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Tissaia paced the room in an uncharacteristic bout of open frustration. Yennefer had truly done it this time and Tissaia didn’t think she would be able to protect Yennefer from the consequences of her own actions
“Honestly Yennefer - why couldn't you have stayed calm for once, instead of flying off the handle!” why did Yennefer constantly feel the need to antagonize the Brotherhood. Why couldn’t she just assert some measure of control for once in her life “ I hope you're happy! I hope you're happy now, I hope you're happy how you Hurt your cause forever I hope you think you're clever!”
Yennefer was equally frustrated by Tissaia’s blind obedience, never thinking for herself always bowing to the brotherhood “I hope you're happy, I hope you're happy, too
I hope you're proud how you Would grovel in submission To feed your own ambition”
When had Tissaia become such an ambitious person, when did she decide she needed to take control of the brotherhood and become the leader?
Yennefer and Tissaia both felt a wave of bitter resentment towards the other, it was nothing new to either of them despite secret hopes of a better relationship. But if this was truly what the other wanted they both shared the sentiment
So though I can't imagine how
I hope you're happy right now
Tissaia sighed and ran a hand over her face, she didn’t want to fight Yennefer truly she didn’t. ever since Yennefer had left all Tissaia wanted was for her safe return
“Yenna, listen to me. Just say you're sorry: You can still be with the Witcher” the thought left a bitter taste in TIssaia’s mouth but if that was what it took, then she would accept what she could “What you've worked and waited for. You can have all you ever wanted:”
“I know.” Yennefer sighed. She knew if she just apologized submitted and obeyed in time she would be forgiven. But she didn’t want that life, didn’t want a life of meek obedience with someone else making the rules
“But I don't want it - No - I can't want it, anymore:” how best to explain to TIssaia what she was going through? She wasn’t even sure she knew herself “ Something has changed within me. Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap! It's time to try Defying gravity I think I'll try Defying gravity , And you can't pull me down!”
“Can't I make you understand?” Tissaia begged, clutching Yennefer’s arm “You're having delusions of grandeur:”
Yennefer shrugged her off and defiantly declared “I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so” she gave Tissaia a pointed look. Tissaia was always telling her the limits the brotherhood set. But Yennefer refused to abide by the brotherhoods outdated and archaic rules “ Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know! Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost”
Tissaia Geralt, Istredd Yennefer had loved them as best as she could, but they all wanted something more from her. “Well, if that's love It comes at much too high a cost!”
They all wanted Yennefer to be someone she isn’t and she was tired of it.
“I'd sooner buy Defying gravity Kiss me goodbye I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down” a thought dawned on Yennefr she had doubt but she also had a faint trace of hope “Tissaia - come with me. Think of what we could
do: together.”