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1. someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little? (love me a little?) by with_hardship_ease

   Fandoms: Boyfriend to Death (Visual Novels), The Price of Flesh (Video Game), YKMET  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • F/M
   • Work in Progress

   15 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Ren Hana/Reader
   • Ren Hana/You
   • Ren Hana/Original Female Character(s)
   • Lawrence Oleander & Reader
   • Ren Hana
   • Strade (BTD/TINR)
   • Lawrence Oleander
   • Muslim!Reader
   • Derek Goffard
   • Woundfucker (The Price of Flesh)
   • justice for ren
   • revenge on strade
   • Emotional/Psychological Abuse
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Recovery from trauma
   • Warning: Strade (BTD/TINR)
   • Fluff
   • Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Friends to Lovers
   • Slow Burn
   • Depression
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Torture
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • Healing
   • Personal Growth
   • Character Study
   • Religious Guilt
   • Soft Ren Hana
   • the fact that this isn’t already a tag is exactly why I’m writing this fic
   • Ren Hana Needs a Hug
   • again how am I the first to use these tags
   • Bloodplay
   • Muslim Protagonist
   • Stalking
   • Minor Character Death
   • Kidnapping
   • Sharing a Bed
   • Loneliness
   • Smitten Ren
   • Mutual Pining
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
   • no beta we die like strade deserves
   • Suicide Attempt

   Summary

   You work at a suicide hotline, and get a call from a boy who watches too much anime. It's all downhill from there.
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   While the rational part of your mind, with its built-in survival instincts, panicked and twisted with anxiety, the deeply suicidal part was giddy, thrumming with excitement. You'd die. Your loneliness, your abusive mother, your dead end job- you'd be free. It would be over, permanently done with, and you'd never have to put up with life ever again.

   Staring at the closed basement door, you almost wanted to thank Strade for being your saving grace.

   (A love letter to food, October, late-night texting, fulfilling revenge fantasies against Strade, and showering Ren with all the love and support he needs to go down the messy path to recovery and happiness. Lawrence and Derek get saved down the line too!)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   116,880

   Chapters:

   17/?

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   Kudos:

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