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1. Will Always Lead You Into Love And Regret by mysticaldrake

   Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   23 Mar 2024

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Major Character Death
   • Fyodor Dostoyevsky/Nikolai Gogol (Bungou Stray Dogs)
   • Nikolai Gogol (Bungou Stray Dogs)
   • Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs)
   • Sigma (Bungou Stray Dogs)
   • Alexander Pushkin (Bungou Stray Dogs)
   • Goncharov
   • Original Characters
   • Suicide
   • Attempted Murder
   • Past Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Implied religious trauma
   • even though it's only brief
   • Vomiting
   • Self-Harm
   • Past Poverty
   • Theft
   • Self-Destructive Spiral
   • Blood
   • Knives
   • please heed the trigger warnings
   • circus AU
   • Alternate Universe - No Abilities
   • Nikolai Gogol - centric
   • Character Study
   • of a sort
   • Probably ooc
   • the other characters and OCs are very very marginal
   • dark themes
   • This is so edgy
   • Watching Someone Sleep
   • Repressed Feelings
   • Obsession
   • Internal Conflict
   • Guilt
   • Unhealthy Relationships
   • Acrobat Nikolai Gogol
   • Slightly Inspired by irl Dostoyevsky's "The Meek One"
   • Quotes From "The Meek One"
   • slight religious symbolism
   • One Shot
   • Set in the past but the time is ambiguous
   • Ties in with my last Fyolai fic but can also be read as a stand-alone
   • Minor Swearing
   • Title from "Bernadette" by IAMX
   • Again
   • Angst
   • Yearning

   Summary

   The kindjal dagger was heavy in his hand.

   They said that people standing on a height were drawn downwards, as it were, of their own accord, to the abyss.

   Nikolai often felt like that during shows, the very moment before he jumped and vaulted through the air.

   He was feeling the same now.

    

   He was one step away from being free.

   Series

   • Part 1 of fyolai circus AU (with a twist)

   Language:

   English

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