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"D-do you... do you love me?"
(IT'S NOT FAIR)
(NOT FAIR NOT FAIR)
(FOR MIKAN TSUMIKI)
(TO SUFFER)
"Oh, sweetie, of course. It's true..."
(SO STOP HURTING HER)
"... I love you so much I could die! But..."
(I DID NOTHING WRONG)
(JUST FORGIVE ME ALREADY)
"... Mikan, I want you to promise me that even if I do,
you won't give up on spreading despair, okay?"
"Anything for you! I'll do
anything you want!"
Because
you forgave me.
You forgave me.
You forgave me, over and over,
though I couldn't be forgiven for anything I had done...!
(STUPID GIRL)
(UGLY PIG MIKAN TSUMIKI)
(DISGUSTING WOMAN)
(GROSS CRY BABY)
(STUPID STUPID STUPID GIRL)
You loved me,
despite all that
you let me flourish,
and you possessed (and still possess) my
mind, body, soul.
(YOU'RE MINE)
(AND I AM YOURS)
(FOREVER)
My life lies with you, and only ever you.
(MY BELOVED)
(JUNKO ENOSHIMA)
(MY HEART)
(TEAR IT OUT)
(I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU)
(TAKE IT)
(TAKE IT SO I CAN BE REUNITED WITH YOU AT LAST)
The scent of decay makes me a demon,
dyes my heart a sickly, sickly hue
but it doesn't matter to me
because when you died,
so did I.
(COME BACK TO ME)
(PLEASE)
(PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE)
(I NEED YOU)
When you fell, I was swallowed
in an abyss
of loathing and hate and despair
and I was consumed
in a battle between my love for you
and my hatred for them.
(YOU AND ALL WHO LET HER DIE)
(YOU WHO LET MY LOVER DIE)
(DESERVE MORE THAN DEATH)
(I WILL INJECT YOU WITH DESPAIR)
(DESPAIR)
(DESPAIR)
(DESPAIR)
I had to kill.
I had to do it,
again, again, AGAIN
for you
and only for you.
(FOR MY LOVE)
They roll your name on their tongues - Ju/n/ko E/no/shi/ma,
my beloved;
so easily, as if you were that,
only a name, only a name,
but you were not only a name.
(FOR MY SALVATION)
You were all that was left of me,
All the plastic smiles and all the rushed apologies,
All the laughter, all the tears,
All the broken hearts and starlight dreams,
All you - all me.
Together.
(MY ONE AND ONLY HOPE)
You promised - while you traced circles on my palm,
thread fingers through my hair,
held me close to you in the dark of night,
and murmured sweet nothings in my ear,
that we would last
forever.
(MY EVERLASTING DESPAIR)
Because you could forgive me,
I forgive you for all that you did, too.
I forgive you for lying to me.
I forgive you for destroying me with your love.
(MY FREEDOM)
For them, however, there is no forgiveness.
I cannot forgive them for bringing you to ruin.
(I DON'T CARE ANYMORE)
They ripped us apart,
and took away our
f o r e v e r.
(I'LL KILL THEM ALL)
Maybe
at that time, long ago,
when you still kissed me tenderly
and stroked my cheek
and painted my nails
I didn't know
what forever meant;
perhaps to you and I,
it was different
but I was happy
and I loved you
I still love you and
that was my forever.
(MY BELOVED)
(PLEASE WAIT FOR ME)
(DON'T GO)
That never changed.
Even though you did.
In the best way possible
you fell into
despair.
(DON'T LEAVE ME)
You know...
even after your passing,
I won't believe for a second
their lies
when they tell me
you
u s e d
me.
(DON'T LEAVE ME HERE ALONE)
(I'M BEGGING YOU)
(YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO EVER CARED)
(PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME)
Especially because I know you
and knowing you
means that this is not the end.
You're too smart, too clever
too beautiful, too witty
too passionate, too thoroughly exasperated
with the world
to just leave it be
just like that.
(WE WILL MEET AGAIN SOON)
I knew you were coming back.
Slave to your love, intoxicated,
I lent you the pieces of me to make you whole again
because your love was my love
and my love yours
it was the risk that I took
giving you all of me
until
you were me
and I was nothing.
(I LOVE YOU)
(I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU)
(SO LOVE ME)
(ACCEPT ME)
(FORGIVE ME)
Though
when I realized finally
you weren't coming back
I gave up.
Not because I don't still love you
but because I needed to be with you again
and I needed to die
die, die, die
to do it.
They found me easily
after I gave up.
They should have
killed me.
I thought if I could die
to be with you again
then I would
do
anything.
(FOR LIFE WITHOUT YOU)
(HAS)
(NO MEANING)
(LEFT)
But they didn't kill me.
(WEAK)
(TOO WEAK)
(JUST LIKE POOR LITTLE)
(WEAK COWARDLY)
(MIKAN TSUMIKI)
That's good, I thought.
Maybe I underestimated you
and you were going to return
to find me
and love me
one more time.
(FORGIVE ME)
The future is not easy
and with extracting our memories
came a cost.
Our identity was lost.
(WHO IS MIKAN TSUMIKI)
(BUT A LOSER)
(CLUMSY)
(DIM-WITTED)
(SLOW)
When I woke up on that island,
I didn't see people around me.
All I saw
was
a bunch of bullies
and I was
just a mess
again.
(WRONG WRONG WRONG)
(YOU WILL PAY)
(YOU BETTER STOP MAKING EXCUSES)
(YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY WRONG)
When I woke up on that island,
however,
I knew there was something missing.
I didn't know it was you just yet,
but something was gone
(ISN'T IT FITTING)
(THE DISEASE HAS BEEN CAUGHT)
(BY THE ONE WHO CURES!)
(WHAT IRONY!)
and somehow soon
I learned
about
you.
(AGAIN)
Easy prey,
she was easy prey,
one and two,
both easy, easy.
I couldn't hesitate for those pathetic pleas,
because I had to get OUT
SO I COULD BE REUNITED WITH MY LOVE
NO MATTER WHAT THE PRICE
AND I MADE THEM PAY
PAY PAY PAY
SO THAT I COULD BE WITH YOU AGAIN
AND LET THEM HATE ME WHILE THEY BURN
BECAUSE IT'S THEIR FAULT
THAT I'M LIKE THIS
IT'S THEIR FAULT
THAT THEY CAN'T ACCEPT ME LIKE YOU DO
LET THEM HATE ME ETERNALLY
I WOULD DO THE UNFORGIVABLE
BECAUSE FOR YOU
MY LOVE
I KNOW
YOU WOULD FORGIVE ME FOR ALL THAT I DO
AND I WILL
DO
EVERYTHING
IN MY POWER
TO BE WITH YOU
FOREVER
FOR OUR FOREVER
YOURS AND MINE
I WILL SACRIFICE
EVERYONE
EVERYTHING
FINALLY
IT'S OVER
IT'S OVER
I WILL BE WITH YOU AT LAST
FOREVER TOGETHER
I WOULD WANT NOTHING MORE
MY HEART
MY LOVE
MY ACID
MY BLOOD
MY ONE BELOVED
FOREVER