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The ship rumbled slightly as Longarm was deep in thought, the last couple months have been very eventful. He wondered if it was a mistake to be so openly himself to Blurr but if he has nothing he at least found comfort in sharing his actual being with his beloved, not that blurr knew the actual monster he was nor would he ever let him find out. He wouldn't speak it aloud but he was scared of it and he knew for good reasons so, it wasn't like he was simply a decepticon spy, they might be able to get over that as he played the scenario out in his head so many times but no, he wasn't just a con spy who might have turned around, he was after all shockwave a horror story told to younglings and grown ups as well and not for no reasons, if anyone knew that he knew it the best.
Yet even though he had such a big hand in play at the war as a con of the first hour, and he didn't regret any of it quite frankly, blurrs words from a conversation they had that started all this work a couple months ago were running through his mind again, "I feel like I really understand now, but no matter how right the original cause of the decepticons was, they strayed too far off the path, nothing can change that, it's all wrong now", he was right, they strayed off too far and maybe he did too, he was losing sense of who he was, or is. He never wanted to be a leader, maybe he is getting too old after all but he already started something in blurrs spark with his uncareful words and ideas and before he'd let the first and only mech he loved burn up with the seed of revolution he planted he'd go and burn cybertron down once more. The first step was easy, almost too easy considering how brain dull he viewed the new generation populating cybertron, but alas he underestimated the misery of the bots who were born too fast, forced into bodies that were not quite right, not quite theirs, the wish to understand more and find their true callings. He found he could relate quite a bit more than he was comfortable with but for now it was all playing into his cards as he was spreading the word though the medias of cyberton and in just a few months the anonymous gathered quite a huge following, now the reassuring that he was someone of power will set it all into the go.
A sight must have escaped him, as he could feel blurrs hand stroke up his side. "Longarm? are you quite alright?" he looked into these bright blue eyes of his lover, the softest smile on his face anyone could muster, it made him smile in return uncaring of his own weak expression skills as his lover never seemed to be put off by it.
"Yes dearest, how could I not be alright as long as you are with me" he spoke quietly, loving how blurrs smile grew and his body twitched before pinching longarms soft side, they stopped being too over careful of anyone knowing of their relationship quite a while ago but it wouldn't do them too good if everyone knew, they are aware of that, and longarm would prefer to keep being able to live in his new peaceful way without having to ever lie to blurr about anything like having to kill someone who is trying to get in their way.
"Stop being such a tease when sentinel is around or I might have to punish you when we arrive on earth" the blue mech snickered softly, caressing the spot he just pinched. Truth be told Blurr wouldn't mind if this annoying little short trip to earth would mean they would get a moment for them alone away from everything as the last weeks they have been so busy with their agenda, there was so little time for outings.
Longarm took his hand and reached it up to place a soft kiss on it, "who is being a tease now? don't worry I'm sure we will find a moment where you can punish me to your sparks desire" he gave him a playful grin, loving how such little teasing can still evoke such lively reactions from blurr, just one of the many things he loved about him, he was full of energy, smart and strong, a truly impressive mech and he wouldn't say that easily about anyone.
Both of them looked up at the swishing sound of the door to the cockpit opening, "Buckle up buttercups" the voice was crumply and if you asked either of them, quite annoying, "we are about to breach earths atmosphere and land at the designated target" sentinel gave them a nasty side look, probably even more annoyed to have to go on this quite ridiculous quest from magnus with the two of them. They had stupid Optimus and his loser squat on earth why did they need effin longarm to check if the new anonymous threat actually came from earth. In his optics longarms squishy and ridiculous form should stay where he belongs, in his office far away from him, "I don't care if your ride was pleasant just be prepared to finish this task fast so we don't drag this adventure into any lengths" and with that he withdrew into the cockpit again.
They gave each other a knowing look which only resulted in them having a laughing outbreak. Things are good, everything is as it should be and they can't wait to tackle what is to come next together.
