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[ pov; Alexander Hamilton]
..-- >> [ Reminder that the [txt] is my thoughts throughout the story! If there isn’t any around a lot of sentences, then i’m just typing while listening to music!! Or talking to my friends! ]
Today, yesterday, and the day before, I have been wanting to ask my best friend, John Laurens for.. exquisite, timeless, and utterly pleasurable time together.
Of course, at this period, this era, what I am, is.. bisexual, or at least it is hinted that I so am. I am disgusting to most people around the place. If I tell my friends, Lafayette, Mulligan, or even my. sort of friend? but more of a rival, Aaron Burr, they would all probably hate me!
I can't let that happen, I can't bear the thought of Burr spreading rumors, and I can only imagine how Lafayette and Mulligan would react, my friends.
This is so tiring, I just want a time where I can be myself, be who I want to be, be with whom I desire to love, I just.. want to, I don't need it, I don't need to own it, or even live in it. I just wish it was there, I wish I could do as I please.
I want to be myself and love who I want without judgment. The situation with my friends is tiring, especially since Burr subtly betrayed me, and Lafayette and Mulligan drink in the same pub but have never talked to each other.
At first, I walked around, around and around, pacing through the halls of Lauren's house, the aroma lying in his home was... Enticing and welcoming.
I sighed, stopping in my tracks, then to the mirror on the wall, then to Lauren's bedroom door, walking close to touching the door knob. I soon got to touch it and I felt it, soon gaining the courage to open it.
I opened it to see my friend, lying on his bed reading some random book he had, he had a very messy room, though very clean at the same time. Sometimes I wonder how anyone could do that.
I laughed to myself, smiling at the sight of Laurens just sitting reading a book mindlessly. I finally gained enough courage to walk closer to Laurens without him noticing, soon sitting down on the bed next to Laurens. The weight of my body on the bed made it sink, making him notice me straight away.
“Hamilton? Ah! Why’re you here? I thought you left after dinner!”
I heard Laurens speak, his voice calm and enticing, making me want to fuck him even further. Although, if we ever did, it would be awkward, I’ve never had gay sex! I’ve only ever had sex with my wife, Eliza Schuyler.
“Ah well uhm.. You know how uh... We.. uh..”
I try to speak, my awkwardness becoming bigger than me, I was rambling, over and over again till Laurens groaned and grabbed my left arm, which was nearest to him, with one hand and the other to use his finger to shush me, telling me to shut the fuck up.
"Shut up! Just, get to the point, Alexander."
I laugh nervously as he takes his finger off of my mouth, I smile anxiously and sigh.
"... Can we have sex?"
I finally say, causing a jump from Laurens, my one and only... "... Ah, you do know how to make me jump, Alexander. But uhm, yes. We can." I smile, maybe a few minutes later we both get undressed, both awkward, and we just, didn't know how to start.
"Uhh.. Wanna drink some beer to get our minds clouded?"
I nod, I didn't know how to start this, and neither did he. We must consent before we do this so we know and understand we aren't
taking advantage of each other. I would never take advantage of him; he wouldn't do so to me either.
"So uhm, do you consent, I know I do."
I ask, wanting it to be clear that I already want to do this and know if he does as well.
"Yes."
I nod, soon we both take some shots, maybe we kiss a little bit. We were very drunk, but still able to think reasonably.. not really... But you know what I mean!
"Agh.. Fuck, Alexander.. Just get to the fucking bedroom, I am WASTED."
I hear Laurens say, I smirk and stand up wobbly, trying to keep my composure straight as I grab Laurens' hand and walk to his bedroom, as we are still in his house.
I mean, it would be idiotic to get dressed right after getting undressed just for a drink to get then undressed and fuck, you know what I mean? No? Okay.
I got down on the bed, we were still nude, I huffed sitting down on my knees on the bed. I looked down at Laurens’ dick, damn it was large…
“You’re uh… Very.. big down there..”
I mutter, realizing I sounded weird, so I just shut up like I should always do. I sighed, seeing Laurens blush, but that might just be from the alcohol, how could I tell? I’m a moronic genius!
“Gee, thanks… We should get started, this is uh. Awkward.”
I hear Laurens speak, so I think about things quickly, or as fast as I can as I blankly stare at Laurens's length. I let my clouded mind take control, and I suck him nicely, well, as well as I can… I’ve never had sex with a man, while sober that is. [you is NOTT sober.]
“Fuck.. you’re taking me good, Alexander.”
I smirk in my head [if that makes sense.. Heh~] that was cute, I’ve never really been a ‘bottom’, but this might.. Just might, be my first time. [gay ass.]
[FUCKING KILL YOURSELF ALEXANDER HAMILTON, YOUR A DICKFACE AND I WANT YOU DEAD. AARON BURR DID GOOD RIDDANCE FOR KILLING YOU… ahem! Sorry! <3]
Maybe a few minutes pass, we’re on the bed full on, Laurens is ontop of me, and my chest is against his chest, he’s pegging me bro wtf [silly me! I’m using my usual words:PP] i’m so gay what the hell. Please peg me more Laurens BAHQHQHQHNCHQWJNMCVHKJW