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November.
I woke up one morning. Nothing special that morning I went to school and got thru the day when I got home is when things started going downhill, I went on my computer to talk to my boyfriend at the time Dylan. We talked but he seemed off, a little distant.
“What's wrong, Babe?” I ask with concern.
“I think we made a mistake.” Dylan said with hesitation. “I don't think we should've dated. I'm sorry I love you but I can't take the stress. We're breaking up”
At this point I was bawling wondering what I did wrong. “O-Oh okay….I-I have to go. I still hope we can be friends” I said and shut my laptop and curled into a ball and cried. I didn't stop until I went to sleep.
The next day I started crying in the middle of first hour and went to the office so I could cry in peace. I did it for the whole weak. My counselor came to talk to me on Friday. “What's wrong, Jake?” ask the Counselor
“Nothing really, Just super stressed out. You know with Finals and all.” I lied.
“Okay, I'm here if you need to talk to me. Okay?”
“I know, Thanks.” I said in a hurry to leave school for the day. When I got home I went to my room, locked the door and turned up my music so No one could hear me crying. I opened my laptop and saw a couple of messages.
Dylan: Jake, where are you going?
Dylan: Jake! Oh god, please still be alive.
Dylan: If you're there, I love you and have a good day.
Dylan: Jake! Respond. Please…
I didn't see why he would message me, all I knew then is that I didn't want to burden him with my problems or anyone else for that matter. But I responded
Me: What? Why?
I immediately got a response from him, I was shocked that he was continuing his act for caring about me.
Dylan: Thank god! You're alive!!
Me: I don't deserve to be alive, Dylan.
Me: Fuck, forget I said that.
Dylan : You do deserve to live, Jake!
Me: What's up, Dylan?
Dylan: Don't you “What's up, Dylan?” me! I still care about you!
Me: No you don't.
Me: I gotta go, see you later, Dylan
Dylan: Don't go!
Me: Goodbye, Dylan.
I closed my laptop and went on my PS3 and started watching NCIS on Netflix because I didn't know what to do. I couldn't go on my laptop because I didn't want Dylan to bother me and I didn't want to bother him. Then I felt a buzz from my phone. It was Dylan calling me. I hit decline and throws my phone on my bed and continued watching NCIS on my TV.
About 3 minutes later I hear my phone go off. I was confused as to why so I went over to pick my phone up and check it. I had a message from my best friend who was also Dylan best friend. Blake.
Blake: Hey Jake, you there?
Me: Yeah..Why?
Blake: Oh thank god, Dylan told me what happened I just wanted to make sure you're alive..
Me : Of course he did…
Me: I gotta go, see you later.
Blake: Don't go, Jake!
I read his message but I didn't reply and I went to the main screen of the app and saw that Dylan was texting me but I had him muted so my phone didn't vibrate. I sighed and muted Blake as well. I needed to be by myself for a while.