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"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."
―Dr. Seuss
I had made a promise.
And I planned on keeping it.
I really did, right up to the very end. I intended to see Ed and Al in their rightful bodies, to wish Ling luck as he became emperor of Xing I wanted to taste Winry's apple pie. She'd been practicing for some time now, trying to get it just right. I wanted to see Al's face as he ate that apple pie for the first time. To taste trifle for the first time. I wanted to meet this girlfriend of Bray's, I wanted to know if my brother was in good hands. Did he love her? Did she love him? Why didn't I ask that before?
I wanted Ed to hold me again.
Guess that isn't happening.
Father was right all along, I pushed and I pushed and I eventually caved under the pressure of it all. I wasn't fit for this world, I wasn't fit to survive here.
And so I would die here.
I had things I wanted to do though. I had come so damn far, and now I couldn't even lift my damn arm to wipe blood off my face. Was this my blood? I was bleeding an awful lot. Was he okay? Did I do a good job?
Dammit, I wish I had the chance to learn Alkahestry. I wanted to visit Xing, see the place Ling and Lan Fan talked about, their home. I wanted to stifle giggles as Ling had to act seriously when he's crowned Emperor. He'll do it, I know he will. He'll make his clan proud.
"Ed… Al… Don't…"
You have so much to live for, so many people counting on you.
Sorry.
Sorry I couldn't help you anymore. I'm sorry I couldn't do better. I'm sorry I lied to you, made you promises I couldn't keep.
I told you the truth once though, you're the strongest people I've ever met, and if there's anyone who can fix this, it's both of you.
Everything wasn't hurting anymore- is that a good thing? I mean if I'm going to die I'd rather not be in intense pain. In fact I felt light, weightless. With the strong sensation that I wasn't going away, but rather coming home.
Home.
Where is that?
Ling.
Winry.
Alphonse.
Bray.
"Don't worry…. About… me…"
Edward.
I'm so sorry.
I lied, so don't worry.
Don't worry about the Outsider.