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I hope you're alone, wherever you are. I hope you regret throwing me away.
His mind couldn't think of much else, could hold onto little more than that as he bled out from the combined crossfire of the Shadow Legion and Vex in Neomuna's current incursion zone. Just the injustice. The unfairness. The partial gratitude that he was elsewhere. The bitterness.
All went black until Oracle brought him back to life.
He sometimes thought about crushing Oracle in his hands -- like so many Hive Ghosts -- so she could never resurrect him again. But he couldn't bring himself to hurt her. He'd already hurt another enough.
But not himself. Himself, he could never bring enough suffering. His thoughts drifted away from him to the reason he was here, alone, outnumbered and outgunned.
He didn't need to glance at her to know the Ghost was worried. He didn't even have the will to tell her not to be. Concern was the only reasonable response to his behavior.
Kessius dodged behind a munitions-container, an aura of dark frost trailing behind him and crystallizing the frames of the seven Vex Goblins around him in lightless ice, crackling, creeping, dominating, controlling. What he always was. The Stasis he'd always felt closest affinity with over and above all other elements in the system. He could feel the Darkness bleeding into his heart. He'd never been so angry, before.
I hope the guilt lingers in you like the black of space. I hope you remember everything I did for you, for us, how long I endured.
He'd never been so full of sorrow, resentment and pain took up so much of him. He was letting himself feel it all, letting it devour him as the ice crept through his veins and senses, the crystals he manifested to rip apart the worthless constructor-Vex frames so much more brutal, towering and imposing than any he'd yet summoned. He shot through two of the ones left standing. One with his shotgun, the other melted down with a trace-rifle. Just the way she'd taught him.
Quiet in the street... He breathed. He wished he didn't.
As he walked to the massive Stasis crystal, the black ice radiated his own cruelty at him, his own reflection gazing back, distorted and malevolent.
I hope you wonder where I am. I hope you're worried. I hope I haunt you. I hope I never let you rest at night and you have no one to turn to.
With a cold, silent rage he slammed a fist into the crystal and shattered it, enjoying the sharp feeling of the ice shards gouging scratches into his arm, striking back at him just the way he'd struck.
A searing pain slammed into his back, knocking the trace-rifle out of his hands, and he turned around as quickly as possible to throw the crystalline shuriken he'd just woven from Darkness at the intruders. Three Shadow Legionaries. Weak. Fragile. Frail flesh tore and rrrrrripped open as his withering blade bounced between them, goring through their bodies and leaving frost deep inside all three, pulsing to the same beat and rhythm as the black hole in his heart.
I hope the wound in your soul hurts even half as bad as mine.
He only needed one arm to use his sword, thin-blade low to the ground and off to the side as he ran at them, slashing through each. Before he used to wonder what they did to deserve being corrupted, twisted and zombified the way Calus and the Witness had done to them. What did I do to be treated the way I was? Why did I deserve it either? Meat. They were all just meat. Just like himself. End them. Kill everything. Everything. Everything...
A blast blew him off his feet and he only saw the Wyvern turn the corner when the Thresher above had already started firing its missiles at them both.
He closed his eyes and for a moment, the utter ice in his chest and soul gave way to the longing memory of Solar Light. The gentle warmth of a Well of Radiance, saving him just in time for a mute Warlock to hit a sassy pose as if to tell him to watch his back. He smiled as the missiles and warp lance tore his limbs from his body.
I hope you're doing better than I am. I hope you've forgotten all about me, and always have a reason to smile. I Love you.
Everything went black again.