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Once they arrived everything went quite fast but also not fast enough, they met up with team prime, longarm had an over exited bee hanging on his side brabbling away about all the things that went on on earth and his probably over exaggerated stories about his battles with some stray cons and earth monsters alike, to longarms demise blurr didn't help him at all, no he was even edging bee on to go on with his rants, and even though it was all too much he couldn't help it but have a big genu smile on his face, his new life was perfect and he wouldn't have it any other way. So when everyone else headed to their assigned resting places for the nigh and only the three of them were left in the main hall of team primes base, longarm reached up to cup bees face in his hands instantly shutting the minibot up who was now looking up at him with the biggest puppy eyes you could ever imagine on a mechs face, "thank you bumblebee, I appreciate your warm welcome on earth you really made it far, just like I knew from bootcamp on, let's get to rest now and tomorrow you can show me all your new skills alright?" and with that he let go of him and joined blurrs side heading for their room together both mechs giving bee a soft smile before vanishing behind the door, leaving a flabbergasted blushing bee behind.
Longarm gave a soft sight once the door was closed rubbing his face, he knew his shot at this life was thanks to bee being so gullible back then, this little mech could have changed everything. His hands were taken by blurr a soft smile on his face as he pulled longarm away from the door and closer to him, his smile didn't quite fade as he placed a kiss on longarms lips receiving a soft whine from the other as longarm was pressing in to close the space between them reaching for a deeper kiss. Blurr snickered softly as he lead longarm to the makeshift berth leading him to sit down on it gently, "so you and bumblebee huh? I can see it" He grinned teasingly.
"Oh stop it" he said with a smile not letting go of blurrs arm, stroking it gently, "didn't you quite tease me enough today my love?" he moved his hand up to hold it against blurrs cheek who nuzzled into it. "Or is this already part of my punishment?". He leaned down fully on the berth when blurr straightens up and towered over him reaching down to caress longarms face in return.
"You know I wouldn't go that easy on you" another soft kiss placed on longarms lips, "Come on now you must be exhausted from your first planet transfer and all that talking today, I know you, so scoot over" he said as he put some distance between them so longarm could move on the berth not even giving a single glance to the second berth they placed by the door.
Longarm couldn't help but feel a twing of sadness welling up at that sentence, it doesn't happen often anymore but maybe he really was a bit tired even though this for sure wasn't his first planet transfer trip. He scooted over and held his arms open for blurr to snuggle into the warm embrace, "yeah you do" he pressed his head into blurrs chest who placed a kiss on his head and listened to the hum of blurrs spark, he had never known recharge quite as good as when he was falling asleep to the hum of the others spark, oh the things he would do to make sure they would never part again.
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The next morning came way too fast and the group of them was out and about trying to locate that mysterious signal that was apparently mistaken as a possible source of longarms own anonymous operation, he knew they would never find him but he couldn't help and wonder what this signal was, after all the technology to reach cybertron from this far is quite rare, and not so easily accessible and he wasn't looking forward of a meeting with a bunch of stray decepticons. He was even more intrigued when they reached a ruin going into the underground, once they went down the tunnels you could hear and feel the hum of electricity the deeper you went the stronger it became, and when they reached the first big room there was nothing in there but a bunch of cables, metal scraps and a big screen that switched on to greet them. "Ah I see I finally got you attention alien scum" a scratchy voice echoed through the room while a blurry vague human figure was visible on the screen, well if this is not getting interesting, longarm checked for reactions on team prime but couldn't find anything telling, he was getting the sense that something was very wrong all of sudden and not even sentinels unnecessary screeching could shake it off. "Well, I'm honored you came all this way but I only just started so I can't let you get any further adios".
When the realization hit him it was already too late, suddenly everything happen in milliseconds and like the time stopped at the same time. Both the entrance they came in and the way ahead where blocked by falling gates, and as blurr, his love rushed in his speed to the falling trap door on the other side the hum of electricity stopped, "BLURR WAIT!!", too late, as the explosives went off a piece of shrapnel flew though his lovers tight sending him crashing into the wall as the whole room was coming down on him, the others, busy breaking open the way they came from, weren't even able to comprehend what just happen to the blue mech, and longarm knew he would never be fast enough but he knew he could be strong enough, big enough. He didn't hear the shouts of team prime when he was rushing to blurr as the others mechs optics went offline nor did he hear the silence when he shed his form, his body morphing almost becoming too big for the collapsing room as he shielded blurrs tiny body under his, the stones fell, everything went dark and time resumed to normal again.
