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Rain is tapping against the window of the hospitalroom, dusk slowly filling the sky with its‘ colours, The smell of sanitizer and cleaner are lingering in the air.
In the room is laying a fourteen year old boy with brown-blackish hair and a frail build, a ventilation mask strapped to his face and bandages wrapped around his arms.
He can‘t percive any of those Things,atleast not right now.
To him nothing is there, just black and numbness, that‘s what he gets.
That‘s what he wanted.
But now the numbness rubs off, and his sense returns, he starts to feel pulsing spreading trough his body and it crawls up to him.
From his wrists and hands up to the arms, shoulders, chest and now his whole Body.
A bright light fills his sight, But something isn‘t right..It isn‘t deligthful and freeing it‘s blinding.
He regained consciousness and is now opening his eyes.
,,I see you‘re finally awake,Dazai‘‘ , an unknown voice greets him as he takes in his surrondings.
Dazai takes a breath and sits up,still looking around. ,,Spare yourself, your body needs it, lie back down.‘‘ the voice says.
Dazai ignors the statment and looks at the man the Voice belongs to, a middle aged man with chin long black hair tied back in a low ponytail and purple eyes in a doctors coat.
,,Can you hear me?‘‘ The doctor asks after being dismissed to which Dazai nods his head. ,,You should rest-‘‘ ,,I‘m Fine‘‘ Dazai groans back at him.
,,Well if you say so..I‘m Dr.Mori“ He introduces himself,holding a Hand out to Dazai, who barely reacts, ,,I‘ve been to one who has been treating you since you arrived after your incident‘‘
Dazai glances up to him and turns to sit on the edge of the bed ,, Dazai Osamu, Pleasure.‘‘ He grabs his bandaged wrists
,,Not the best idea,don‘t you agree Dazai?‘‘ Mori comments ,,Well it hurt alot so i guess..‘‘ He answers.
,, You‘ve been having a quick recovery, does this relate to your ability or just luck?‘‘ Mori sits down on a stool infront of Dazai trying to start conversation. ,,No, Don‘t you have other patients dying or something?‘‘ Dazai attempts to stir away,but Mori insists.
,,No,all my other patients have been non vital injuries who have already gone home, I have all the time in the world right now. Tell me,what does your ability do? I looked trough your medical history..I‘m curios if those things are related“
Dazai stays silent for a moment before answering ,,No, It doesnt do much..turns off other gifts but thats about it. Not related just happens‘‘
,,Suicide attempts and self harm just happend,would you maybe expand on that?'' Mori keeps pushing. ,,What do you want from me?" Dazai scoffs annoyed at the many questions asked.
An uncomfortable silence falls between them,Mori holding eyecontact for minutes until Dazai finally says something he wants to hear.
,,I dont know if my ability relates to it or not,I just started feeling less and less, and its weird. I could.." He thinks for a bit ,, Well "No Longer human" isn't the name i chose for it, you figure it out somehow. From after i discovered it it felt like it's name started aplliyng more and more. It was like a hole growing inside of me making me different. I didn't know what to do, I hate pain, So I tried that" Dazai starts to ramble. ,,Well now we're getting somwhere kiddo. So you turned to self harm and when that didnt work to suicide attempts. Were you trying to feel Human by experiencing adrenalin rushes?" Mori takes a mental note of Dazais struggles.
,,I dont fucking know what I was doing! I was just trying to,fill that hole.But nothing works,and no one gets it.." Dazai snaps at Moris' pushing ,,I dont want to keep going like this,nothing means anything. No one can help me so just let me die".
Silence fills the room again.
,,You're quite young to turn to nihilism. You seem like an intelligent young man. I'm sure your family is proud" Mori changes the subject,not wanting Dazai to ramble on like an angsty teenager for much longer. In the back of his mind wanting to see how Dazai reacts to being interupted
Dazai falls silent and rolls his eyes ,,Adults are all the same,You don't understand me. Did you even listen?."
He cuts the rest of the conversation short either only nodding or shaking his head or not answering at all.
Mori picks up Dazais file, writes some notes inside and puts it away in the nightstands drawer.
„Well I see you have lost intrest so I won't bother you for much longer. If anything else is bothering you or going on, tell me. I could arrange that you dont have to go back home if that plays into it. But for now you‘ll have to stay for atleast a week longer.‘‘
Dazai frowns but doesnt comment,he climbs back onto the bed.
„Then I‘m gonna sleep‘‘ He says and lies down,hiding undercovers.
Mori looks at him for a moment before getting up and leaving the room.
,,Good Night‘‘ He says and closes the door behind him.