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Home
I was Raphael
Angel of the highest order
Architect of the cosmos and an ear to God
And then I fell
Questions blazed in me like a wildfire
That became the hellfire
That swallowed me up
The descent was steep
It was fast and full of pain
Wings that had buoyed me
Torn, shattered, ripped, and burned
All that remained were holes where my heart used to be
I was a demon
Creature of the night
Temptation of knowledge and power
Seducing God’s creations to follow my path
Whispering in their ears
Slithering through the souls of the damned
But I grew weary
My work for naught
Evil against good
Painting the world grey
You and I
Together
Our own side
Our own space
Carved by clandestine happenstance
And a blossoming bond
Together we grew grey
But when you left
Cleansing the grey from your soul
Forgiving me for my kiss
The hole that I had patched with sarcasm and audacity
Fell apart at the seams
A gaping black hole
A punishment far worse than hell could design
And still, I longed for your presence.
In purgatory, I would have remained for eternity
It would be my heaven
Should you be safe and free
Certainty, serenity, peace
And that once more brightened my wings
Now you’re here with me
Promising me a forever
Of just being us
And I accept
I have flown high, and I have fallen
And for you, I have ascended once more
I am a being of heaven and hell
And yet I belong to neither
I have been blinded by the light and tortured through the night
I have flown through the sky and crawled along the earth
Lived for millennia in a house made of ash and smoke
Seen horrors and wonders of eons past and present
And yet in your arms
I am home