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Everything was dark, the weight on his back was crushing and almost unbearable, his entire body was filled with pain but he couldn't care less as he just died, only the faint glow of red illuminating his lovers face when he could hear the sounds of the others systems booting up, primus be blessed he reached him just in time. Blurrs arm moved first, then the tiny mech under him tried to scoot into an almost sitting position when a hiss escaped his lips as the pain from his legs shot through his entire frame. "Blurr don't move you're hurt" escaped him before his breath stopped.
"ah what, longarm, why-?" he cut himself off as his optics turned fully online adjusting to the darkness and staring full of terror into the single red glowing Optic right above him, to shockwave it felt like he starred at him for hours but it must have been only seconds before he averted his gaze from blurr, his mind was now racing probably just as fast as the blue mechs, he had scenario after scenario in his head of what would happen if blurr ever found out but nothing could have prepared him for this. Only the clicking sound of his communicator pulled him out of his head, ** Longarm??? Longarm what happen where are you?? **
He moved his head slightly back to the blue mech who was holding the side of his head and his leg with the other hand, averting to look at shockwave, surely he must realize that he can't reach anyone from under this rubble, after all blurr was extremely smart, his answer came after the mech tried to sneak another terrified look at him. ** Longarm please, I think I'm trapped and there is a fricking decepticon down here I....I ** came with another sound of a soft click.
A sigh that transformed into a cough as his own energon was filling up in his throat escaped him with the next message, ** Longarm I.. I think it's shockwave, I'm... I'm scared **, it took him a bit before he decided what to do, responding, ++ Blurr, I'm so relieved you are okay, don't worry I'll get you out of there ++ he watched as the expression on the blue mech seemed to relax as soon as he got the message, yet he was still shaking, clutching his frame, ** I don't know what's going on he's gonna kill me, please Longarm hurry ** He twitched and winced in pain when shockwave moved slightly, the weight on his back straining him. ++ Don't worry he won't hurt you ok? I made sure of that, you know I'll always protect you ++ his vision was growing blurry but he cant allow himself to pass out just yet, he was sure the stupid autobots were trying to dig them out even if it was just sentinel hoping to bring home the corpse of a dead con.
** I... I don't understand** blurr was trying to move away further from the cons head and claws getting more under his frame but he stopped when his back touched a metal rod and his hand landed in a wet pool, looking down he confirmed it was energon and when he followed the flow he could see the metal rod sprouting out of the cons chest, it must have penetrated him when the ceiling came down. "What the.." he turned to look back at the con "How did you know my name?" his shaking seemed to become less and he felt more collected. Ah there is his brave and strong mech. ++ Don't worry you will understand once I get you out of there okay. Don't waste your energy ++
He could see Blurr take a deep breath before his probing continued, "How did you get here? Are cons working with humans now? How did you end up over me?", he waited quite a while but blurr was growing impatient fast, "do you have any relation to Longarm prime?" odd, it sounded almost hesitant yet he couldn't muster what to tell the other so he just looked back at the ground under him. After a while he heard blurr squirming around again so he looked to see what he was up too.
"you shouldn't move so much, you will make your injury worse" he wasn't prepared for any of this, but he absolutely wasn't prepared to see his lovers optic filled with so much hate directed at him, he'd even say that was worse than the metal rod in his chest. "so now you wanna speak? well to bad I don't listen to suspicious cons even if they are the only thing keeping up this rubble", he almost regretted saying so as shockwaves arms gave in and his body inched closer to the ground before the con catched himself, with a wretched sound blurr could see the energon now flowing out of the cons facial vents, it almost made him pity the con. ** Longarm I can't reach anyone else, I still don't understand but you have to hurry, I'm unsure how long this will hold up, I love you **.
