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The Burrow was bustling with activity, alive with the sounds of laughter and clinking dishes as the Weasley family prepared for Bill and Fleur's wedding the next day. It was a rare occasion of joy and celebration, a bright spot amid the darkness of the war looming over them. But today was also special for another reason.
Harry's birthday.
Despite the festive atmosphere, Harry felt a bittersweet pang in his chest throughout the day. Turning seventeen was meant to be a milestone, a gateway into adulthood, where he could finally use magic outside of school without fear of reprimand. Instead, he found himself longing for the simplicity of past birthdays, the ones where his biggest worry was whether anyone would remember to get him a present or if Hagrid would try and send him a rock cake.
Ginny Weasley moved through the kitchen, helping her mother with the final touches for tomorrow's festivities. The preparations had been all-consuming, a welcome distraction from the tension that had increased steadily inside her since Harry had arrived. The house was filled with chatter and noise, but Ginny's mind was elsewhere.
Carrying a tray of glasses into the dining room, Ginny nearly collided with Harry. He was coming in from the other direction, his hands full with a stack of plates. They both stopped abruptly, their eyes meeting.
"Sorry," Ginny mumbled, feeling her cheeks flush. She hadn't been alone with Harry in weeks, and now, standing so close, she was intensley aware of how much she had missed him.
"No, it's my fault," Harry said quickly, setting the plates down on the table, awkwardly shifting his weight from one foot to the other. "I didn't see you coming."
Ginny nodded, setting the tray of mismatched glasses down beside the plates. Neither spoke, the tense silence between them filled with the noise of the party planning drifting in from the other room.
Harry cleared his throat, more to clear the awkwardness than because he needed to. "So, everything's ready for tomorrow?"
"Yeah," Ginny forced a smile. "Just a few more things to finish up, and then we're all set."
They stood there, side by side, neither knowing what to say. Ginny's heart was pounding in her chest, her proximity to Harry forcing her to control her breathing manually. She snuck a quick look at him, noticing the way his shoulders were tense, the way he kept looking anywhere but at her.
Finally, Harry turned, his eyes meeting hers with a look of total vulnerability. "Ginny, I…"
Ginny knew where this was going... the hard conversation about why they had to stay apart, about the dangers and the fears. She didn't want to hear it, didn't want to be reminded of all the reasons they couldn't be together. Not now. Not later tonight. It could be so much simpler.
"Harry, can we just... pretend everything is okay for the next few days?" She spoke before he could. "Just until the wedding is over. Let's just enjoy this, without talking about... everything else?"
Harry didn't answer immediately, but the conflict in his eyes was clear. He desired nothing more than to keep her safe, and that meant keeping his distance. But at the same time, there was a longing, a need for something normal, something good.
He nodded. "Okay," his hand moved to cup her cheek. "We can... pretend."
Ginny leaned into his touch, reminding herself to keep breathing. His touch sent a shiver down her spine. She looked up at him and searched his face. His face was a mirror of her emotions, the same defenseless need. They stood close, the distance between them shrinking so slowly it was nearly unnoticeable.
It felt as if there was a static charge in the air, a friction that had been building for months. Ginny could feel the heat of his body, the steadiness of his breath. She saw the way his eyes darkened as they focused on her lips.
Harry's thumb gently rubbed at the curve of her jaw. The touch was hesitant, as if he was waiting for her to pull away. Instead, it was enough to make her lean in, closing the rest of the small gap between them.
Their lips were just millimeters apart when a noise from the kitchen startled them both. They jumped apart, reality crashing back down around them. The sounds of the bustling house filtered back into their awareness, and they remembered where they were and what was happening tomorrow.
Ginny took a step back, her cheeks flushed. "We... should probably get back to work."
"Yeah, you're right." Harry nodded awkwardly, his hand dropping to his side. "We've got a lot to do."
They shared a brief, embarrassed smile before turning back to their tasks, the moment between them vanishing as quickly as it had come.
As the day wore on, they kept busy with the wedding preparations, stealing glances at each other when they thought no one was looking. The tension from earlier stayed with them, a constant reminder of what had almost happened.
That evening, after the sun had gone down, Molly called everyone together. Despite the busyness, the Weasleys had not forgotten Harry's birthday. They gathered in the living room, Harry standing awkwardly as the others sang a rousing version of "Happy Birthday." A small cake, lovingly decorated with icing and candles, was placed in front of him.
"Happy birthday, Harry," Ginny 's voice cut through the others. They locked eyes and Harry felt a surge of emotion, a mixture of happiness and sadness that caught him off guard and went straight to his gut. He managed a smile, blowing out the candles with a silent wish for safety, for a future he could share with Ginny.
That night, after everyone had gone to bed and the house had fallen silent, Harry lay awake in Ron's room, staring up at the ceiling. He couldn't stop thinking about Ginny, about the way her eyes had looked into his, the way her touch had made him feel alive. He knew he should let it go, should try to sleep and focus on the mission ahead, but the thought of leaving without telling her how he felt was unbearable.
Maybe he could tell her, he rationalized. Everyone already knew they were no longer together, and it's not as if Ginny would mention it if he did. She would still be relatively safe.
