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Dazai has had glasses ever since he was young, about 12 or 11. He never really liked them.. First of all they laid on his eyes uncomfortably. The second reason is that they were a huge disadvantage, If the enemy would see him wearing glasses they would know of his incapability to see very well and would try to use that against him. The third reason being, the way he looks with glasses.
Dazai doesn't let people see his insecurities much, but he has a lot of them. He just looks so wrong with glasses, he looks weak, hopeless and pathetic. Dazai doesn't like it, in fact he hates it. They make his face look wrong, twisted. Dazai thought that he looked like a different person, not that he liked himself very much, but it just felt horrifying.
So the second he and chuuya started dating when they were just 16, he vowed to never wear the glasses around him. Looks are important whether people admit it, or not. So he didn't want chuuya to change towards him for the worst if he wore the glasses. He would look horrible and he did not want that. Not now.
Dazai is good at hiding things. No in fact he is marvellous at it. He hid those round gold edged glasses for years. Usually he would go without them, because his sight wasn't as bad, but on days he really felt like he needed better sight, he used contact lenses. They helped him see without changing his appearance or making people acknowledge his weakness.
Dazai's pair of glasses were well taken care of anyways, because dazai knew that the glasses would be very useful for emergencies or anything like it, so he needed the glasses to be in good quality despite him not liking them.
There was a big issue through.. After uniting with chuuya after 4 years they reconnected and after the dostoevsky take down, they decided to move in together for good. Hiding the glasses was much harder now, with chuuya having access to everything in the house. Dazai needed to act fast and make some kind of place for his contact lenses and glasses without chuuya knowing.
He decided to settle for the agency's dorm room. Since none of the agency members knew about his relationship with the mafia executive, he could easily hide his stuff there. The agency thought he was living in the dorm so he could easily have access to it. Just to be safe dazai also hid the glasses and contact lenses under a floor board, he always has be extra safe, no? Technically dazai could also do that in his current place he lives in, but for the safety he decided against it. Dazai really didn't want chuuya to know so he needed a more safer plan.
He was successful for about a year of living with chuuya, currently being 24. That was until dazai realized that it was one of the days dazai felt like he just NEEDED the glasses. He always woke up before chuuya so he has time to act. Freeing from chuuya's grip on him (which took him about 20 minutes to get out of) dazai needed to get his contact lenses from the dorm and get back to his heavy sleeping boyfriend.. no not boyfriend... His heavy sleeping fiancee.
Dazai put on some of his clothes on as quickly as he could and he grabbed his coat from the hanger and practically ran out of their penthouse. You see dazai learned how to drive because chuuya made him learn how to drive properly because of the times he needed to get chuuya out of a bar or something like that. He decided to run instead since he would probably get in a car crash if he went with the car, and dazai wanted to die, not get injured and live.
Dazai ran as fast as he could, having trained under mori's care he was fast, very fast, in a lot of things, which included running. So he got there in about 10 minutes, having to open up the floor board he realised that he didn't have anymore contact lenses.. Shit. Okay, it's okay. He can buy some more quickly.
Suddenly as on que his phone started ringing, it was none other than chuuya. Should he pick it up? This is not good, at all. Dazai was stressing, panicking even. His breath was ragged and every breath felt like it was hurting, his throat was tight, dazai was shaking a lot because of the stress.
After 20 seconds of panic he gathered himself and answered it. "Hey chibiii~" he decided to go for his sing song voice despite his condition right now, dazai was good at acting. "Osamu, where the fuck are you?" Came chuuya's snarky reply, he was angry but that was nothing out of the ordinary.
"Ah, silly chibi, I am on a walk! Are you upset that I didn't take my dog out for a walk aswell~" dazai was still acting, his hands shaking, holding the contact lenses case, the store was closed today, and it was a very bad time to be closed at. "Get your ass home osamu, or I will be taking away your crab privlages." Chuuya was calmer than before which signaled that he was worried before, dazai felt pretty guilty for making him worried about someone like him.
"Gasp Not my crab!!! How dare you!" As dramatic as ever, his eyesight felt like it was getting more blurry and blurry, even though his sight stayed the same it felt like it was worse for some reason. it was not good. "Whatever, get your ass home." And with that chuuya hung up, dazai was so damn unlucky, and it felt like he is gonna collapse any minute now. He had to use the glasses.
