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Finn Mertens, hero of Ooo. A strong boy who never, ever gives up. A reckless boy who would do anything for the people of Ooo. That's who he's known as... And well yeah, he is those things. But he's also just a boy... A young boy who wants to cry sometimes after scraping his knee. An occasionally clueless boy who often doesn't understand why the world throws all of its dangers his way, even if he's always eager to fight them.
Finn Mertens is tough, he can handle almost anything, especially with his buddies by his side! Even though sometimes, he wishes he could go poke some bugs with a stick rather than stab monsters with swords. It's what he was born to do though, and he loves doing it! He loves the thrill of battle, the adrenaline of just being a hero. So why does he constantly feel this duality? He didn't feel this when he was younger and was just happy to go around fighting things for princesses...
Maybe it started when The Lich was freed and suddenly... Everything became so much more serious. World-ending type of stuff... There were a lot of times when he felt helpless and like he wished he could've just been a regular boy again. He always shoved that down into the vault though. What kind of hero wishes not to be a hero?
Glob, maybe it started when... Fern... He promised Jake to stop using the vault... But that ones shoved deep in there for now... He still doesn't understand why or how Fern ended up how he did. The time he spent crying over him was one of the few times he let himself cry lately.
Maybe it didn't really "start" in a sense, maybe it just... Developed... This duality inside him. The desire for a simpler life, the guilt for things he doesn't even know if he should be guilty about, the... Confusion... Strong hero boys don't sit and cry about their inner turmoil. That's what he thought for a while. He even told Jake that sometimes being a hero makes him want to cry, and his brother only told him that it'd be healthier to cry or even take a break.
He doesn't remember the last time he took a break from anything. He can barely remember the last time he even fully enjoyed slaying a monster. It feels like he was a happy young hero and then suddenly, all his junk got donked up and he couldn't do any hero work without feeling some kind of turmoil. Maybe this is just getting older? Jake did tell him that growing up makes stuff complicated...
He was right, it did. He's realized everything he's done wrong that a hero should never do. He's hurt people... He's used people... He's made a lot of mistakes... There are a lot of things he wishes he could go back and change. Maybe that's why he constantly feels this turmoil. His regrets eat him alive when he's alone. He feels like he shouldn't even be a hero.
It's been too long since he had this kind of talk with himself. Actually, he doesn't know if he's ever done it... But It's surprisingly making him feel a lot better. Maybe he'll be okay if he does this more often. Yeah, he'll be okay.
Finn Mertens the hero of Ooo, he's just a boy. He has a lot of regrets, things he wishes he could fix and change. There are times he thinks he shouldn't be a hero... But he'll never turn his back on anybody. No matter what happens, he'll always pick himself back up.