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February 8th, 1930 09:00 am
I remember how I stood there in front of your lifeless body, Unsure of what to do, Your eyes looked like they found peace whilst I felt as if my whole world was collapsing right in front of me, You're still selfish even in death, but you would know that I’d still forgive you because that's how much I truly loved you.
I held your body so carefully as if you were to disappear, I can't stop the wet tears from falling Giyuu, First Genya, and now you?, Why do the most important people in my life leave, please I’m begging you, god, I'm begging you to bring him back to me, Please he’s all I have. I begged on the floor praying to a god that may not even be real, I was desperate and I was all alone.
The man I loved was right there in front of me, His once-tinted blue eyes went back to the lifeless color they once were before, Your warmth wasn't the same warmth I felt before I want to feel it again I hate how cold you feel to the touch
I had completely forgotten about the curse, This stupid fucking curse. I just wanted a life of peace now I feel nothing but sorrow, My heart's beating but it's just beating, My mind's thinking but it's not thinking straight, Giyuu what do I do? I don't know what to do please don't leave me, please come back
I just wanted to wake up to the sight of your face, greet you a happy birthday, and maybe go on a picnic and go home and make love but I wake up to my worst nightmare, Someone pinch me I feel like this is a dream.
February 11th, 1930 11:11 am
Then there was your Funeral, I was standing in front of your casket, You look so beautiful, no, You’ve always looked beautiful, like an angel, The day I told Tanjiro about your death he collapsed and sobbed uncontrollably and Nezuko wouldn't get out of bed for a week, and I also realize the amount of blabbering I said that day I found you.
I know you’d want me to move on and live my life, But in reality, what would I really do, Where would I go? And recently I finally answered that question, that I’ll live my life but I won’t move on and I’ll patiently wait till my time comes and find you, Because I know where you’d be, Idiot, my idiot
I almost forgot about this too, I know you wouldn’t have accepted something so fancy but it matched your eyes, This ring, was supposed to be your gift, but here we are, I stood there for a moment contemplating if I should say the next words Im about to tell.
I'm not mad knowing you died cause of the curse, I'm mad or confused I’m not sure it’s just ever since that day I’ve always thought you found satisfaction in dying and I still wonder what your last moments were was it satisfaction? Or was it something else?
Who knows maybe I’ll find out when I meet you again.
November 28th, 1930 11:11 pm
Hey Giyuu, It's my birthday tomorrow, You know what that means anyways, Ever since I traveled throughout Japan, My body got continuously weaker over the months, Is this what you felt? If so, I wish I could have noticed. But you were always so good at masking yourself and I thought I knew you but in reality, I didn't there was still so much more to learn about you, none the less I hope we get to talk about it once I get there.
My smile faded as I’ve come to another realization, I don't know whether to feel sad or happy, I’d love to come to see you but I also have this guilty feeling of leaving everyone.
I looked up at the sky to see a star shining much brighter than the others, I kind of wish I knew what time it exactly was but I felt my legs numbing and my breathing unsteady, I'm not sure if it was cause I let myself lose which I doubt, I'm still keeping shape, but it's most definitely the curse.
I can't wait to see your face again and to hear your voice again, I remember crying uncontrollably when I forgot what your voice sounded like, I also slummed myself in alcohol when I forgot what your face looked like, but now all I want to see is you.
All I remember now is that you were beautiful and that you had ebony hair and pale skin, I grabbed the sapphire blue necklace and snapped the tie from my neck, and your eyes, they were this shade right?
The sun is setting Yuu, I must have been here for hours, well I can't help it, Tanjiro’s probably looking for me out of concern, but luckily we have Tengen with us, I hope his kids don’t end up like him but thankfully his wives are nice, You should've seen Hinatsuru scolding him, holy shit it was fucking hilarious, also, Tanjiro and Nezuko are alright, Youve got nothing to worry about.
November 29th, 1930 04:00 am
My hand fell numb after that and my eyes grew heavy, I think I'm gonna see you now, well I am a bit drunk sorry about that but Tengen offered.
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“Nemi wake up”