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It was dark, inside the Speed Force.
He hadn’t been expecting that.
It hadn’t been before. Not the first time he’d been here, and not the last time either, when he’d pulled Wally out the trap.
Wally had been forced to watch his mother die, over and over.
Jay had cornered Barry, probably already assuming what Barry had planned, and warned him quietly of the son he and his wife had adopted, a little boy pneumonia had taken before he even reached a few months old.
Barry hadn’t been sure what he’d see.
The Speed Force looked like his mother usually. Maybe they’d force him to watch her death again. The death that only he could take the blame for now.
Eddie maybe. Or Ronnie. They had looked like them both before. More deaths that were on his hands.
Or his father. He’d failed to stop Zoom in time, he’d failed to save his dad, losing his dad, forced to watch Zoom stop his heart as he ripped out Barry’s, forced to watch in the same place he’d lost his mother, just as helpless now as he had been as an eleven-year-old.
All his speed, and he couldn’t even save his father.
All the hope they had given him had been for nothing.
He sat on nothing, pulling his arms around his knees as he sobbed, entirely alone, trapped in a prison he’d never escape, and one he deserved.