does call you that) –
It’s hard to believe this day is here already. I think I always thought there would be more time – longer for us to be just ‘us’. After today, it’ll be us and about seven billion other people.
But no pressure.
It’s always seemed strange to me that you were Endymion – you were the fated prince of this planet – but I’m the one who’s somehow supposed to take over and bring about paradise.
Something about that seems backwards to me, and yet you’ve never once made me feel like I should actually question it. The amount of trust and faith that you have always shown me is… it’s humbling, Mamo-chan. I feel like I don’t deserve it, even though I’m so, so grateful for it.
So here I am at three in the morning, unable to sleep, thinking about tomorrow. And how everything is going to change.
But, even though everything is going to change – our lives, our responsibilities, our names – I know you won’t change. No matter what I call you, you will always be the same loving, supportive, occasionally-intentionally-irritating man I fell in love with.
I don’t really know what tomorrow will bring – utopia, I hope. And the Black Moon Clan, probably, though it would be nice if Ami-chan was right and we landed in a different timeline this time and got to skip all that.
It’s funny, even with our glimpses of the future, we still don’t get to know what to expect. The one thing I do know is that I couldn’t do this without you.
You are my rock, my person, the constant in this and all my lives.
I’m scared of what tomorrow might bring, afraid that I’ll make a mistake that causes a lot of people a lot of problems. I’m worried I won’t be any good at this queen thing and that people will laugh at me. And then I remember that you’ll be by my side the whole time. No matter what, we’ll make it through together, and that makes it all feel a lot less scary.
I love you, Mamo-chan. Thank you for agreeing to be my king ♥️
Love,
Usagi – aka Neo Queen Serenity 🐇