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Today wasn't a good day for Mayoi. There were too many people, and he accidentally messed up choreography during one of their shows. He unlocks the door to his dorm, hands shaking as he feels more useless than ever.
He opens the door to complete silence. Tomoya must be doing something with Ra*bits today. He sits down on his bed, sinking into the pillows.
His body starts to shake even more as he feels tears fill his eyes. The mistake he made was something so avoidable. And it was so obvious on stage too. He felt everyone's eyes on him.
He was letting Alkaloid down. They swore that he did fine, but he didn't. He was an inconvenience to them, a burden they had to drag around.
He started to shake even more as the tears spilled over. He needs to calm down. How can he calm down?
He looks over at his bedside table. Sitting there was a collection of pretty silver rings that Hiiro had got him. He grabs them, putting them on. They fit his fingers perfectly, proof that Hiiro really put effort into finding them for him. That thought was sort of grounding, along with the feeling of the metal on his fingers.
He hesitates before opening the drawer of the bedside table. There is his collection of gifts. He picks up a necklace that Tatsumi had given him. It's a cross, a little bulky, but still pretty. He feels unworthy of something so holy, but is honored that Tatsumi would give it to him. He puts it on, the weight comforting.
Next thing he saw was a collection of photo cards from Aira. It's mostly Chief, which Mayoi appreciates greatly! There's also a couple of un-released photos of Branco that Aira included, and they're just so cute that it brings a smile to Mayoi's face!
Next thing he pulls out is a small scrapbook that Alkaloid gave him on his birthday. There's a bunch of photos from rehearsals and concerts, but also some from personal hangouts as well. Everyone looks so happy, and he can feel his shaking start to calm.
Closing that, he then picks up the throwing stars that Chief gave him. He was so considerate too, making them out of paper so Mayoi wouldn't injure himself with them! He starts to smile wider, placing them to the side as he pulls out another object.
He ended up pulling out the pallet of eyeshadow that Narukami had gotten him. She picked it out for him during that time when she had convinced him to go shopping with her. He remembers her spending a moment thinking about which one to get, which brings a feeling of joy to Mayoi's chest.
Right next to it was a stuffed animal that Kagehira had picked out for him. It was a teddy bear with such big eyes that made it so adorable! It was purple, almost the exact shade of Mayoi's hair! The softness of it was relaxing, calming Mayoi as he ran his fingers through its soft fur.
Next to it was a box of tea that Kohaku had given him during Sweets Fan Club. It's a collection of different flavors that Kohaku thought Mayoi might like. He's been afraid of drinking it, of wasting a precious gift, but he might make a cup later, considering how comforting the smells are.
Placing the tea to the side, he pulls out the cowboy hat that Madara had given him. Madara had given it to him out of nowhere, placing it randomly on his head. The older one had smiled brightly, saying that it suited Mayoi well. The memory makes Mayoi's smile wider.
After that, he pulled out a plushie of a dove from Hibiki. It's very soft, and Mayoi can't help but admire how cute it is. Hibiki had offered it to him with a smile, insisting that he should take it. When Mayoi finally did, his smile got wider, talking about how “amazing ☆” Mayoi was. He gets flustered once more just thinking about it.
After that was an empty bag of freeze dried grapes that Niki had given him. After figuring out his favorite food, Niki had given him a bunch of grape related snacks. The freeze dried ones were his favorite, and he finished them relatively quickly. He kept the bag for moments like these, and the thoughtfulness of Niki still surprised Mayoi even now.
He then pulls out a pair of bunny ears that Mitsuru had gotten him. They're very fluffy and so so cute! He didn't know who had given them to him for a while, but then Mitsuru soon admitted that it was him. The memory brings a giggle from Mayoi's mouth.
The last thing in the drawer is a keychain from Sora. It's from a game that Sora had convinced Mayoi to play. It's a cute, pink, and round mascot that Mayoi became very fond of. Sora had said that his “color seemed brighter” after he had received the keychain. Mayoi doesn't really know what that means, but the compliment made him feel warm.
As he looks at all of the gifts that had been given to him, he realizes that his tears had disappeared and his shaking had stopped. All of these objects and the memories they bring have brought him comfort when he needed it the most.
He's not alone anymore.