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“We will see you later, feel better” once Ni-ki heard the door lock, he got excited. The truth Was he wasn't sick. He wanted some alone time. It's been months since he's been alone in their dorm. Even if they had their own rooms it felt like he had no privacy. Especially when someone wants to talk to you or play video games every night. The Maknae took a deep breath in feeling his freedom. He hopes that he doesn’t worry the others, he’s just going to tell them that he took medicine and that he feels better when they get back. He quickly ran to his room, grabbing a box from underneath his bed. He flipped off the top and grabbed a few things. A bottle and A Pacifier. Ni-ki ran to the kitchen, grabbed the apple juice and fixed himself a bottle. He rinsed off his paci and shoved it in his mouth before going back to his room.
Setting down his bottle on the nightstand, Ni-Ki stripped from his sweat pants and boxers, he knelt down to his box again pulling out a diaper this Time. He laid it on the bed getting it on and pulling the sticky straps around his hips. Once he got them on he clapped, almost fully regressed. Ni-ki knew he couldn't slip fully when he was alone since there was no one to care for him. I wished he could tell the others but the members have praised him well for growing up. This felt like they would lose respect if they knew. Ni-ki shook his head. He didn't want to think about big Ni-ki stuff, he wanted little Ni-ki stuff. He grabbed a small duck plushie with black splotches on it and sat on his rug. Duck plushie in-between his w shaped legs. He grabbed his iPad and went on youtube, finding his favorite show. Baby Shark's Big Show. He giggled hearing the intro and sang along with his cute baby voice. He reached for his bottle full of apple juice, taking his paci out of his mouth and started to suck on the nipple of the bottle, quickly drinking the juice. Probably drinking it a little too fast but he didn't care, it tasted really yummy to him.
Ni-ki watched his iPad for about an hour before feeling squirmy. He felt the pressure in his lower abdomen. He wanted to be a big boy for himself today and hold it. He huffed at himself and continued to watch his beloved show all while squirming. Ni-ki whined past the Pacifier that he had to go potty. Even though no one was home to hear his plea. He started to bounce on the floor and hug his duck plushie tighter.
“uh ho…” He attempted to say through The paci in his mouth. He sat there with his legs on either side of him while he filled his diaper. The pretty white plastic was turning a light shade of yellow. The show paused to ask if he was still there, causing him to hear himself having an accident In his diaper. Loud hissing filled the room. Tears welled up in his eyes and fell down his cheeks. He has slipped fully without knowing so. Soon he started to cry loudly And slam his hands on the floor, after a while of this he knew no one was going to show up. Now he was crying because he felt alone. He reached out to his iPad and pushed play on his video hoping that it would help him. For the most part it calmed him down. He still hated the wetness of his diaper but that would be for big Ni-ki to deal with. Ni-ki was so enamored with his show that he didn't hear the front door open and close. Having baby shark practically on full blast He didn't hear the chattering from two of the members.
“Yeah I'll check on him. Wait in the van okay?” A soft spoken voice told another. Footsteps approached Ni-ki's door, that's when the little heard them and turned Around to look at the door frame. When the door opened he saw one of his hyungs.
“Jakey!” Ni-ki smiled and raised his arms toward the other. Jake stared at the boy with his sweater, duck plushie and orange flower and blossom covered diaper, that still had a tint of yellow On it. Ni-ki was now fully regressed. Jake's expression softened and went over to the oversized little. He got on the floor with him and let Ni-ki hug him. Jake knew a bit about this kind of behavior in adults so he sort of knew what to say and do.
“How old are you, baby?” Jake asked as he rubbed the others back. Once Ni-ki was done with the hug he leaned back and held up one finger. “Oh you're so small, aren't you!” Jake gave Ni-ki a few strokes on the head and Ni-ki pointed at his iPad and bounced a little. Jake looked at the screen and heard their song on there. Keep swimmin through. He chuckled. “The song really is a hit with the toddlers.” He recalled what the interviewer had said to him. He also remembered that Ni-ki was sitting in a wet diaper. “Baby? Could you show me where your diapers are so I can change you?” Ni-ki looked at him, not understanding what he was saying. He shook his head and pointed at the iPad again. Jake just smiled getting up but then being grabbed by his sleeve pulling him down a little.