With a shiver dazai opened the black case and took out his glasses. They were in a round form with gold edges going around the cricle and connecting to the part that goes behind his ears, which was also a bright gold. The second dazai had slid them on he felt disgusting, he wanted to throw up. It was so wrong. But at least his sight was good now.
With that dazai slid the case in his coat's pocket and closing the floor board with the contact lenses case in it, he headed out of the dorm, wearing his glasses.
Dazai decided to walk instead of running back to his and chuuya's shared penthouse, and right before the house came into sight, dazai slid his glasses back in the case and put the case with the glasses back in his pockets, so chuuya wouldn't be struck by the ugly view the second he opens the door.
And with that dazai walks up to the front door and rings the bell. The second he rings it, the door flies open revealing a frustrated mafia executive standing in front of him. "Why hello chibiii~" despite not seeing well dazai has learned to still walk around even with shit eyesight, unless it's a place he doesn't know very well. Dazai watched as chuuya mumbled "shitty dazai.. " under his breath and he took a step to his right so dazai would be able to walk in.
Dazai took the invitation and walked in, the second he stepped into the house, a sweet smell filled the whole house, it smelled like pancakes with syrup, his favorite. He looked at chuuya knowingly and his chibi just looked away with a slight tint of blush and a scowl on his face.
Chuuya followed dazai as he went to the kitchen with the dining and living room connected since the house was very open designed. And dazai sat down at the dining table as well as chuuya and sure enough his fiancee had prepared a nice breakfast for both of them.
They ate in comfortable silence and with dazai commenting on the pancakes once in a while, mostly good comments, his dog have worked on them very hard after all. Dazai ate his pancakes rather quickly, even though dazai struggled with eating, he loved chuuya's pancakes. They were easy to eat, and they didn't add that heavy feeling, the pancakes were delicious aswell.
After eating breakfast dazai felt like he just needed to slide the pair of glasses on. They both decided to lay down on the couch and chuuya took out his poem book he is reading at the moment, and dazai decided make a huge mistake.
"Why does chibi read so much, words aren't gonna help you grow~" he annoyed chuuya like always, this action will definitely have consequences. "Hah?! You have no place to comment since you don't even read, I bet you even can't read!!" Little does chuuya know, the reason dazai doesn't read is because of his sight, when his lenses aren't in or he doesn't have his glasses on he has difficulty with reading, so dazai mainly avoids it.
"I can read stupid chibi." Dazai fake pouted like always "then show me!" With chuuya's reply dazai's body ran cold, and he realised his mistake for commenting on chuuya's reading.. Shit. He can't read right now, he needs his glasses. Dazai zoned out, he was worried.
Dazai felt a hand on his shoulder shaking him "you with me mackerel?" Chuuya was shaking him back to reality and dazai needed to act fast "silly chuuya, why would I wanna read a thing like poems!" Chuuya switched his expression from annoyed to a teasing grin, not noticing dazai's inner panic "oh~ Osamu Dazai can't read?" Dazai hated being wrong so like an idiot he fought back "I can read stupid slug." Chuuya was not backing down "then do it."
With a shaky sigh he reached out in his coat's pocket and retreived a black case. Chuuya's expression went from a teasing grin, to a confused expression. The second dazai opened the case revealing the contents with it, chuuya's eyes widened. How did he not know this?
Dazai slid the glasses on his eyes and chuuya froze, how the hell did he look better than before.. He was looking at dazai with shock in his face, chuuya was just so confused and very angry at dazai depriving this sight from him. He looked absolutely gorgeous.
Dazai was pretty in general and somehow he beat the prettiness he had before with glasses. Dazai looked like a model, nothing really out of the ordinary but still, he looked astonishing. The golden edges brighten his eyes and his beautiful chocolate brown hair looks more brought out with the gold contrast.
Chuuya's cheeks were visibly becoming more red, and he just couldn't take off his eyes off of dazai right now. He looked like he was struck a cupid's arrow. Chuuya genually wanted to scream. He was so weak, it felt like his breath was sucked out of him. Did dazai notice? No.
