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Chapter one
June 28, Regulus’ Birthday
I sat there, quietly. The rain wet my hair and face, disguising the tears rolling down my face. I would never let anyone catch me crying, it’s so out if character for me. So here I am. The astronomy tower all alone, just how I like it.
The rain drizzled on me, the water soaking my clothes. I’m not bothered by that, I’ve always liked the water. Water was the only thing that could keep me comfort from this hell of a life. When I was bored or stressed I’d just take a swim around the black lake, it was something that kept me going.
What bothered me is that today no one even acknowledged me, on my special day. Usually I’d like some peace and quiet away from my crazy friends but for some reason I’m craving attention, validation even
I am not one to cry over foolish reasons but for some reason here I am. Crying because my friends didn’t remember my birthday. Well I wasn’t exactly crying because they forgot my birthday, it’s a build up of emotions I wanted to express but never could
What's wrong with me I'm not usually like this, last year I wanted to be left alone. Did I do this to myself? Why am I all of a sudden craving validation. Why am I crying over something stupid. I was leaning against the edge if the railing. The astronomy tower is so high, obviously my friends wouldn’t care if I just pitch myself off this tower, right?
The door to the astronomy door creaked open then someone just walked in. I didn’t bother to look back. Suddenly I felt someone pulling me away from the railing. I knew those warm hands anywhere. It was James
“Get your hands off of me potter” I said, my voice cracked as I said that
“Well first of all birthday boy, why are you crying? Second of all do not lean on that railing, ever again” James said in a motherly tone “and don’t call me potter” he added
“Merlin’s sake you remember my birthday?” I huffed. As much as I want to sound annoyed godric it felt good that someone remembered “does- nevermind”
“Spit it out” James said. After that followed a bit of silence
“Does Sirius remember?” I mentioned sceptically, I knew he would say no. Sirius wants nothing to do with me anymore. “Yeah, he told me” James said through a smile
“Oh” I answered holding back a smile
“You didn’t answer me reg, why were you crying?” James remarked sounding concerned “None of your business potter” I stated stiffly, “Oooooh let me guess, no one remembered the poor birthday boy’s birthday?” He professed in this cocky way
…. There was an awkward silence that filled the atmosphere
“I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said that” James apologised “it’s alright” i said with an unreadable expression on my face “you are right” he added. God this is so dumb. I am was so tired of acting like i didn’t like him but at the same time i didn’t
“They’re jerks” he spoke up “cant believe you’re dating that Barty” James expressed. No response, just silence “Hello? Earth to Reg?” I didn’t reply. “Did I ever tell you that you have gorgeous eyes?” James smiled as he observed. “Yes you have, a thousand times.” I reply
“I love you regulus, please just drop Barty I swear I’ll treat you a million times better boyfriend than him, please reg” James pleaded. “You know that that wouldn’t be fair to us nor Sirius. Plus I don’t even love you.”
That last sentence hit James like a ton of bricks. “Yes, I know” James uttered. “So drop it” I responded
“You know it will be unfair to everyone if we start dating. And I don’t want to hurt Sirius again.” I professed.” Yes I know, I’m sorry I was being… drastic” James replied
“Even if you don’t love me, I’ll always love you. I hope you know that.” James he added
Why would you waste your time on me? Is what I wanted to say. “It’s getting late James, go to your dorm.” I said instead “… okay, but I’m always here if you need me. You’re acting off” James replies “I’m fine stop worrying about me. Now go” I said urgently “okay okay, don’t miss me too much” James said as he scurried away
I was alone, again. This time feeling less forgotten of. The rain felt pleasant. Now that I’m alone I can think about how his friends forgot about his birthday