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50 days.
That's how longs it's been you last saw your red-haired friend and lover. You spoke with him over the phone numerous times in the past 50 days. Listening to him intently as he told you about his experiences, he thoughts, his feelings. The last time you talked being when he told you he was leaving the hospital, soon to be on his way to meet the others and assist them in defeating DIO. You remember what he said before he hung up, his voice soft, tone gentle, words innocent. "I promise I'll see you soon, ______. I love you." It made you ecstatic to think you'd see him again, to hug him and feel the warmth of his body on yours. It was something you had been longing for, for quite a while. To hear his voice in person. To see his smile. To tell him how relieved you were to have him there with you. If only you knew.
To say you weren't worried about him would be a lie. You were anxious almost all the time. Your concerns ranging from 'I wonder if he's eating enough.' 'Is he homesick?' to 'I wonder if he's hurt.' 'What if he's dead?'. Thoughts like these crossed your mind all the time, especially when you knew what he went through while overseas. Knowing about all the horrible things he saw, knowing about the danger he went through almost every day... It made your stomach hurt. It caused you to lose sleep, made you unable to function at times. All up until Holly woke up.
When Holly woke up, you knew you'd see him soon, he promised. When Holly woke up, you felt relief wash over you. When Holly woke up, you ignored that small feeling that everything wasn't okay. When Holly woke up, you cried. When she woke up, you told Kakyoin's parent's that he was coming home, that everything was okay, almost as if you were trying to convince yourself. If only knew.
If only you knew he'd be coming back in a box, that he died fighting with his friends, that he lied.
Maybe if you knew that, it wouldn't hurt so much. You wouldn't feel so empty. You wouldn't have been hit so hard with grief. Maybe you wouldn't have cried so much.
If only you knew.