Instead dazai was completely zoned out, he was trapped in a trance of his mind running with thoughts of chuuya looking disgusted and just completely fallen out of love just because of how bad he looks. Dazai was visibly shaking and he wanted to scream but he just couldn't his throat felt tight and knots were tied in it. It was safe to say that the glasses are dazai's biggest insecurity. The trace of his disadvantage and incapability.
Chuuya had an urge to kiss him at the moment, it was a very big urge, the poem book already forgotten by both of them was sitting on the floor, no, it was dropped on the floor. Chuuya had many thoughts but the strongest one was the way chuuya would kiss dazai. Would the glasses touch his face aswell, or would they lay on both of their faces? Ah fuck it. Dazai is his fiancee, he can do these kinds of things.
And with that said, chuuya took dazai's jaw in his hand and turned dazai's face to him. Dazai was still in his trance, he couldn't get out of the panic by looking at chuuya's face. Chuuya noticed dazai's face and his look went to a more realization. Dazai had a huge insecurity. and there was just no way is chuuya gonna allow that, he will definitely make sure to erase that insecurity right out of dazai's head.
And with that chuuya leaned in and connected their lips with a desire and want. Dazai was snapped out his trance now, he had a shocked and confused expression. Why was chuuya kissing him? Didn't he find dazai with glasses disgusting, ugly and horrible? Dazai had many questions.
For chuuya it was perfect. So he was right, the glasses touched his face an leaned on it, he loved it. Dazai looked more gorgeous as ever and he got to kiss him, now that was the real advantage, something a lot of people dream of (I'm looking at y'all dazai simps((me too)))
Chuuya broke the kiss and looked at dazai's shocked and confused expression, and with a love struck expression he leaned in forward again and brushed their lips together once again. He didn't need to do it, but he wanted to do it, a lot. Chuuya didn't break this kiss as fast though, he kept it until his breath was running short. Chuuya usually isn't this bold but desperate times call for desperate measures, no?
Breaking their lips connection once again chuuya took in dazai's expression once again and then dazai spoke "chuuya.. What was that." Clearly dazai was not expecting this kind of reaction. "I had to, guess I was under your spell~" chuuya joked, trying to lighten dazai up, but dazai was just too insecure. "But why, I look so terrible with them.." And with that chuuya looked at him like he was an idiot.
"Dazai, for a genius you are the most dumbest person I have ever met." Chuuya tried to look at him with a mocking expression but that wasn't working very well considering his tinted cheeks with his chest pounding like it was the first time he confessed. Damn it why does dazai look so good???
"Huh.." Came dazai's reply, apparently still confused. Dazai was not comprehending the fact that chuuya loved him unconditionally and even more with his glasses, hello??? The model agency is calling?? "Listen you dumb waste of bandages, you are very pretty, and you are even more prettier with your glasses and that was just a huge understatement. I would call you every name under the sun that is a synonym beautiful."
It was dazai's turn to get flustred, he could not comprehend such love and care for him, and this huge confession of chuuya calling him very pretty, it was too much, he was already preparing to be left not gonna lie.. And on que chuuya just had to add a cherry on top "also you're wearing them to the wedding, no exceptions, you're not saying anything about it."
Dazai was flushed once again, he was usually very hard to fluster and he rarely ever did, but this was one of the rare times that chuuya got to see him get flustred and with that chuuya needed to use this to his advantage while dazai is still in that moment. Chuuya took it upon himself to just start kissing dazai once again. Chuuya had long given up his pride and he decided to go for it since dazai is literally his soon to be husband, so he can just casually do this.
After this incident chuuya DID NOT allow him to take the glasses off, and he made dazai always wear them, hell, he even decided to bother him everyday with the glasses reminding him to clean them, always knowing their condition and everything. Dazai was certainly not used to this but he accepted this. He liked being able to actually see well always.
Chuuya also needed awhile to get use to it because he would be wayy more clingy than ever because of the glasses, he needed to gain all that affection he didn't give dazai when he didn't wear the glasses around him, it was the right thing to do, obviously.
And chuuya definently made sure to erease that insecurity by actions and words, which worked like magic.