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Yaz had been trying to deal with everything since her doctor had ice cream with her in space and then left to regenerate alone. Even went to the companion meeting where they talked about feelings. In the end though, all she wanted, was to lay in a field in Sheffield and have her Hazel eyed blonde Doctor say everything was to be ok.
Melanie came back with news that The Doctor was now grounded, and his new regeneration also exists, but it’s a bit more complicated than that. She got introduced to Donna at the meetings but didn’t reveal a lot of information, but it felt like Donna knew something she didn’t (or did know). Something about a metacrisis. Though one day she brought in her trans daughter and Yaz felt butterflies and smiled to herself sadly because Yaz was older than Rose and it would be wrong to go after a girl that young. Yaz herself couldn’t figure out her own age anymore due to travelling with The Doctor. Especially when she spent four years in early 1900’s.
At the end of one meeting a few months after Donna started coming, Yaz walked up to her at end of the meeting and finally came out with it.
“I need to see The Doctor. I think you know why, and I don’t want to spell it out for you.”
Yaz had always been upfront about things. It came with the territory being in the police force, dealing with racism and handling a Doctor who preferred being childish sometimes. Most of the time it worked but it could bite her in the ass.
Donna bit her lips and sighed.
“I know some of it. I just don’t want you to get heartbroken and hurt. He’s struggling with a lot of stuff right now and it’s hard enough telling him he’s not to travel like he used to.”
Yaz could tell Donna was trying to protect her from harm but anger was rising to the surface and she couldn’t take it. Looking around to see if anyone was looking other than Donna, Yaz lifted her sleeve to show some fresh self-harm marks.
“I’m already hurting so don’t tell me that bullshit.”
Yaz grabbed a card with her number on it and threw it at Donna who appeared shocked and worried at the same time.
“I never got the kiss I wanted, just ice cream despite my love for her and her never giving it me back. I need this.”
Tears were falling down her face and she ran out of the building and went into her car heading for Sheffield or at least the nearest park she could lay down and avoid humanity.
Back in the building they met up for meetings Donna was left shocked and confused. The mother in her wanted to run after Yaz but knew it would be useless. So, she did the next best thing and left a message on The Doctor’s new mobile phone.
“Right so you better explain everything about Yaz and how you left things with her, because what the hell is this about ice cream? I’ll be home in half an hour.”
Donna picked up the card with Yaz’ phone number on it and sent a text.
Donna: I know you are hurting but please talk to someone. I’ve dealt with self-harm injuries because of Rose, please make sure to at least clean them properly.
Donna: I’ll speak with him.
Yaz just leaves it on read.
The Doctor meanwhile just hears the message five minutes before Donna comes home due to making dinner. He goes and bangs his head on the wall.
“Shit”