So Blurr was trying to reach outside, it made his spark well up to know that even though blurr was smart he loved him so much, his brain won't even let him entertain the idea longarm was right over him. ++ I love you so much blurr, I'm so close to you, I will safe you++, shit he had lost so much energon already it was hard to keep up the communication and his vision grew more blurry by every minute but he wont give in until blurr is safe.
Hours must have passed like this and he wishes he could spend his last moments with his lover differently, he kept entertaining the thought of talking to blurr but he was too weak anyways, finally he could feel the rumble off stone slabs being moved as he started to violently throw up the rest of the energon in his throat, ++ I Love you blurr, I love you so much never ---- never doubt that I love you, I'll keep you safe++ how pathetic, using the last of his energy to spam his lover with his last thoughts ++ I love you ++.
He could feel a hand on the side of his head "hey hey shockwave right? don't die just yet okay we are almost out big guy, I don't understand what is going on but please don't crush the both of us moments before we get out of here", he tried to focus his dimming optic on blurrs face, he looked so stern, how unfitting it looked on him but at least he saw blurr before he dies. "Blurr" strained panting escaped him "smile for me will you?" the only thing he got to see was a very confused and taken back looking blurr as his vision finally gave out.
It didn't take much longer until blurr could feel the rubble being moved very close to him, suddenly he felt like a hundred pings were hitting his com from team prime when the last slab on his side to the entrance was pulled off and the dim light made him wince. Strong arms, must have been optimus pulled him out from under the con and he was met with horrified expressions yet his only wish was to see his lover, longarm said he'd get him out of there where was he? Why was everybody shouting? Because of shockwave? "Where is he? where is longarm? did he get hurt?" he finally mustered to speak, he didn't get why everyone was suddenly quite now. Ratchet took over holding blurr up as optimus was pushing sentinel out the tiny tunnel with very little success.
"Are you serious?!?" he could still hear sentinel shout with an angry expression "do you really want me to believe he didn't know Longarm was the frigging decepticon scum spy?!? You are looking for that traitor??? He's right there!!" optimus gave sentinel a hard push, "Sentinel, agent blurr is in shock you are going to make it worse".
Blurrs world stopped, "what do you mean?" he tried looking at the others but all avoiding his gaze, unsure what to do or say until bee peeped up with a quite "I wouldn't believe it either if I didn't saw it, its him". He sunk to his knees, suddenly so heavy not even ratchet could hold him upright and he looked over to the limp decepticon frame that was crushed under the heavy rubble, he slowly made his way crawling over to him, sending longarm ping after ping with no answer, ** tell me it's not true tell me it's not true longarm!!!**. He gently cupped the decepticons head in his hands and turned him to look at him as tears where heavily welling up in his optics, despite the tears he tried his best to smile at him, "Longarm, you idiot look, I'm smiling, wake up" he caressed the head for a while, sobbing heavily over the lost of his lover, he couldn't even comprehend the fact that longarm was shockwave.
Ratchet placed a hand on blurrs head as he went on to scan the con infront of him, shaking his head "I'm sorry blurr there is nothing I can do he's gone" he had to bite his glossa not to make any remarks, he knew what kind of decepticon was infront of him, he was old enough to hate and despise shockwave deeply, yet he did his best to scoot the sobbing mech up and carry him out of the tunnel. This was not the right time to celebrate that nasty cons death, at least not yet infront of blurr who is clearly in deep shock and he felt like blurr just like them didn't actually knew what was going on. Once they made it back to the base he fixed blurrs wound while the other mech wouldn't stop crying until he passed out. He would wake up next in a cell on sentinels ship and brought up for questioning but he couldn't care any less, he felt empty and dead.
Back on cybertron he was questioned for weeks, he was for now striped of most of his titles, he felt sick and weak for a long time but slowly accepting what had happen, he often found himself re reading the last conversation he had with longarm over their com and he realized he might not be ready for what is to come next.