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• (Y/d) = Your designation •
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𝗡𝗼𝘄 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴:
"I'll Never Smile Again - Frank Sinatra & Tommy Dorsey Orchestra"
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"...know that we have met before
and that we will meet again.
I will find my way to you in the next life
and every life after that."
- mia hollow -
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You walked around the Nemesis as the clacking sounds of your pedes echoed through the long dark corridors of the enormous ship. You headed towards med-bay. Not that you were injured or anything. For the past several days you felt... tired.
Mentally.
A lot of things happened since the Great War, you've lost so many close friends, some of whom you considered a family. You even watched them die before your eyes, others have betrayed you as they joined the Autobots, thus leaving you completely alone. You were broken, but since you were a Decepticon, you got used to not showing any emotions in front of anyone. Otherwise, you would be considered weak and pathetic. That's what at least Megatron told you.
When you landed on Earth and gladly joined the warlord's army, there was a sense of relief in your spark once you saw the red Decepticon medic was alive. You knew him since you were brand new to the world. You were inseparable on Cybertron. He was so glad to see you again and you were alive as well. Both of you loved to spend time with one another. You almost forgot what it felt like.
As time passed, Megatron was very satisfied with your service and fighting abilities on the battlefield, you became one of his most respected commanders, regardless Starscream's complaints. The Decepticon SIC was a pain in your aft, but at least he was easy to ignore. Besides him, everyone else seemed rather nice.
Two Vehicon soldiers passed next to you as they just left the med-bay, "Hey, (Y/d)!" one of them greeted happily as he waved his servo at you.
You chuckled in return, waving your hand back at him, "Hello to you too, Steve." soon, you appeared at the entrance of the medical bay and peeked your helm inside, looking out for Knock Out. He was filling out reports for Megatron until you decided to gently knock on the metal wall.
He turned around and put on a smug face as he saw you, "Ah, (Y/d). What brings you to the medic ward today?" he set down his report and awaited your response.
You smiled, stepping closer to him and sat on the medical berth beside him, "Just coming by to see how are you doing."
"Heh, a few scratches but nothing too bad." he leaned on the counter, "What about you, need anything medicated? Or maybe something else?"
"Nah, I'm fine. I needed to talk to someone since you are my closest friend here. How did the mission go?"
"Well, I'm glad that I could be such a shining light for you here." you snickered due to his reply, "The mission was tough, had to battle a lot of Autobot scums, but it was worth it. At least we got the relic." he looked at you, "Now what did you want to talk about, doll? You can tell me anything, no secrets."
You glanced away for a moment, he had probably noticed your troubled behavior. He was the only mech you can count on and talk about anything. He always found a way to make you feel better. To be honest, you couldn't help but to start develop feelings for him. But you knew deep inside that he only viewed you as his friend, nothing more, so you decided to shake off those feelings and keep what you already had between the two of you. Finally, you let out a small vent and began, "I wanted to get my mind off a few things and you always know how to cheer me up. That's why I came here."
"You know how it is with me, it's my pleasure to be of assistance." he answered with cockiness in his voice showing, how typical of him, "That aside, I am curious, what is it bothering you? Perhaps with all my experience and expertise I could lend a hand, no pun intended." the medic laughed and stood up, walking towards you, "So, tell me, what's been on your mind?"
"It's just-- too much. All these troubling emotions and thoughts, I had enough of it and I don't know how to make it stop."
"Ah, well..." he gently sat near you and put his clawed servo on your shoulder-pad, "If you're looking for ways to blow off steam then you're talking to just the right guy." his intake curved up, forming a smile, "How about I help you forget about these burdens, huh? It is why I am here after all."
You look up at him confused, "How?"
"I could always give you a few tips, I'm not just a medic you know, I'm also a gentleman." his red optics softened as he stared at you, "Just take it easy, alright? No need to worry about anything. Besides, you know I'm always here to listen if you need to vent. A lovely thing like you shouldn't be in such saddened state."
"No one has ever told me that before..." you smiled.
"What?"
"That I am lovely... I only got used to being cursed at or insulted."
He let out a warm chuckle and lifted your chin, "Allow me to be the first, then. You are gorgeous, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. I am glad to make someone beautiful like yourself smile."
