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Takemichi Pov
Since I was a kid my mother cheated on my dad. She left me and my dad with another man, at first it hurts a lot but as times pass by I became dull to the burning pain that my mother did to our family but for my dad he acts like he's okay but in reality he was just a Liar , he was not okay.
As I see my dad everyday he puts up with a smiling face and his bright blue eyes shine like the ocean full of glimmer. He always tries to work hard for the both of us becoming the bread winner of the house not until the night comes I hear him shouting and crying while breaking bottles of beer everywhere, as I try to peak through the door I can see him wasted lying on the floor crying while holding the frame with the picture of our family picture, he was smiling but he’s still crying it makes my heart churn in anger.
I wanted to comfort my dad but I too was afraid to reach out and support my beloved dad since I was a coward, I had no choice but to close my door as I jump back to my bed putting over my head a pillow to cover my ears not to hear any of my father crying noises. Cause I too feel in my eyes that tears started falling in mine too, why does life hated us so much!
The very next morning I saw my dad hanged himself, I tried to shout but there was nothing that came out I was frozen still and cried myself in a sobbing mess. If only I called out to my dad maybe just maybe he lived...
That was the start of my very first regret in life
I thought life was really cruel to me since after my mom left me my dad also left me, life must go on so I thought but after that the angels must heard my prayers because after what happen my only relative, my grandmother gave me life again. Not only I gain a grandmother I also gain a best friend her name was hinata, she was like my sister that I ever had.
Not knowing she was my second regrets in life..
She is a pretty young girl in our class, she was very supportive to me she treated me equally since I was often bullied by others who try to threatened me. She was like a hero to me, I was like that too but it faded a long time ago.. maybe it was karma that made my life this shitty.
My third regrets in life..
On my second year of middle school I was confess by a boy. He told me that he loved me since we were little since I save him from bullies, I thought at the begining it was just mere a joke. To mock me that what I thought not until I saw the determination in his eyes that he was not really lying to me. So I told him my finals answer and that was a “yes” I said to him not knowing in the shadow a girl heard them watching from a far with rage in her expression, biting her fingernails like mad wild animal focusing on prey.
Kisaki tetta was my first ever boyfriend he was in a gang. He was very smart making up plans on how to rise up in the gang world but every explanation the expression on his face he was showing his face darkens, every detail and plan was perfect and scary at the same time but how it was executed was really horrible it contain murder, manipulation, torture and other stuff that no mere middle school student can come up with. I saw all the red flag signs in my boyfriend but I turned in a blinds eye too it.
Making it my fourth regrets in life.
I saw it all on how my boyfriend became the top of the gang world he may not kill a person but all the people who was involve by him are the result and stains that he accomplish on becoming number 1, Is it really necessary to be number 1 with this kind of method? I always to try to protest to my boyfriend after the things he did. Did he really became satisfied with the results? but every time I try to talk to him, hinata always gets in the way. Like she seems okay with how my boyfriend to these illegal things not before learning her true colors, getting what she wants literally she'll do anything even if her smile was fake her desire was like kisaki a bunch of monsters that is.
As I walk in the busy streets in shibuya I wore a neatly plain dress because me and my boyfriend we planned on going to a date, to celebrate our anniversary and his accomplishments in the gang world to make up for his absences towards me. As the stoplight walk sign appeared, I walked my way to the streets, I can see my boyfriend in the crowds with a girl?! Not only they were just standing their but the shocking thing is to see your only best friend kissing my boyfriend right before my eyes.
I felt rage course to my vein the audacity of this bitch!, as I push through the people blocking my way I grabbed the hair of my ex friend now and shouted at her. I screamed,yell and cry for the very long time because that's is the only thing I am good at, h–how could she do this to me.. How long have they been doing this behind her back, since when did she include herself in the freaking picture?
I had no time to think anymore as my emotion became to flooded to process so I had try to slap hinata but was blocked by my traitor of a boyfriend, that scum! I hated him very much to the core. I began screaming in the streets I don’t care if people hear me or think I’m exaggerating myself but I need an explanation of this tom foolery they’re doing to me.
“Ne..tell me when did it started? When did you do this behind my back.. when!?” I struggle to talk while hinata hides behind kisaki, that bastard. He replied “ You know at first I just admire you as a hero, for me you we’re a pretty thing like a doll that needs to be display while watching me and support me but the only thing you did was try to stop from becoming the greatest gang leader, you were just trying to hold me back! But hinata.. she was different, she never bicker to my plans, she even encourages me more not like you. So, screw you Hanagaki Takemichi!” kisaki then pushes me through the streets while the stoplight turns to green then a truck suddenly was coming fast right before me it hit right through my body. My body flied a cross the streets as many people were shock at what happen.
It hurts.. my body hurts as I try to open my eyes a lot of people started gathering before me screaming at people to call an ambulance. I try not to focus on bunch of people that I ever even knew and focus my eyes on my ex-best friend and also my ex-boyfriend giggling with a sarcastic smile on both of their freaking faces. I curse them both as I close my eyes oh I wish the gods to hear my prayer and give me the strength to undo time. That the people kisaki ruined I will try to help them because I know my evil ex boyfriend plan on how to stopping them and for my ex friend don't worry I hope they will live in a miserable life.
It still felt like a dream as I knew it an alarm suddenly ring in my ears making me wake up immediately “huh? I…. I thought I was dead wait a minute what happen?” .