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When I woke up, the man I thought I hated was sleeping next to me. Naked.
"I-I went and did it……"
Of course I was naked too. I could not escape the fact that I had just taken off my clothes in a drunken stupor as there were hickeys, teeth marks and other marks of the act all over the place. What I thought was the worst was the handprints on my waist. One was congested with blood and the other was slightly reddened as if it had been burned.
I wasn't even drunk to begin with. I was sober yesterday. Not a drop of alcohol had entered my system. To begin with, I don't normally drink alcohol and I'm not even old enough to drink. It should have been the same for this man.
Next to me, who was busy looking pale and red, the man, Todoroki, was sleeping with the innocent look of a young child. I vaguely thought that a good-looking guy is still good-looking even when he's asleep.
"……Tsk."
I'm not crushing. I am not crushing on the gap.
This man is to blame. Everything is his fault.
Ever since the start of the special course for obtaining a provisional license, I have been spending more time alone with Todoroki. I wonder if there has been some kind of change in his mindset, as he often calls out to me. It was only recently that I realized that yelling at him all the time would tire me out. Although I still dislike him, I have stopped being as hostile as I used to be. I even liked the fact that Todoroki usually has a calm demeanor and speaks in a nonchalant way.
Then one night, Todoroki called me into his room. I know I would have been told that I should not go to a man's room alone as a woman, but I had never expected such a situation to happen. I had always thought that I was only seen as a mere classmate and recently, as a fellow course mate.
"Bakugou."
"……Huh?"
Tea was served from a teapot and we had idle conversations about the course, our classmates and other things.
Then I found myself pushed down onto the futon. It was indeed a first experience for me in the more than ten years since I was born. I had been confessed to many times, but I never had a boyfriend and I had no intention of selling myself short to a man who was no match for me. So, of course, I had never been pushed down like this, and as a matter of fact, I had never even been kissed.
"I like you."
"Haaah?!"
What is this guy talking about?
Both of my hands were pressed against the futon to hold me down, one of them hot and the other cold. My body temperature was different than usual, maybe because of his quirk…… It was only for a few seconds that I was able to think about something so carefree.
"Hey, I……"
Ah, this is bad. Really bad.
I wanted to explode my hands and blow everything up right now, but for some reason, I couldn't move my body as I was staring at him, eyes of different colors that stared at me. He is considered to be a good-looking man, and even in such a situation, he still had a well-defined face.
"Le-let me go."
"Bakugou."
The unreliability of the voice I finally managed to squeeze out made me want to blow myself up. Of course, such a trivial voice didn't seem to reach Todoroki's ears.
Slowly, Todoroki's face comes closer.
I realized what was about to happen. Still, I couldn't escape. It was my first kiss on the lips.
I was kissed. By Todoroki.
As soon as I realised, heat suddenly gathered on my face. I know best that it's not just anger.
I don't like him. There's no way I like this guy.
"First time?"
I wanted to get the hell out of there before things got any crazier, but I couldn't. As I remained silent, Todoroki attacked me. What's this guy going to do, asking me if it's my first time?
Todoroki, who seemed to take silence as an affirmation, pressed his lips on mine once more without saying anything. His kiss was gentle, just a touch.
"……I'm glad."
It's as if he's confessing to me. No, it actually happened just now. That's the only part I can't quite understand. What does he mean, "I like you"? Is he going crazy? Or is he just really tired?
"What the hell is wrong with you......"
"Bakugou is always surrounded by men. I know we don't have that kind of relationship, but I hate the thought of someone else already touching you."
"Huh?"
"I want everything about you to be mine."
"For now, get out of the way and cool your head……!"
Todoroki, looking down at me, had the face of a full-blown, male. It was a face he had never shown me, not even during the match. I didn't want to see it in this situation. I was sure that Todoroki was not interested in me. (What I saw in his eyes was not me, but my childhood friend.) The person in those eyes wasn't supposed to be me, but my childhood friend.
"...…If you just talk and don't resist, I'm gonna end up holding you like this."
An impatient, hoarse voice.
I don't know which hand is touching me. But it's just so hot.
Oh, no. I'll be fucked.
As for what's wrong with it, I think Todoroki's face is bad news.
Honestly, I like it. It's perfect. If I were allowed, I would look at it forever. Try being pushed down by a man with that face who says, "I want you." How would you escape, you idiot?
We weren't dating. If it is to be said that I accepted that confession, today is the second day. I thought to myself that it would have been too easy for me to be swept away the day we started dating and end up being the same. I don't remember if it felt good or if it hurt. I just thought that Todoroki's face was so cool. I was admiring it.
Only at the very end, at the moment of insertion, did I stop him once and say, "Wait." Todoroki frowned, looking like he couldn't afford it and said, "I can't." Hearing his low, hoarse voice, my heart pounded like an idiot and I ended up opening my legs to accept the man in. I was excited by the sexy look on Todoroki's face as he moved his hips without hesitation. This was also due to the fact that I liked Todoroki's face. It wasn't my fault.
"Oh, Bakugou. You're awake."
While I was wondering what to do about this situation, Todoroki woke up. Perhaps because the morning sun was so bright, he narrowed his eyes and let out a big yawn.