You stared at him and confused thoughts began to roam inside your head. The way he acted, you wanted to believe he liked you too, but how were you supposed to know? There was no way you could find out unless you confessed to him first. But what if you were wrong? What if you ruin your friendship with him? You didn't want to lose another person in your life. Too many had already left.
"Doll? Are you alright?" he asked concerned.
"...Knock Out?"
"Yes?"
"You make me feel things... you know that?"
He blinked a few times at you and then his intake formed into a smirk, "Oh, really? What do I make you feel?" he purred and got close to you, "Care to tell me in detail?"
That fragger. Why he always had to be so cocky?! It was pretty obvious you were nervous. Was he teasing you on purpose? You spoke up again, "I-I don't know. I feel things I haven't felt before. Whenever I look at you, listen to you or even when I am around you... it makes me confused yet happy. I can't exactly explain it to you but—" your shaky servos gently cupped his face and his optics widened, "Perhaps I can show you?" you closed your optics and slowly leaned in, giving a soft kiss on his dermas.
Knock Out stood frozen for a moment until he finally melted at your touch and returned the gesture passionately. A few seconds after you broke the kiss you looked down, avoiding eye contact with him, but he continued to stare at you and smiled, "There's no need to have your feelings confused. You like me, admit it doll." he chuckled as he noticed your blue blush, "Just enjoy the moment with me and I'll be here to look out for you." he lifted you face-plate closer to his and planted a small kiss on your fore-helm.
"I—" you couldn't deny it any longer, so you decided that now it was the perfect time to tell him, "I love you. More than anything in this world, you mean so much to me." your frame began to shake.
For Frag's sake, not now!
You tried so hard not to break down in front of him, "I don't deserve you..."
The cherished red medic carefully wiped off the lubricant from your face with his thumb, "And I love you, even more than you could ever possibly imagine."
Why were you crying? You weren't supposed to cry!
"Doll, all I want to do, is spend every living moment with you, okay?" he held you close to his spark, "You don't need to worry about anything else." you started to sob as hot tears continued to fall your metal cheeks, he lovingly rubbed your back to soothe you down, "Just stay with me and I'll watch out for you, I'll love and protect you, I'll be with you for the rest of your life. I promise." he whispered in your audio receptor. His embrace was so comforting, you hugged him tight, too afraid to let go, "You are alright, darling, let it all out... you are safe and home now." he kissed your helm and caressed your cheek, "That's my beautiful (Y/d)." you were such a crying mess, "I swear I am yours. Just tell me if you need anything." he spoke softly and continued to hug you.
You looked at him, your down derma quivering, lubricant still sliding down your face, "You." you choked out, "I need you."
Knock Out cupped your face, "You have me. I am yours. You are mine. You. Have. Me." he let you lean against him as the tears kept coming, he looked at you with a soft loving gaze, "I promise, you are loved."
Those words made you weep uncontrollably you couldn't even take proper breaths anymore, "I don't want to let go of you. Ever. I don't know what I would do without you. You mean everything to me, words can't even describe it. You are so precious to me."
He hugged you even tighter, "My sweet (Y/d).... there's nothing to fear... not even death itself could hold me back from you. There's nothing that will end this. My love for you is eternal. Nothing and no one can take that away." he looked into your optics, "We're going to be together, forever."
"Yeah..." you lean your helm on his palm, "Forever..." you whispered as both of you touched fore-helms and closed your eyes.
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A Groundbridge appeared in the middle of nowhere. Several purple-black cars appeared from the portal. Lastly, a red Aston Martin hit the brakes the instant he got out of the light. Each one of the cars transformed into its Cybertronian form. Knock Out along with the troops began to examine one of Nevada's empty rocky terrains. The whole place seemed already ruined by the battle. Knock Out's spark sank in worry.
"(Y/d)?"
He called out your destination when he couldn't find you. When Megatron didn't receive a response from you, Knock Out insisted on investigating the situation with the help of several Vehicon soldiers. As he stared into the far distance, the red shiny doctor stepped closer to the silhouette of another robot lying on the ground.
"...Sweetspark?"
The cloud of dust disappeared from his vision as he approached your fallen immobile body. An entire puddle full of Energon has formed underneath you.
