Work Text:
When I was with you I was dead
While I was without you I never felt more alive
You're not good, I know you're not
Accomplished nothing
The only thing you've ever ever done was fuck shit up
I still fucking miss your fucking texts
I still fucking miss your fucking breaths
You have no right to pretend like you're hurt by this
And I have no right to be upset you're not around
When I've been so much better since you left
But I still fucking miss you and your fucking stupid toxic ways and your toxic views and the dumb fucking way you write all your text messages.
And your problematic jokes, and the way I'd uncomfortably squirm in the car seat after hearing them.
And your carelessness with taking care of me. The way you'd just leave me alone and not give a shit.
And how you were always distant enough to not take a responsibility but always close enough to not be taxed as absent.
I hate you
I miss the way I hate you
I hate the way I miss you