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The air hung heavy around us. I hadn't anticipated Edward to come back with us, I didn't even expect Alice to stay after I saved Edward. Throughout the whole plane ride, I anxiously waited for them both to drop the news I still wasn't sure I would've been ready to hear, that they were going to leave me again. Even the thought of that set my brain on fire; on the one hand, I so desperately needed Edward to stay with me. But some small part of me, that has been slowly gnawing at me since I've seen him again, is furious. How dare he leave me so effortlessly, like it didn't tear him apart inside like he claimed it did. He's been making out like nothing even happened, like I didn't lose part of myself when he left. That small, furious part of my brain wants to throw that in his face, get angry, and yell at him. If it was bigger, I probably would have.

It was awkward to say the least when we made it back to Charlie's house. He was also furious, making sure to ground me for the rest of my life, a joke I'm sure, and forbidding Edward to be around me at home. I don't blame Charlie for that, I can't. I left so suddenly after his friend's death which is when he needed me most. He's also angry for Jacob. We became so close, and then I just up and left him. Jacob doesn't seem to mind, at least when I'm around, which isn't often.

My school friend's were also worried. I could feel it as I parked my truck in the parking lot, all of the eyes on me. I tried ignoring them as I oh-so-casually left the safety of my truck, only getting one foot out when I felt my phone buzzing in my front pants pocket. I grabbed my phone as I walked towards the school, while also noting Edward's absence as I walked alone. Flashes from the day before filled my head and my anger at Edward returned. How dare he ask me to marry him after six months of being apart. Sighing, I put my anger aside and read the text on my phone. It was from Jacob, wondering if I would actually say yes to Edward. As I stood by my locker, having already grabbed my things for class, I replied a simple no before heading to my classes for today.

All of my classes tend to blur together when my mind is full. I barely even noticed it was lunch and I had already grabbed my food and sat down with my friends until Angela shook my shoulder.

"Bella? Hey, you spaced out." She whispered. I gave her a nod in return.

"Yeah, it's nothing just some things on my mind." I whispered back. She gave a sympathetic look then came closer.

"It's about that college in Italy, right? Or is it because Edward's back?" She asked teasingly. I gave her a small smile as I gave her a nod. She looked as if she was going to ask more, but then Eric began talking to her, leaving me alone with my thoughts again. Well, not alone, I tell myself as I take my phone out of my pocket and look at my recent messages. Jacob had messaged back, relieved but questioning about whether I wanted to get back together with Edward after everything that had happened.

The school bell rang, and as I went to my next class I began to wonder to myself. Am I really going to let him back into my life this easily? Without having him even apologizing for leaving? And as the rest of the school day passed, I tossed those questions around in my head. After the day was finished and I was finally back home, I paused in my truck as I though about whether I wanted to see Edward so soon, knowing he was already waiting for me in my room. I knew I didn't want to, but I also didn't know where else to go before suddenly thinking of Jacob. Edward couldn't follow me there, not without breaking the treaty. I turned my truck back on and as I began to back out of my driveway, I looked towards my rooms window. Edward stood there, looking down at my confused. I shook my head no at him then turned my attention onto the road, making my way to Jacobs house.

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I know Edward could follow me if he wanted to, and he probably is, but I just needed to see Jacob. He was, is, the Sun in my life; it doesn't hurt to be with him. But, the wounds from Edward leaving are just too fresh, I just can't be around him right now. Besides, I can think more clearly with Jake. His presence doesn't make me tunnel vision on vampirism and wanting to be one. If anyone could help me chose it's him. He may have his bias, but ultimately he can help me. Even if the outcome is to remain human.

Jacob was already outside when I pulled up, almost as if he was expecting to see me today. As soon as I turned my truck off, I flung myself out and into the warm, loving arms of Jacob. Instantly, I felt better with every anxiety slowly leaving me as the hug went on. Jake mumbles in my hair his happiness to see me. I give a squeeze, well as much of one that I'm able to do. I never remember how much I miss Jacob until I'm with him.

"I'm surprised you're here with me after what happened when you came back." Jacob said as he led me into his house. As we entered, I could see his friends at the edge of the woods, talking until they noticed I was there. Though, as soon as I stepped into Jake's house, I seemingly forgot about what was going on outside, noticing instead that Billy wasn't here. He must be with Charlie, who did mention going fishing today.

"Of course Jake, you're my best friend, why wouldn't I want to see you?" I questioned, mostly rhetorical.

"I almost attacked your blood sucker. And tried to demand you away from him. Hell, I wouldn't even come near me." He stated. I gave him a small smile and a nod as I thought. He's right, that was bad. But, I didn't want that to end things between us. Besides, Edward was acting just as much from his anger, even if he does show it differently.

"Well, you were just worried about me, right? I don't want that to drive us apart." I tell him. He lifted his head up and to the left, then back towards me.

"It wasn't just worry, Bella." He whispered, keeping his eyes towards the ground. I walked closer to his still form, grabbing his chin between my forefinger and thumb to get him to look at me.

"I know you also don't want me to be turned into a vampire either Jake." I said, maintaining eye contact. He shuffled closer, putting an arm around me to pull me closer to him.

"Well, yes, that too. I still don't understand how you could want to be one of them." He told me, with worry etched onto his face. I break our eye contact, debating on whether or not to tell him that I have to change now, or I'll be killed. He senses me fear, pulling me into another hug.

"I know, I know. You love Edward and all that. But I know you love me too. Think about how much easier It would be to be with me." He whispered down to me. I appreciate his words, I do love Jacob in some way. I'm not exactly sure how, but I do love him. But me loving Edward isn't the sole reason anymore.

I break away from the hug, unable to stay still any longer. Jacob grows visibly worried as I began to pace his floor, deciding whether I should risk telling him everything or not. I don't have to long to think before Jake makes his way over to me, most likely concerned with my behavior. The anxiety overwhelms me as I look up at his face, the concern prominent on his features.

"I have to become a vampire," I blurt out, "I don't have a choice anymore!"

"What?" Jacob asks incredulously, his hands held onto my shoulders, preventing me from falling.

"I have to be a vampire." I tell him again. He looks at me like I've lost my mind as he gets closer.

"Is this because of Edward? He abandons you and then thinks he can just change you on a whim." He angrily says as he lets his soft grip on me go. He turns and slowly walks away while trying to even his breathing.

"No. Edward doesn't even want me to be a vampire. But, the Volturi know about me and-" I begin to explain, unable to fully tell Jacob as Sam bursts into the front door.

"Jacob, we need to talk to you. Alone." Sam announced. Jacob immediately followed him outside, leaving me alone in his house. As they talk, I can make out a few, terrifying words: the redhead, closer, danger. It had to have been about Victoria. I slowly feel myself begin to panic as I made my way to the front door. I could see Jacob and Sam's figures leaving towards the edge of the woods, so I used that opportunity to run to my truck.

I didn't want to see him today, but Edward had to know. They all did. If Victoria was around then we were all in danger.