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Harry Potter sat in his dorm room wondering how his life could possible get any worse. He'd been here hiding for the past 3 days. He'd not only humiliated himself, but possibly ruined his relationship with his best friend Hermione as well. He wished he'd never listened to her when she'd begged him to become an animagus with her, and he'd meant to say as much at the time, but with one pleading look from her chocolate brown eyes and he'd immediately given in. He just couldn't say no to her, because the truth is he is in love with her. She's the only person who has ever made him feel complete, but he hadn't planned to ever tell her, because she couldn't possibly love someone damaged like him. She deserved better, he thought. So he'd reluctantly agreed to do this with her, as it was an excuse to spend more time with her. And then he'd ruined everything. His face flushed and he groaned just thinking about it.
Flashback
He was excited as he left the great hall, now finished with dinner, and, since it was Friday, quickly headed up towards the room of requirement where he knew Hermione woud already be waiting. As reluctant as he'd been to become an animagus, he'd quickly realized how useful it would be, especially since Voldemort was back. It was also a connection he could share with his father, and his godfather Sirius, who were a stag and grim, respectively. So they'd worked all summer on their own making the potion and had begun working on their forms together when they returned to school for their 5th year. They had decided to keep their forms a secret from each other until they could complete the transformation, and today he was finally ready to complete his transformation. He was surprised to find out that he was closer to completing the transformation than Hermione, but when he mentioned it, Hermione had just said that some people just had a harder time connecting with their animal side than others. As he finally approached the door to the room of requirement Hermione reached out and pull him inside and sighed,
"Honestly Harry, what took you so long? We've been waiting."
He gave her a confused look, "We?"
"Yes," she said nervously, wringing her hands, "McGonagall and Sirius are inside waiting on us so you can complete your transformation. I hope you don't mind that I invited them, it's just that they are both animagi and would be able to help in case something went wrong. You said it was supposed to be a secret but I couldn't help myself I'm sorry."
"Relax Hermione," he whispered in her ear as he wrapped her in a hug, "It's fine. I'll be glad to see Sirius again and you're right that it would be a good idea to have someone close by in case something went wrong. Let's go in"
As they entered they saw Sirius and McGonagall waiting for them on the couch the room proved in front of a large fireplace. Harry immediately wrapped Sirius in a hug while Hermione walked over to talk to McGonagall.
"Hey Pup, how've you been?" he said with a grin, and then whispered in his ear "have you told Hermione how you felt yet?"
Harry gritted his teeth and whispered "No, and I'm not going to. It's too big of a risk. What if she doesn't feel the same?"
Sirius sighed. "I think you're not giving Hermione enough credit, Harry. Even is she didn't like you that way she'd still be your best friend. But we can talk more about that later. Let's get started" he said as they broke the hug and walked over to where Hermione was talking with McGonagall.
McGonagall then took this as her cue to speak and turned to both him and Hermione, "Mr. Potter, I know you were planning to complete your first transformation tonight, but what about you Ms. Granger? Are you going to make the attempt as well?"
"No professor, Harry is better at connecting with his form in meditation. I think I'll need a few more weeks before I'm ready."
McGonagall then looked at Harry and said, "Mr. Potter, get ready to transform. You'll be in your form for around an hour. Try to get used to the way it feels, and practice moving around"
Sirius spoke up and added, "Remember Harry, your first transformation is always the most difficult. Try to get control of the animal in you. Your form's instincts will be strong, but they won't allow you to do anything you don't already want to do, so don't worry about embarrassing yourself."
He walked to the center of the room, sat down and went into his trance. He felt his magic tingling, and he guided it into the shape of his form. He opened his eyes when he heard a squeal from Hermione, and found himself looking up into her eyes from a much lower height than when he had started.
"Oh Harry, you're adorable! I think you are a Pitbull!" she gushed as she pulled him into a hug and his nose was overwhelmed with her scent.
"Congratulations Harry, you're an animagus. Your father would have been proud" shouted Sirius.
Harry ran around in circles, chasing his tail and barking happily as he got used to his form. McGonagall then decided to leave as she had a stack of essays that needed grading, leaving Sirius and Hermione with Pitbull Harry.
