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Looking around the place it didn’t phase Yunjin as much as when she had started coming the first few times due to her mother's request. Big stained glass that projected smudges of colors on the floor tower over her along with candles lining all around the room which feel like they’ve been lit for years and haven’t been given a rest. It started to feel like any other place she'd been to and has gotten into the routine of it, sure she hasn’t learned to recite the verses they say in here or the songs the church band has played.
To be fair she had thought she would never come back to this place since she was a kid but with the constant pleading, she decided to give it a chance even if she was afraid she was gonna people she hadn’t seen when she was a kid or have family friends ask her the same question of “Oh it's been so long since you've been here” or the dreaded “Why did you stop coming to church?” or even so “I remember when you were this tall do you remember me?” When she would pull something out of her ass that she was too focused on school or that she did remember the person even if she was like five at the time.
Flashing all of them small smiles whenever they’d lock eyes or sometimes feigning excitement that she wanted to be there so early and give thanks to god. She had been for a month now and thought about calling it quits since her mother had stopped pestering her and thought about retreating to the warmth of her bed and being able to sleep in on Sundays again. But that was all canceled when she saw Her . Chaewon, her hair cascading down her shoulders and framing her face perfectly, with the most beautiful smile whenever she was talking to the people around her or when she would greet the father after church. Something about her was drawing Yunjin in and she was scared of it. Feeling her heart race so abnormally and sneaking glances at the other from across the room or when she would be a row behind her, Yunjin just couldn’t keep her eyes off of her and she wasn’t stopping herself. The girl looks like an angel who came down to see if people were “doing the right thing.”
Fidgeting with her rosary bracelet whenever She’s near her. It wasn’t helping that she didn’t know if the girl was glancing back at her whenever she talked to other people or if she was just surveying the room. It made her guilty for even trying to look at her in this sort of place like she had been caught trying to steal a cookie from the jar or being caught sneaking out but it just made her want to keep admiring Chaewon, she didn’t want to call it some sort of obsession.. From the way she’d always fix her hair before going up the stairs to the altar or the way she kept a compact mirror with her just to make she her makeup was fine when in reality it was to secretly look at the shorter girl. She didn’t even know the girl but the way she was clouding her mind from the second she woke up or the second she left the church.
It made her feel crazy, she’d try everything from pacing around her room whenever she thought of her or trying to go on dates with other people to keep her mind off but would bail out at the last minute. Nothing could stop her from thinking about Chaewon it felt like she was getting up on Sundays was just for her and not because of her ‘duty’ to be at church it felt like she was praying to the girl and not the crosses or the figures in the altar. It felt like the shorter girl was a deity to her. There would be days she’d be praying to god or those angels statues in the room to help her forget about this girl, hands clasped tightly while kneeling on the kneeling bar provided by those rows with her eyes shut repeating the same words in her head ever since she had noticed the girl. Her words sounded in a way a Rhythm of a heartbeat. Pleading with such sadness that she can’t even talk to her without feeling like she’ll embarrass herself and want the ground to eat her whole. She looked like such a frail puppy waiting to see if someone would hand her food or throw her a bone.
The way Chaewon would smile or the way her eyes would crinkle with such joy when talking to people, even the way her hands would be clasped right in front of her whenever she’d listen to one of the churchgoers's conversations. Even the thought of how angelic her voice was whenever they would recite verses and how she wishes, no, begs for her to talk to her with that voice even if it's just one time or even hearing her say her name come out from her lips would suffice for her.
“God please, why me why why why.” mumbled under Yunjin’s breath knowing she had once again started thinking about Chaewon and remembering details of the girl she had never spoken to, Letting out a heavy sigh before dropping her head down on the row in front of her. Mass had finished some time ago and mostly everyone had left the building it was only her and a few other people catching up or pleading their case to the church. It eats her up how badly she wants to know this girl there is just some sort of temptation that nothing else or anybody else can fill, for Yunjin it has to be her.
She both feels like Eve and the snake that temps her to eat the apple, it's such a losing game for her no matter what even if her knees start to sting from how much kneeling she's been doing praying for this to go away. But it doesn’t as she feels some warmth next to her and she prays that it's her but also begs and pleads that it isn’t the one she's praying about.
“Wow, you’re trying to break the priest record for the longest prayer or something?” Yunjin wishes god could strike her down at this very moment as she lifts her head in the direction of the voice before weakly smiling at Chaewon before standing up and turning to give her full attention to the girl “Maybe, Why? Are you trying to beat his record too or something?” This gets a small laugh out of the shorter girl and it makes Yunjin’s heart go triple the speed that it was just at, god how she wishes she could hear that laugh be directed towards her and only her all of the time that they’re in here. It felt sinful to already be thinking of wanting anything that was related to Chaewon to be directed to her like she was some sort of giant lap dog getting cooed at by their owner and telling them they did good for the smallest thing.
“Ugh god no, I don’t think I would ever have the patience to try to but I've just seen you here for a while now and heard your sighs. Thought making conversation would lighten up the mood. Especially since it looked like you were stressing out just now.” Okay if she wasn’t already feeling like her whole body was burning up just being in proximity of the girl just now wasn’t enough. Hearing how she had noticed her being here and wanting to start a conversation increased that heat a tenfold. Fidgeting with her bracelet once again she could barely look at her in the eyes, god she could not fall into more of her own temptation of needing this girl.
