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Tsukasa fits to the terms of what is called “A glass child” now, a glass child is a person with an ill, or disabled sibling that requires more attention or more constant support, making it so the parents need to be there for them. So it’s called a “glass” child because the parents see through the child to look at their ill sibling, in other words, he’s a neglected child due to the attention Saki requires and that he’s not so able to get. Now, you noticed the attention thing right?

Tsukasa yearns for the attention he couldn’t be easily given as a child, through shows in that mean. Although Tsukasa’s so called “true feelings” those that have made his Sekai are made of the wish of making others smile, he first wanted it because he wanted to make his sister smile just like the actor did on the show they watched as children. Seeing it from his perspective, he wanted to be in the actor’s place, having Saki’s attention, his parents, and making them all smile at once.

Alright so, I’m sure you’ve all made at least a small theory to it if you’re like me, but we still have a few more topics to cover that have importance and relevance to the topic. So to keep things simple, let’s do it chronologically. Now, although it isn’t exactly confirmed and I am no professional in that theme, there’s a theory that “a child learns to talk to themselves the way their parents talk to them.” Going back to the glass child,

Tsukasa is overlooked by his parents, they care for his sister because she needs it. So as for the theory and where it takes place, Tsukasa doesn’t receive much attention from his parents, but he does know Saki gets it. So even now, he doesn’t truly put that attention to himself as Tsukasa Tenma. He places the spotlight on The World Future Star. And if you remember its origins, it’s just for Saki. You get what I’m saying? As Tsukasa’s parents focus on Saki not Tsukasa, Tsukasa does too.

Let’s move on as you’ve probably already gotten my point. Middle school. Middle school Tsukasa is only shown on some flashbacks, which are rare as if, and he’s Only! shown worrying about Saki. And though it is trivial, he’s never shown, mentioned, or even implied to have friends in that time. Friends he can truly rely on and open up to. Does he? And yes, he has Saki and Touya, but if you take a look at his way of thinking, he always braved up even as a kid because “Saki must be suffering”

“Saki must have it worse.” Although sad, the first example were words Tsukasa actually said as a child. And it continues through Touya, and though I’m not well informed on their relationship, I do know that Touya looks highly up to Tsukasa for him helping him as a kid, and back to the first sentence of this specific reply, “They always have it worse.” If you take a good look at the details while seeing the bigger picture, you’ll notice Tsukasa feels as if he’s never allowed to feel Sad.

With that out of the way, Let’s move on to “At The Phoenix At A Sky’s Edge” event. (No I will not call it how it’s written in the ENG server.) On that event, he’s shown to call himself more hurtful things then when called to the Sekai, he just shoved it aside and under the rug. A subtle hint, making it far worse. Emu’s shown to be the “feeling represser” “Everything’s fine” person of the group, out in the open. What am I getting to? Well, Tsukasa is there for Emu, and as I mentioned,

And as I mentioned earlier, Tsukasa did repress some feelings too. “So why doesn’t he follow his own advice?” Well, in his eyes, he did nothing wrong. He has the mentality to care but not to be cared for; “if no one is hurt but myself, no one is hurt at all!”. On that same event, I feel like it isn’t noticed enough, but he starved himself for three days. How did Saki not notice and scold him for it? What about his parents? How did he got away with it? It only raises more concern noticing.

So, back to the Sekai! With all that analysis done, think of some of the words I’ve said. “Push it under the rug” “if no one is hurt but myself, no one is hurt” “Tsukasa talks to himself how his parents talked to him”. All that. So in the end, what made his feelings stronger? Well, we’ve said it. Feeling(S). As I’ve noticed, Tsukasa has two sides of himself, not like Mafuyu, not like Mizuki, just two sides. He has More feelings, not just powerful feelings, but a lot of them.

Have you noticed Tsukasa’s Sekai is the most filled one? It’s full of stuff everywhere, WxS Miku mentioned there being even singing flowers. All the feelings he has, are all in the Sekai at the same time. And with his tendency of pushing things under the rug and Forgetting about it, it’s no wonder he forgot where his “true feelings” originated from.

And what those feelings might be? Think of it as a bunch of small things filing one big bag in which when you look inside, the biggest thing is his dream of making everyone smile. The starter of everything. Another fitting metaphor would be a big tree, the stump being his “true feelings” and the rest being everything that originated and grew from those feelings.

Now, it makes total and complete sense (within and for) the story to keep going, he’s still learning the branches of those feelings, the ones that originated everything, his “origin” feelings. And now it’s come time to point out how much within the story he’s been getting more and more.. Dull. As if his shining as a star is turning the light off his Actual feelings. Now I’m not saying his dream is bad for him, no no.

I’m saying Tsukasa is putting more of himself to his dream, he’s tearing the parts of himself to fit them to the “star” he’s created. Someone deserving of all the attention he yearned for as a child, made so he could have it, he’s wearing a costume. Both metaphorically, and literally. The costume of a “Star”. His work costume, and his character of a star. See why I called it that? Once again, I’m not saying he has two sides like Mafuyu,

I’m saying he has two parts of himself that fail to co-exist without damaging the other. He never faced his past, he’s looking for his future. He keeps peeking at his past, he’s scared of the future. He forgot about his past neglect and sadness he felt, he said “he’s thankful for all he suffered as it formed him.” It’ll help him be a star. He’s remembering it all, he doesn’t want to split ways with his troupe for reaching his dream. 

“They fail to co-exist"