“Don’ go…” Ni-ki's eyes started to burn with tears. His face already Swollen from the first fit he had. Jake didn't really know what to do. He pulled out his phone tapping on it before putting it up to his ear.
“Hey Jay, go ahead and head back. Ni-ki uh isn't doing too well and I'd feel better if he was with someone.” Jake straight up lied. He was hoping that Jay would take that and not wait or come cheek on them. A small ‘okay. Sounds good’ was faintly heard over The phone to Ni-ki. Jake had hung up and looked over at the boy. “I need to change you, baby, where are your nappies?” Ni-ki just stared at him. Jake was starting to panic a bit not wanting Ni-ki to get a rash but he had patience.
“Jay mad, Ni-ki?” Ni-ki pointed at himself ignoring the older member.
“Oh no, baby, Jay is just worried.” Jake saw the tears starting to fall down the little's cheeks. He knelt down to Ni-ki on the floor and placed his hands on the little's cheeks, quickly wiping the tears away. “I promise you Jay isn't mad at you.” Jake smiled. “But first I need to change your diaper. Do you know where they are?” It seemed like Ni-ki actually knew what he said this time or bits of it and pointed to the box that was close to the bed. Jake smiled even more. “Hey, that's a good boy. Can you get on the bed for me so I can change you?” Ni-ki wiped Away the remaining of his tears. He hopped up on the bed and wiggled. Jake giggled at him after he got the stuff he needed to change the other. Ni-Ki laid back to let Jake change him. After the soiled padding was taken off and Ni-ki was dry and clean, Jake carefully tightened the taps around his waist. Ni-ki sat up quickly and giggled, suckling on his pacifier. “Do you wanna play?”
“Yesh” Ni-ki tried to talk through his paci. He got off the bed and went to the floor, Pulling a box from under his bed. He held the box up to Jake and made a small sound at him. Jake took the box and opened it for him. He looked at the contents inside and they were building blocks. Jake got on the floor with Ni-ki and dumped the blocks on the floor in between them. Ni-ki reached for one block in each hand and started to stack them. Jake watched fidgeting With a small blue block. Jake wondered how long Ni-ki had this Going on. He pulled out his phone to start doing research on why his friend was acting like this. He learned a lot in the hour that Ni-ki was playing. He was brought back to the reality of things when Ni-ki tugged on his shirt. He looked up at him. “eepy…” Ni-ki said while rubbing his eye.
“Oh okay, let's get you to bed then, baby” Jake help Ni-ki get into bed and pulled the covers over him, giving him a kiss on the forehead. “sleep well.” He stroked Ni-ki’s hair till he was confident he was asleep. Jake got up and quietly and quickly put away the blocks. He was gonna leave the room but he turned to look at the little. “goodnight Ni-ki” he turned the light off, having a small night light automatically turn on, then closed the door behind him.
It was perfect timing. The rest of the boys were just getting home. Jake smiled at them and greeted them. “Oh hey. How's Ni-ki?” Jungwon spoke first since he was the one who told him to feel better.
“He should be fine now. He's resting. I just got him to sleep.” Jake saw the relief leave from the members' faces. He hated lying to them but to protect what Ni-ki has been keeping secret he would lie. He almost wondered if he should tell Ni-ki that he knows now. Maybe when they have time alone. Who knows when that will be but Jake had thought that would be the best time to tell him about it. But for now everyone else had gone to bed but Jake. He went to the share computer and stayed up late researching. He wanted to be a better caregiver for next time. He was gonna make Ni-ki the happiest baby.
He was determined.