They laughed and played, with Harry eventually tiring his new form out and going to lay down on a dog bed in front of Hermione that the room provided until the hour was over. As he laid there, his mind started to drift as he noticed Hermione's creamy white thighs that came out from where he could see under her school skirt as she talked to Sirius about runes. Normally, he'd be horrified with the way he was ogling her legs but his canine instincts were lowering his inhibitions. As he laid there he could peek up her skirt slightly and he could almost image that he could see her underwear. He felt his self starting to become aroused. He tried to think of safer things, but his eyes were locked on Hermione's thighs as she sat on the couch. He felt himself harden, and his canine instincts became too strong to ignore, he got up from the dog bed and ran over to Hermione and put his front paws in her lap and started to thrust.
Hermione, for the most part was just amused, not really understanding what was happening until she felt something long, warm and wet touch her leg, and then fluid squirt onto her thigh, then she gasped and her face turned red as she realized what had just happened and was horrified. Harry, hearing her gasp immediately looked at her, and upon seeing her face it was like a cold bucket of water had been thrown on his head. He immediately jumped off of Hermione and transformed back into his self and ran out of the room of requirement as Hermione sat there, stunned, and Sirius stood there with a grin on his face as he watched Harry leave. He finally made it to an empty classroom and sobbed. He couldn't believe he'd done that. He'd used his best friend as some sort of sex prop. She surely must hate him now, thinking him some kind of pervert who couldn't control himself. He'd never be able to look her in the eye again. He hated himself for it, crying himself to sleep, because he knew his heart was going to break when he saw Hermione next.
End Flashback
And where Harry found himself three days later. It was now Monday evening, and he still hadn't left the bed, instead opting to have Ron bring him food at mealtimes. Hermione had come up at least twice a day, but he refused to let her in. He smiled at how persistent he was, before remembering what he'd done to her and starting to tear up again, before he was interrupted by a loud banging on the door and a voice that could only belong to Hermione. "Harry James Potter, open this door this instant or I'll knock it down! You can't keep ignoring me! We need to talk!" Just the thought of this impending talk sent shivers down his spine, but he knew if he didn't act, Hermione really would knock down the door. He reluctantly crawled out of bed and opened the door to his dorm and let her in as he turned and sat back on the bed and stared at the floor. She looked frustrated as she looked him over and as she noticed that he obviously hadn't been sleeping and his hands were shaking, her eyes softened.
"Harry, look at me", she whispered softly, as she cupped his flushed red cheek and brought his head up so he'd have to look at her. "I'm not mad. Confused, yes. Never mad"
"I used you. I couldn't stop myself. Please don't hate me. Please..." he whispered, and trailed off as he began to sob, and Hermione wrapped him in a hug until he had gained composure again.
"Harry, I could never hate you. You're my best friend. Now, can we talk about it?" she asked softly.
"What's there to talk about? I humped you and came on your leg." he mumbled embarrassedly with a red face.
Hermione's blushed and said, "Yes, I know that part. But I also know that it was your canine instincts that caused you to lose control, and that they wouldn't have told you to do anything you didn't already want to do, so my question is, is what you feel for me just lust, or is there something more to it?"
"The second one" he mumbled miserably.
"Okay... and why is that such a bad thing, and why didn't you tell me before?"
At this he became frustrated and he finally burst as tears ran down his face "I'm in love with you, okay? Happy now? I didn't tell you because you deserve better than a freak like me!"
She climbed in his ap and hugged him tightly until his tears subsides and whispered in his "Want to know a secret Harry?" As he looked up, she leaned back to look into his eyes and said "I love you too I just never thought it was possible for you to love me back when you could have any other girl in the school."
And then she kissed him gently. When they broke apart he looked into her eyes and whispered
"Really? You love me? And you're not mad about what happened?"
She just smiled. "Yes, I love you Harry, and what happened is okay. It was an accident. I do wish Sirius hadn't seen it however because he's never going to stop teasing you now" she laughed.
"Ughhhh, he's going to be insufferable isn't he" he laughed
"Yep. As for you, go take a shower and meet me in the room of requirement. You stink."
"Why are we going to the room of requirement?" he asked, curious.
She gave him a smirk and a wink, "Because, I think I need some alone time with my new boyfriend. By the way, Sirius named your animagus form while you were hiding. What is it he asked, already dreading the answer judging by the smirk on her face.
"Squirt" she laughed and he couldn't help but join her. Maybe everything wasn't ruined after all.
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