Silent prayers were jumping out of her mouth as she thought of every way to keep this conversation going. “Thanks, It's been hard recently but just talking with you right now has helped me. I think you saved me from an even longer prayer.” Looking back up seeing how Chaewon’s eyes darted back and forth on the taller girl's face, It made her feel like Chaewon knew from the start. The crazy obsession she has with her or the way her heart beats so loud in her ears when they both accidentally lock eyes whenever they are in the lobby or the way she feels so guilty and sinful of the thoughts she has of this girl and doing anything in her power to keep giving and giving and giving to Chaewon, whatever she wanted.
Yunjin knew this obsession would end badly if she were to ever say it. Not even telling the confession booth would get rid of this for her god she wants to get to know her outside of here but now is not the time. Feels like she’s exposed herself when in reality nothing has given the illusion to the brunette that she has “That's good I wouldn’t want to see you all stressed out over something you looked like a kicked puppy, please do tell me if there’s anything I can help out with.” Heat flushes to her cheeks hearing that she looked like a puppy to her when in reality she has thought of herself as a dog for Chaewon to keep as a pet and do anything with her.
“Thank you, I hadn’t expected someone to have noticed me given the other people still around praying. I’m Yunjin by the way.” Holding her hand out to the other in hopes she takes it and gets to know if this was real or that it was a daydream and she's standing still at the altar like an idiot. “It’s nothing and it’s not hard to notice when a pretty person has been in the same place for a while. I’m Chaewon, I’m thinking I'll be seeing you here again next Sunday, correct?”
Her grip was firm on Yunjin's hand while looking up at her with those innocent eyes expecting an answer from her, It caused heat to pool in her stomach looking at her right now as all she could do was nod. So many things passed through her mind like how she called her pretty, how she noticed she was there, and just overall their hands touching, she could feel herself slipping more into the girl and knowing this was going to cloud her mind entirely. “Yes, I’ll be here next Sunday. Maybe we might end up in the same row together if I do see you before mass?”
The brunette smiled at her and let go of her hand, Yunjin wished they could hold hands for a little longer but still couldn’t believe she was right in front of her “Hopefully, I’ll be looking for you so you better not bail on me. It was nice meeting you Yunjin, See you soon,”
Alarms were blaring in Yunjin's head telling her to not think of the girl and said interaction or do anything stupid right now but the tight restraint in her pants was starting to grow, Saying a quick goodbye before hastily walking to the bathroom praying that it was empty as there was barely anyone at the church since they had talked.
Looking around the coast looked clear, no one was at the sinks or in the stalls she immediately went into one and locked it. Her hands already unfastened her belt and button and lowered her pants just a bit just enough to get more space, Her cock poking her boxers begging to be let out as she slowly drags a finger down her length. Letting out a shaky breath while covering her face in embarrassment at how hard she had gotten just from talking to her. She couldn’t help it the way she looked at her so innocently while complimenting her, not to mention the guilty thoughts she had about her. Despite all the embarrassment it just made her get more horny just at the thought of seeing Chaewon looking up at her while on her knees, god she needed to get this girl out of her mind.
Pulling down the waistband of her boxers, the tip of her cock was already an angry red with precum coming out, god she felt sensitive just from a single touch, and these thoughts that she had completely forgotten she was in the church's bathroom. Rubbing the top of her cockhead with her palm before turning her hand into a fist and slowly stroking her length, wanting this to last a little bit longer but she doesn't know how long she can keep herself from cumming.
Shaky breaths and soft wines slip out from her lips as she tries to keep quiet but god it's just so hard, imagining the way the brunette smiled at her and just kept looking at her. It made her feel dirty knowing she getting off to the thought of this girl but it made her even needier. To let the girl know how much she's obsessing over her and to see her in this state. Closing her eyes in bliss while thrusting into her hand becoming impatient with each second, the hem of her shirt caught in between her teeth as some drool started to soak the fabric. Completely ignoring the sound of footsteps in the hallway getting closer to the bathroom door.
With each snap of her hips, she gets closer to her climax thinking it's Chaewons mouth wrapped around it, taking every inch of her in her mouth and accommodating to the size of her so she can throat fuck her till she's a drooling mess. It gets her so delirious that she's panting like a dog, dropping her shirt as she holds onto the bathroom stall wall for support “Fuck, god I fucking need you, please just one time.. God please Chaewon.”
Feeling the band in her stomach ready to snap she fucks her hand so desperately before letting out one last shaky whimper as ropes of cum stain her fist and drips down to her boxer. Feeling so light headed she leans back on the stall wall trying to recollect herself before having to face the embarrassment of having jerked off in a holy place but what she hadn’t known was that Chaewon was by the sinks hearing all of it, from the whimpers down to Yunjin saying her name. It should have made her feel vile and disgusted but the complete opposite, feeling heat pool in between her thighs and wanting to do something about it but she’ll wait till next Sunday, when they meet again.