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1. oh, god rest my soul (i miss who i used to be) by viiidispade

   Fandoms: The Sandman (TV 2022)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Rape/Non-Con
   • F/M, M/M, Multi
   • Complete Work

   20 Oct 2023

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Rape/Non-Con
   • Calliope/Dream of the Endless | Morpheus
   • Calliope/Hob Gadling
   • Calliope/Dream of the Endless | Morpheus/Hob Gadling
   • Dream of the Endless/Hob Gadling
   • Calliope & Dream of the Endless | Morpheus & Hob Gadling
   • Calliope (The Sandman)
   • Hob Gadling
   • Dream of the Endless | Morpheus
   • Desire of the Endless
   • Death of the Endless
   • Hob Gadling's Students
   • The Muses
   • a whole lot of tangential mythological characters
   • Erasmus Fry
   • Warning: Erasmus Fry
   • erasmus fry is his own warning
   • Calliope Needs a Hug
   • Everyone Needs A Hug
   • calliope gets a hug
   • Fluff and Angst
   • But mostly angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Grief/Mourning
   • self-destructive behaviors
   • Healing is not linear
   • and neither is this
   • Healing
   • Recovery
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • this is as close to whump or dead dove as i write
   • but there are bright spots i think (hope) balance it out
   • tags may be added or revised
   • this might just be a Me Thing
   • Character Study

   Summary

   “I am no longer what I was.”
   It is her voice. She knows it is her own, distant and distorted, and hates its burn across her tongue. She hates the truth that echoes into tantalizing oblivion.
   “Nor am I,” he says. It tastes like a blessing, and yet it pales against the promise in his touch, the hand that cloaks her own. “Calliope, one cannot live unchanged. We cannot.”
   “Then I shall not,” she confesses. “Oneiros, I cannot.”
   “You can,” he vows, and she aches to believe him. “Stay, Calliope, here and with me.”
   -
   in which a muse shatters and grows and permits herself to be saved.

   (aka: calliope in the nightmares' cave.)

   Series

   • Part 5 of you're not gruesome, just human (and you've made a few mistakes)

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