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Autistic/depressed Toya x Adhd/ed Akito :)
Tw:sh scars, anorexia, insomnia.. mental breakdowns, etc
Toya hugged his pillow before falling asleep. It was around 2 am. He and Akito decided to call it a day and fall asleep. He wanted to text him more but his boyfriend insisted, at least they would meet tomorrow again.
Thank goodness tomorrow was Friday which meant he could spend more time with him accompanying him and the fact that the week was finally over. No more school buy he had to study hard.
He really didn't like studying. It always took him a lot of effort for a minimum result which made him think that he is useless why couldn't he be like everyone else. Learning history with just one time reading.
He closed his eyes and started daydreaming about his date with Akito tomorrow, though they will probably go to hik place since it was still winter and it was really cold outside. Perfect weather for cuddles.
On the other hand, Akito was already snoring sweat forming on his forehead.
He was exhausted.
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Toya woke up by a loud noise, it was the glasses getting settled in the dining table for him to go eat breakfast with his family. His ears were capable of hearing so far away stuff, most people thought that this was a superpower but it made Toyas life even more difficult.
Even the slightest amount of noise could make his ear hurt and it was no fun. Well he should get ready anyways. Thankfully he wasn't writing any tests today so the day would go on pretty flawlessly.
Once he got ready he greeted his parents and sat down to the table to eat his breakfast, eggs with rice and some leftover dinner from yesterday. He waited for his parents to sit down with him before starting to eat.
After a couple minutes, he got up placed his plate inside the sink and left the house. We walked for around 2 minutes before sitting down to a yellowish bench near a tall tree.
Without many seconds passing, a ginger haired boy appeared, walking towards Toya with a smile on his face. Once Toya noticed he got up and hugged the other boy, burying his face deep inside the others shoulders.
Akito hugged him back tingly before pulling back to give a sweet quick kiss to his boyfriend.
"I missed you"
"Good morning to you too Toya.. and I missed you too. How did you sleep?"
"Not really well. I woke up three times today.. you?"
"Yeah, kinds the same, I woke up so many times, since my sister kept making noise, uhh what else.. what you wanna do after school?"
"Ehhh can I come over?"
"Obviously dude. No need to ask, i mean like before coming over, wanna visit a cafe or somethin"
"First of all dont call me dude I'm your boyfriend, and second of all you are asking me out on a date Huh...???"
Akito blushed, leaving toya hand since they almost reached their school and he didn't wanna be seen.
"Any problem with that mr. Boyfriend?c
"No, none at all. I would love to"
Toya stared st hill with them most loving eyes ever.
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Toya had chemistry right now.. oh how sleepy he was. The motivation he had in the morning slowly leaving his body. Suddenly he didnt wanna hang out with anyone, not in the breaks nor after school either Akito. His eyes gave up and fell asleep on the desk.
"Aoyagi mind telling us what's the answer in the number 4?"
The teacher yelled, looking pissed at Toya.
"Ah.. em.. "
Toya couldn't make out the letters on the paper everything was blurry. He was exhausted yet he had to be perfect.
"Is it c..?"
"Hmm correct.. anyways next, kusanagi what's the answer in number.."
Toyas mind couldn't focus on the lesson. His thoughts overwhelming him. What if he told the wrong thing to thes teacher. What if she calls his parents. What if his classmates hate him. What if he is useless. What if Akito doesnt actually like him.
He is so disgusting why should he be liked anyways. Why isbakito dating him. What if he wants to break up today. That's the reason he agreed on having Toya over. Right.
Toya was on the verge of crying during the middle of the class.
"Oi Toya you good man?"
One of his classmates asked.
"A-a yes sorry "
He whispered back holding back tears looking down. He was begging for the bell to ring. He wanted to leave. He felt sick.
Akito on the other side was dizzy. He had pe. He didn't ate breakfast once again. He needed to build up his abs. He gained weight and he couldn't stop thinking about it.
He worked really hard, trying to get rid of it. Until he passed out. He was on the verge to pass out, thankfully one of his classmates noticed.
"Shinonome, did you skip breakfast again?"
"Why you asking?"
"Judt because you were lost in your thoughts again. Did something happen between you and aoyagi?"
"Ah no no we good. Thanks man"
Akito answered before turning away to continue stretching up in the end focusing on his days with Toya.
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Both boys were walking down the vivid street , holding hands, in silence. Toya had red eyes. In the end be did cry but at least not in front of his classmates but instead in the bathroom. Thankfully Tsukasa found him and comforted him before Akito appeared.
Both of them knew about each others "problems". Toya hated himself for making Akiyo uncomfortable, even though he was never told so. He just thought he was like that. Disgusting.
"Hwre is the cafe, wanna sit here or take it for home. "
"Cam we see how it is inside first?"
"Obviously, here after you,"
Akiyo held the door open for him and Toya.
After a couple of minutes of looking around at the menu and how the place was Toya whispered something on Akitos ear.
"Its too crowded and it's very loud. Could we order and then leave?"
"Mhm.. what do you want? I will order sp you can go step.out for a bit to relax okay?"
"Thank Akito.. "
Toya smiled at him. He leaned in, giving him a very quick kiss on the cheek before giving him his order.
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They were both laying on top of Akito bed. Toya on top of Akitos chest.
"Those cupcakes were too damn good.. I ate too many... again.."
"Akito, it's okay, please dont worry about it. We cluck eat something small for dinner okay?... promise me you wont fo throw up..?"
He whispered the last sentence.
"I.. I promise okay..? Happy now?"
"Mhm.."
Toya closed his eyes nuzzling on his boyfriend's chest. It was very warm and cozy. He felt safe.
"I love you toya"
"I love too Akito. A lot."
They both stared st each other before their distance between their lips closed. A kiss. A very sweet and warm one, that surprisingly became a hot and messy one very quick.
They switched places Akito in top Toya, hugging him tightly. He grabbed Toyas shirt and removed it revealing his pale skin.
He started kissing his old scars, before noticing some new ones.
"Toya..?"
They were red, pretty recent then.,.
"I-I-im so sorry akito"
Toya started crying.
"I couldn't help it. It was too much I'm so sorry."
Akito stayed silent.
"Ik so sorry please, im sorry I'm trying. I swear."
Toya was cut off by kiss on his new scars.
"I still love you okay? You are beautiful, it's just hurts me a bit when you do that. Cause you.arr in pain and I dont know how to help.. but I know that you love me and that you try your best so I.. "
"Akito.."
Toys cried loudly. He could be heard downstairs. He sat up and hugged Akito tightly. He would be dead without him.
"I-I promise Akito.. I will get better okay?"
"I believe In you. I love you so much... and I will try to eat more.. only for you."
Toya ugly smiled. Tears and saliva rubbing down his face. Oh what would for Akito.
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"Boo..!"
Akito surprised Toya with a cake he baked.
"Huh?! What is this?"
Akito gave him a quick kiss before responding.
'Good job 1 year clean'
The cake had written on top of it, with sloppy letters since they were Akitos.
"Aki..."
"We gonna eat it or what?"
Akito giggle, hugging his boyfriend. He was so happy and proud about him and his self. They were doing so well. And they will continue to, if they had each tower everything was possible.
♡