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1. I Can Do It With A Broken Heart by wallyreads

   Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   16 May 2024

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Evan "Buck" Buckley
   • Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Athena Grant
   • Henrietta "Hen" Wilson
   • Bobby Nash
   • Howie "Chimney" Han
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Hurt Evan "Buck" Buckley
   • Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Evan "Buck" Buckley Needs A Hug
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Suicide Attempt
   • not in detail
   • Post-Lawsuit (9-1-1 TV)
   • Angry Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Worried Eddie Diaz
   • Protective Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Pre-Relationship Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz
   • Rape/Non-con Elements
   • Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
   • not in specific detail
   • Athena Grant and Bobby Nash are Evan "Buck" Buckley's Parents
   • Worried Bobby Nash
   • Comfort
   • lots and lots of comfort

   Summary

   But he had to keep going, couldn’t just stop existing because he had a broken heart. Because the guy he was in love with ignored him like the plague. Gotta fake it til you make it, or something like that, no matter how miserable he is.

   So he hid it, didn’t let anyone know how truely miserable he was. He handled his shit, because Buck was tough. He was always a tough kid, always pushing his sorrow and pain away, hid his hurt because he didn’t want to be a burden. Pushed it down and away until it was almost non existent. Because he thought he deserved it anyway.

   He needed to pretend. So he smiled and worked and did what he could, and did it well, hit all his marks, grinning the whole time as if he was happy, as if he was winning, but it didn’t stop the gaping hollowness of nothing that appeared in his chest and swallowed him whole.

   [part one of taylor swift songs series]

   Series

   • Part 1 of taylor swift is my muse

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