"......Hey, what the hell did you do to me?"
"Why are you mad? I had sex with you."
"……Don't say it out loud!"
Ever since I woke up, all I could see was Todoroki's face, but when I looked closer, I saw that his body was also in a bad condition. Bite marks, scratches, hickeys. There were also some skin rips and light burns where I must have unknowingly used my quirk. The blood oozing out of them made them look worse than mine.
"You… Never take off your clothes today."
"Oh? Yeah……"
The day they find something like this, he will be probed out of curiosity and it will be troublesome. He's not the type to lie dexterously, so he'll probably end up telling the truth. That would be a problem.
It seems like Todoroki finally noticed the current situation after I pointed it out. When he said "Amazing," he sounded impressed, and I wanted to yell at him and tell him that it was him who did it.
Since both of us are fair-skinned, it was easy to tell. As I was wondering if I could hide the dark hickey on my leg with foundation, I felt someone staring at me from right in front of me. Come to think of it, I hadn't gotten dressed yet. It's not like I need to hide it now that I'm in this situation.
I pretended not to see the change in the lower half of his body. I have heard, or have been told, it's what men tend to do in the morning. So this is a natural phenomenon. I don't want to think that he is indeed the kind of man who gets excited in the morning.
"……Hey, Bakugou."
"Shut up."
"I wanna do it again."
"I said shut up!"
"No?"
Let's beat him to a pulp and blow him up until he's reduced to dust. That determination suddenly deflated like a balloon with a hole in it.
"Bakugou……"
I couldn't help but click my tongue loudly, thinking that this is a guy with a nice face. 'No?' He pretends to ask me with such a privileged attitude, but I'm sure he doesn't even think about the possibility of being rejected at all. My body was tired and I didn't want to do it again, but if I had been able to say no flatly, then this wouldn't have happened.
"It's okay, right?"
He whispered in my ear, and when his odd eyes looked at me head on, I lost all strength. Unfair. Dangerous. It was like this yesterday too. Why am I doing this?
Todoroki, sensing that I have no intention of resisting, devours my body as he pleases, just like he did last night. It feels so good to have my skin sucked, my breasts massaged and having fingers inserted that I feel like I'm going crazy. I can't believe how good it feels even the second time. Is Todoroki just good at it, or is there something wrong with my body?
"Ah, ahh, s-stop…"
"I can't stop."
I wasn't allowed to hold back my high-pitched, miserable voice as his hot hand forced me to open my mouth.
I felt the extremely excited breathing on my neck and my body trembled. Todoroki is like this to me.
To be honest, I don't know if I like Todoroki. And yet, I'm afraid I'm going to get angry at myself for letting this happen, and for being such a careless woman. I don't know if I like him or not, but I like his face. I love it. To the extent that I inadvertently allowed myself to get physical with him.
"Once…… more……"
Geez, just do whatever you want.
I had no intention of doing so, but Todoroki and I started dating.
I went to school dragging my languid body, which was caused by the abuse I put my body through the first time I had sex. I wish it only hurt, but my back feels heavy. It also felt strange, as if there was still something inside me. I was glad it was a day without practical training, I thought to myself. I wondered what Mineta had imagined as I staggered along, and he said, "It's kind of erotic." I ignored it, not having the energy to blow up, but Todoroki seemed to have something on his mind. With a look of nonchalance on his face, he said, "I held her. Bakugou, I'm sorry I couldn't control it," he said.
The vivid story seemed to be very stimulating, and screams echoed throughout the classroom. It was mainly the virgin male students who had been surpassed. When asked "How was it?" with great interests, Todoroki answered, "It felt good," without concealment or embarrassment. Mineta was the one who was shouting the loudest and was about to say, "I'll have one too......" but he held his tongue when he saw the look on Todoroki's face. No student can afford to make fun of Mineta, who cries out to Kaminari, "He's going to kill me!"
For some reason, the person who was the most upset was my childhood friend, who kept asking me questions like, "What was Kacchan thinking? Didn't you hate Todoroki?"
"Wait, when did you start dating? Kacchan hated Todoroki until the other day, right? I felt like you were getting closer thanks to the special course, but it didn't seem like things were progressing. But...… I know Kacchan very well, so if your relationship had changed, there's no way I wouldn't notice..... What, it was yesterday? That's a lie, right? Please tell me it's a lie. Kacchan, what are you really doing, are you that careless!?”
It was supposed to be just a question, but before I knew it, it turned into a sermon. I couldn't find the right moment to get angry as the words kept coming at me one after the other, making me wonder where he was taking a breather. Before long, Todoroki, who had been watching from a distance, came over and said, "I pushed her down forcibly," as if to follow up, but Midoriya calmly replied, "Kacchan can fight back, can't she?" Todoroki was convinced that it was true, then Midoriya yelled at me, saying, "Come on, you should resist properly!''
In short, he's trying to tell me to take care of myself. Why am I getting so angry at someone who's not even my friend?
"Midoriya, it's okay. I'll take full responsibility."
Ah, this is what it means to add fuel to the fire, I thought. I saw my childhood friend with a face I had never seen before, and quietly vowed to keep quiet about the fact that I had allowed myself to get physical with him just because I liked his face.