After dropping his prod, he kneeled beside you, his sharp digits trembled as they drew near you. He lifted you in his shaking arms and peered at your face-plate. The brightness... the warm soothing brightness of your optics was gone.
"Please..."
"Please, not like this... not now..."
He pleaded helplessly, stroking the side of your face. You didn't move at all. He continued to deny your death and cry out for you. He wanted you back, he needed you back. The medic refused to face the truth that the love of his life, his everything, was gone.
"(Y/d), don't leave me, my dear... I beg of you..."
"Stay with me..."
He finally broke down. Lubricant fell from his red optics as he gritted his teeth and he let out a curse in his native language. How could he let this happen? Knock Out leaned in and gently kissed your fore-helm, he didn't care about his Energon-covered finish, as long as he was close to you.
"I love you... I will always love you."
The silence hurts the most... this cruel and lonely silence of the world... a world without you. Every second of this emptiness and silence seemed like an eternity without his love. No amount of tears could even match his sorrow right now. But somewhere... deep inside his pulsing spark... he knew you would find each other again. That you were going to be together, no matter what. He will wait until then. He will wait as long as it takes.
For you.
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Somewhere on Earth, the lights of a small town shined through the darkness of the night sky. You walked down the streets, your shift had finally ended for today and you were able to go back home. You rushed towards your apartment because it was too dangerous for a single person like you to walk out alone at this late hour. So, you decided to take a shortcut through the empty park. While looking at your phone to check the time, you heard some strange metal noises coming from somewhere within the large trees and halted.
What the-?
What was that strange noise? You knew it was probably a bad idea and stupid to stay frozen in one place like a statue. You were curious about the sound and decided to take a peak anyway.
The sounds of the metal became louder and the path darkened as you got closer and closer to the strange noises, almost as if the world around you got darker too.
And yet... despite your curiosity, the path that you are taking feels right to take...
The forest looked so scary, yet inviting, and it almost felt as if the trees called out to you... as if something in that forest, was waiting for you, patiently.
It was hard for you to see where exactly you were going so you turned on the flashlight on your phone and looked around.
"H-Hello? Is someone there?" you asked with a nervous tone. You suddenly felt the ground shaking and heard loud and big approaching steps near you, "W-what is happening?!" you confusingly questioned as the earthquake stopped. You began to deep breaths, trying to calm yourself down. You were probably just hearing things... right?
You shook your head, "F*ck this." and began to leave. What you didn't expect when you turned around, was to see a shiny red material in front of you. It looked like metal. You stood there looking at it... the more stared its shape appeared more like a... leg? The thing moved and you backed away. As it stepped out in the open you saw a big figure staring at you with red eyes.
Everything except your hand refused to move, you gulped and very cautiously lifted your flashlight. A robot... the figure appeared to be a giant robot colored entirely in shiny cherry paint job. Fear began to consume as the large machine came closer and closer.
Nonono, this- this can't be real...
The robot stared down as you took several steps back. You are... small and weak compared to the giant towering over you. And all of a sudden, it reaches out its hand.
You did what every normal human would do. You ran.
Unfortunately, you weren't fast enough to get further away from it. Before you could even react, you yelped the moment its massive metal clawed hand wrapped around your tiny delicate body and picked you up from the ground, dropping your phone in the process.
Its hand was gentle... but you could feel the power in that thing... the overwhelming strength. You struggled to get free as you kicked your feet in the air, "N-no! Please- let me go!" you shouted out of complete fear, you had no idea what that thing was going to do next, that's what scared you the most. It brought you closer to its face as its red eyes scanned you. The voice was mechanical, yet somehow... soothing. It looked like it was smiling. The robot said the two words...
"Don't worry." it started to speak, slowly speaking those words, "Just... relax..."
"W-what...?" you stuttered. It was definitely not the time to relax, "Put me down, now!" you yelled at it again. It didn't do what you asked for, it only spoke up again.
"Do you trust me...?" the male voice had a hint of compassion to it even though it was mechanical. That massive robot, that giant machine could squash you with its hand if it really wanted to and yet... the way it looked at you... it didn't want to harm you at all. Was there another reason that made the robot want you... alive? You shot him a perplexed look and immediately shook your head.
Trust him? Trust him?! That was a massive deadly-looking machine for God's sake!
