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It was currently morning on the desolated planet that J was currently on, meaning that she and her squat couldn't go hunting for worker drones as they would burn up in the sunlight like some sort of robotic Vampires, instead they use the day time to rest and sleep until it's night again. Except J wasn't sleeping like her two squat members, who were outside hanging off of the inside of the death spire they built around their space craft. Instead she was sitting in their landing pod drinking a can filled with gasoline she took from N.
He undoubtedly had brought this in hopes that he could convince V to have a sip of it together, but that wouldn't be happening as J confiscated the canister as a punishment for N missing his quarter for the week, at least that's what she told him. In reality she took it to drown out her anger.
''Off course he would bring this for her!'' J said as she took another sip from the canister, not bothering to find herself a cup to drink from. ''Cuz why border doing your job, when you can spent company time wasting to chase after someone who doesn't even realize you exist 90% of the time!'' She continued after removing the canister from her mouth.
It wasn't the first time that J was frustrated at her coworkers lack of result's when it came to disposing of the worker drones on Copper-9. He never had his head fully in the game, instead of hunting worker drones he preferred to spent his time trying get the attention of his crush, who couldn't even bother to remember him and in the meanwhile J was stuck trying to get him to focus on his damn job.
''Damn that stupid idiot, with his annoying constant smile and his idiotic, unproductive obsession with dogs and his cute hair!'' J said before bringing the canister back to her face, only to realize that she already had drank all that was in there.
''Arrrg!'' J groaned as she drew the now empty canister away, in the process falling head first on the she was standing in frond.
She would only lift her head a little to move her hand underneath it so that it would rest on something softer. ''Why her?'' J thought to her self ''Why do you only have eyes for her? Why can't you ever see me?'' She stopped her train of thought and replaced it another one.
''No why can't I just hate you?'' She began ''It would be so much easier, after all you deserve it! You damn useless idiot, you just had to be so nice to me, making me fall for you all these years back. Fucking asshole!'' She thought as she remembered first meting N.
It was back at the mansion, J was the only one who kept her memories of those days and as she thought back to those days forking for the Elliot's or to be more specific for the young mistress. She was the first one that young Tessa had got from the junkyard and fixed back up, then after her came N into the picture. At first she didn't like him that much as she didn't thought that Tessa would fix up more drones, that initial dislike didn't last however as they got to know each other more.
It didn't take long for her to fall for his adorable smile, his cheerful attitude that would make even the worst of day's fell like it was a great day, which was a great feat considering they worked in the mansion of Mr. and Mrs. Elliot who weren't above even tormenting their daughter.
There was no denying it she was in love with him and she was sure he felt the same, until the day that Tessa brought V into the mansion. That's when she realized that N was just being nice to her all this time as he fell in love with V on first sight. J's heart broke that day and she wished that she could hate N for making her fell that way and she sure tried her best to hate him, even going as far as to insult him and physically assault him but it didn't work. As much as she wanted to hate him she couldn't, she still loved him and it hurt her.
He was her first love and would always be her only love and she hated it knowing that he would never love her back his heart belonged to V.
The worst part of being transformed into these killing machines by Cyn was that both N and V had their memories wiped, while she could cling to hers with all that she got, the reason this was so bad is because for a moment it gave her hope, it wasn't just that their memories of each other were gone but the transformation broke V mentally. She stopped being as sweet and innocent as N but instead got turned into a blood thirsty psychopath or well oil thirsty in their case.
J did feel bad for V but she would be lying if it didn't also make her a little bit happy thinking that she now had another chance with N, and that's when her heartbreak began all over again as he still only had eyes for her.
''What the Fuck is wrong with me!?'' She began to thing to her self again ''What does SHE has that I don't, why can't he love me, WHY? WHY? WHY?'' Tears started to form on her visor,
''Damn it no J!'' She lifted her head to slap herself ''Don't think those stupid thought's! Just hate him.'' She continued to berate herself as she started to think out loud ''Why can't you just fucking Hate him you idiot!''.
