Work Text:
Hi Will , I miss you , I hope you’re having a great day,... and send. Leo's fingers shook as he hit the button. It’s been awhile since they’ve spoken afterall.. Leo thought it was only necessary to check in… which he has been doing for the past few weeks. .. with no answer.
I keep bothering him huh. If he really wanted to hear from me he would have said something. Hell I am probably overwhelming him with all my pointless messages. I need to stop messaging him… until he decides to at least
Leo shook his head before burying it into his arms. I really am an annoying person.. I just miss him a lot… but it’ll be okay Will will be okay…. He doesn’t need me…. I’ll wait for him though, for however long it’d take… if he ever wanted to return to me that is.
He was Leonardo Watch after all… everyone’s hero… at least that’s what he’s been told. He can’t say he believes that title though . A hero would never get upset over something like this… being alone.. Being forgotten. It’s okay, it’s my job after all.. As a hero.
It hurt though, he admits, seeing Will travel , making new friends since he went back to his homeland. I am happy for him, he looks so happy and at peace now. I am glad I was able to help him when I could have. But his heart stung as he felt Will slip further and further away from him. This happens with all friendships.. It’s inevitable.. We grow apart.. I just…. I just miss him. I have to stop being so overwhelming.
He knew he was being self-deprecating.. But.. it was hard to break the habit.. Leo never really felt he had friends until moving to Hellsalem’s lot, and even then he never really had a friend like Will. And he was terrified, petrified even, to lose him.
I know this isn’t healthy, but I don’t know what to do. I can’t say anything to Will cause he hasn’t done anything wrong? He can have other friends, and I am so happy he does. I can wish for him to have space for me in his life but that’s not my decision now is it. Leo looked up at his ceiling. I should just accept he has moved on without me. He couldn’t help it, he wanted to hear all about Will’s life and let him know how important he is and make him feel better and be the person Will goes to when he feels lonely himself.. Oh so that’s what it is…. I’m lonely.. Again. Michella wouldn’t be very happy with me.. Especially since this was my own fault
“Stop being so overbearing! You worry everyone around you since you’re a glass cannon”
Leo could almost hear her chastise him again. It rings out in his head constantly. Not like she was wrong, she was always right.
He’s been working on it too, Klaus even mentioned something about how Leo seems more confident in his decisions… even if those decisions were what to get for lunch that day. He’s been less reckless as well, taking time to actually look both ways before crossing the street.
Klaus says he should be proud of that.. And Leo is trying to be proud at least…..
Will was somehow always proud of me… no idea why though. I’d get up for the day and he’d praise me for getting up… I didn’t deserve that … ehhh there I go again.
I kinda wish I could believe the words said to me that’d be nice I think .. I’m trying it just feels … fake which is unfair to those who said them, why accuse them of lying when it’s my own brain that’s mean.
This is to account for the countless times Will has said Leo is no bother, making a point to emphasize he liked hearing from Leo… Maybe it’s just the .. fact I am always the one to talk to him that I feel bad about. But I don’t want to cause him any more issues than I already do.
It’s just hard cause.. I feel if I don’t do this, I end up all alone again… and I’m sick of that happening.. But I guess it’s for the best since I still haven’t learned my lesson. Maybe I should be all alone again…
I will give Will space.. He can come back to me if he wants, but as his ‘hero’ I have to let him go. I’ll be okay… I’ll be okay.
Leo felt something wet hit his hand…He was crying… as he always does. Guess that’s normal. I am a crybaby after all. But shit.. Leaving Will will not be easy.. But I must… for his sake.. I can’t keep bringing him down.
Leo’s tears only grew harsher as he thought back on their entire friendship.. The ways Will would always be there, eagerly listening.. Urging Leo to continue… when Despair took over his entire self… the way Will beat himself up with guilt .. and the grief over his sister…, Leo couldn’t help but reminisce .
He had an important role in my life.. I only want him to be happy, and if that means I am out of the picture .. then it's fine… as long as he’s happy.
Leo wiped his eyes, checking the time on his phone… It’s time for work.. To Libra I go.
He smiled at his phone… at the old memories he had, at least those can’t be taken from him, but with new found resolve Leo stepped forward once again.