"N-no... please, don't kill me..." you slightly pleaded and squeezed your eyes, prepared for the worst yet to come. As you thought it might be your last moment, he started to speak again.
"I will not kill you."
As you opened your eyes, you raised your eyebrow in confusion, voice still shaking, "W-what do you want... from me then?"
He looked at you with genuine kindness, despite being a giant, red, scary robot. It seemed as if he was trying to decide how to answer your question. He said three simple words.
"I want you."
"What?!" you cried in terror and utter bewilderment. Why would he want a random human he just met? Was it for torture? Experimentation?! You felt sick to your stomach when all of those questions and thoughts filled your mind, "W-what could you possibly want me for?!"
He laughed, a laugh that should've sounded intimidating, but in that moment, was surprisingly gentle. His voice was deep and somehow soothing.
"To love."
You blinked several times at him, still not understanding what was going on. That giant scary thing wanted to... love? It actually had emotions? What was going on here...?
"I-I don't understand what is happening right now..."
The robot leaned close once again and this time, you could see his entire face, the red eyes and his smile. He still had you in his hand, it still seemed to be able to crush you with nothing more than a single hand squeeze, yet despite that, you didn't feel threatened, not after that statement he just made. His head came closer until his face was almost touching yours, and in a soft voice, he whispered, "Do you love me, too?"
"L-love you...?" your entire body trembled, "I don't know who- or even what are you! I'm literally fearing you right now!"
He pulled back just a little, his smile wavered for the briefest of moments and yet, even then, you could still hear the kindness in his voice, even if he was just a machine, he seemed genuine, "Please..."
When he moved his sharp finger closer, you squinted your eyes in terror but the moment he carefully touched your face, you felt a small piece of warmth and protectiveness, it was so confusing and yet so...strangely familiar, "Who... who are you?"
His touch was so soft and gentle, it made you feel safe, and you don't understand how or why. In that moment, he seemed more human, than a monster.
"My name is Knock Out." he answered.
Knock Out...? What a terrifying but odd name for a robot. Why... Why did you feel like you knew it from somewhere?
Your whole head started to hurt. All of this was so confusing and too much to handle for such a short amount of time. You grunted in frustration, "I-I don't...I can't-" all you wanted was to go home and rest after work, but no, the universe thought it would be way more fun for you to face a giant scary robot in the middle of the night and mess up with your head! Never in your life you have seen this machine before, and yet, his voice, his appearance and name sounded like you knew him from somewhere... and it wanted to be loved by you? Why you? The headache got even worse with every second, "Q-Quit messing with me! Make it stop!" you held your head, pleading for it to end, you didn't know if that so-called Knock Out was causing all of this, all of this mess inside you, it made you tear up, "P-Please, just make it stop..."
As your pain grew and your thoughts started to become more and more incoherent, he looked at you with worry, his soft red eyes glowed even brighter than before. The moment you glanced at him, your eyes widened as soon as you saw his face. He was watching you in sadness and... and love? This... this felt familiar. A sudden voice appeared in your head.
"We're going to be together, forever."
"I love you... I will always love you."
His broken voice spoke in your head as you watched the memory of him crying and fading out of your vision, leaving you all alone. Suddenly everything came back to normal and you gasped for air, not even knowing for how long you held your breath. Tears streamed down your face, the pain was gone, but the memories came. The memories of your past life with the mech you've loved so much.
"Are you alright...?" he asked gently, in a deep, soothing voice that made you feel... safe. It filled you with warmth.
"K-Knock Out...?" you stuttered out his designation, "Is... is this really you? Is all of this...real?"
He watched you in disbelief as you spoke out his name, his intake soon formed a smile, "Yes, it's me."
Your eyes started watering even more and your mouth quivered, you tightly hugged his digit that gently stroked your cheek, "I missed you so much..." you cried as he kissed the top of your head and nuzzled you.
He held you so tenderly, he felt so warm against your skin, "I missed you too..." he replied softly and smiled at you.
"Now..."
He stood up and held you with the utmost care, holding you close to his spark.
"Let's go home."
You felt yourself being lifted on his shoulder-pad, he turned around and walked away with the love of his life. He was so happy to be with you... happy to have found you again.