''HE DSERVES TO BE HATED, HE DOES NOTHING BUT BE USELESS, CAUSE YOU TROUBLE AND PLAYS WITH YOUR DAMN HEART!!!'' J started to scream out lout in her drunken rage, causing the set individual she was screaming at to herself to wake up from the noise.
N slowly woke up, a bit disoriented wondering where the noise was coming from, as he started to gather himself again from waking up right after entering deep sleep mode, noticed that the noise came from the pod. He could hear that it was J and she sounded really angry but couldn't figure out what she was angry about as he couldn't understand the muffled words coming out of the pod.
He knew that it would properly end in a beating if he went to check on her to see what had made her so angry this early in the day, which for them was late in the night. But he didn't care if there was even the smallest chance that he could help her he would risk it. After all he liked helping out wherever he could.
Back in the pod started to cool down but still crying ''Except. . .except he didn't, it was my own damn fault. All he did was be nice to me, I'm the idiot who decided that he would be the love of my life just because he was kind to me. Still is!''
That was the worst part about it all, it's that he's still as kind to her as the day they first met. Despite the fact that she's trying her hardest to both hate him and have him stop be kind to her in any way, small or big. Thinking it would make thinks easier if he just stopped.
She slowly started to lover her heat back on the table, she then heard a noise coming from the hatched in the pod, she tilted her to side a little just to see who it was and of course out of all people that could be coming down right know it had to be N, just who she needed right know.
''What do you want N, don't you know how early it is? You should be sleeping.'' J said to him, making sure to burry her face back into into her arms not wanting him to see her face, nor did she want to look at him.
''I heard you scream in here, you sounded really mad about something. Is everything ok?'' N asked as he got of the ladder, sounding worried about his leader.
''I am now go away!'' she said cursing herself for not controlling her temper earlier.
''Can I help you with it?'' he asked as he slowly approaching her.
''No now go!'' she tried to sound annoyed so that he would leave but instead he only got closer.
''Are you sure J?'' he arched forward trying to peak at her face,
J really wanting to make the message clear this time got up from the stool she was sitting on and looked as angry ash she did before when she was screaming at her self. '' YES I'M SUR-e.'' Unfortunately she didn't realize that she was to drunk to stand while sitting, something she would be made aware of in her attempt to make N leave.
As she made her peace with the fact that she would get a face full of the ground, N calling out to her in a worried tone, step in to catch her before she could do so.
N was a bit confused at J loosing her footing and falling as soon as she stood up, he took a quick look around for any clue and realized what was happening as soon as he saw the gasoline canister without a cap on the ground but not a sing drop of gasoline anywhere. That and he could also smell it on J being so close to him.
J felling embarrassed with the whole situation tried to get her self off of him and back onto the stool she was siting on before challenging gravity in her drunk state ''Let go N!''.
That however wouldn't be happening as N decided to take her hand and put over his shoulder leading her towards her bed. All three of them had beds in the pod for when they were in space in order to sleep, after all this was a space craft despite being broken at the moment. J was just the only one wanting to sleeping in the pod the whole time as both N and V both preferred to sleep hanging upside down instead of their beds.
V because it was a faster to just sleep outside and fly right out to hunt, then getting out side of the pod and then take flight. N just liked it because it was far more comfortable for him to sleep hanging upside down no matter how soft or big the bed is that he could lay on top of.
''What are you doing idiot!'' J said hating how he made her fell right know.
''I'm helping my leader to her bed.'' N said with a smile on his face looking at her face.
He helped her lay down in her bed and pulled a blanked over her, then started to climb into his own bad which was the top one of the tree bed that were in the wall, with only V's currently unused bed being between them,
J in a confuse tone asked ''Why are you crawling into your bed?''.
''To sleep.'' He quickly responded to her.
''Bud I thought you like to sleep outside hanging of the spire?'' She asked him again.
''Yes I do but I just can't leave you lone in that state, I wanna be close to you in case you need help.'' He said not knowing what dose word dis to her ''Good night J and have sweet dreams!''.
''Good night N.'' J said burring her face into her pillow thinking to her self ''Damn that idiot, how are you so cruel to me by just being nice to me?'' .