Finally, unable to stand it any longer, Harry slipped out of bed and crept quietly through the house, slowly making his way to Ginny's room. The thought of dying with the words left unsaid propelled him forward. When he reached her door, he hesitated, then took a deep breath and knocked softly.
The door opened a crack, and Ginny peeked out, her eyes widening when she saw him. "Harry?" she whispered, surprised. "What are you doing here?"
"Can I come in?"
Ginny hesitated, then nodded, stepping aside to let him in. She closed the door quietly behind him, turning to face him with a mixture of curiosity and concern. "What's going on?"
"I just... I couldn't sleep." Harry ran a hand through his hair, struggling to find the right words. "I kept thinking about today, about us. I know we said we'd pretend everything is okay, but... I need to talk to you. I need you to know…"
Ginny stepped closer, her eyes softening. "Harry, it's okay. You don't have to say anything."
"But I do," he insisted, "I might not get another chance. I don't know what's going to happen, and the thought of leaving without telling you... it scares me, Ginny."
Ginny reached out, taking his hand in hers. The touch was simple, but it sent a wave of comfort through Harry. "We don't have to talk," she said softly. "We don't have to figure everything out right now. Just... stay with me? Just for tonight?"
Harry looked into her eyes, the fear and uncertainty that was his constant companion began to fade. Right now, with Ginny's hand in his, nothing else mattered. He nodded, pulling her into his arms, his lips finding hers in a kiss to replace what he wouldn't say.
The kiss was slow at first, gently exploring. Harry's hands moved to Ginny's waist, drawing her closer, and Ginny's fingers threaded through his hair, holding him to her. The feel of his body against hers was both familiar and new, a comforting reminder of what they had shared in the last year and a thrilling promise of what may come.
As their kiss deepened, the world outside seemed to fade away. There were no more words, only the press of lips and the warmth of skin, the only sounds the quiet gasps that filled the room. Harry's hands moved to Ginny's waist under her shirt, his fingers grazing her skin. She shivered at the touch, her own hands sliding up his back, feeling the muscles there tense beneath her fingers.
They had never gone this far before, never crossed this line, but now there was no holding back. The fear and uncertainty that had kept them apart dissolved quickly, replaced by a desperate need to feel alive, to find comfort in each other.
Clothes were discarded, each piece falling away in a slow yet urgent dance. They moved to the bed, the small space barely accommodating them, but it didn't matter. All that mattered was the connection, the feeling of being whole in a world that was falling apart.
They moved slowly, tenderly, each touch and movement a silent conversation, a promise that went beyond words. It was as if time had stopped, leaving only the two of them, wrapped in their passion filled embrace. Every kiss, every touch, was a reminder of the future they might not have.
As their breathing slowed and the intensity of their love ebbed away, Harry and Ginny lay in the quiet darkness of her room, still entangled in each other's arms. The reality of what they had done began to settle in, but neither of them moved, neither spoke, as if acknowledging it might shatter the fragile peace they had found.
Ginny's head rested on Harry's chest, and she could hear the steady beat of his heart beneath her ear, a comforting rhythm that made her want to stay like this forever. She could feel his fingers tracing gentle patterns on her back, his touch light, almost hesitant, as if he, too, was unsure of what to say, or if anything needed to be said at all.
Harry stared at the ceiling, his mind in chaos. The heat of Ginny's body against his was a comfort, a fleeting bit of normalcy in a world that had become anything but. But beneath that comfort, a knot of guilt twisted in his stomach.
He shouldn't have let this happen. He had tried so hard to keep her far from the danger brought by his very presence, to maintain distance between them, knowing what lay ahead. And yet, in a moment of weakness, he had allowed himself to forget, to let go.
He tightened his arms around Ginny, his heart aching, overcome with everything that was pressing down on him. He knew why he had to leave, why he had to ensure her safety by staying away. Thinking of something terrible happening to her because of him was unbearable. But as he lay there, holding her, he couldn't help but wish for a different life, a life where he could be a normal seventeen-year-old boy, worrying about school and Quidditch, about dating the girl he liked without the weight of the world on his shoulders.
The simplicity of it, the normalcy, felt like a distant dream he could barely remember. The reality was, he was Harry Potter, The Boy Who Lived, and his life would never be simple, never be normal. He had accepted that long ago, but lying here with Ginny, he felt the loss of that normal life more keenly than ever.
He looked down at her, her face peaceful against his chest, and felt a pang of regret. This was what he had always wanted, a chance to be close to someone, without the shadow of war hanging over him. But that wasn't his reality. His reality was full of dangers and responsibilities. The choice he had made tonight put Ginny at even greater risk and he knew it.
Gradually, Ginny's breathing evened out, her body relaxing against his as sleep began to claim her. Harry felt her slip into unconsciousness, her fingers loosening their grip on him. He watched her for a short while, his heart heavy with the fear that this might be the last time they were together like this.
He stayed with her, holding her until he was sure she was deep in sleep, her face peaceful in the soft light of dawn filtering through the curtains. Gently, he extricated himself from her embrace, careful not to wake her.
Harry stood by the bed, looking down at Ginny, a wave of conflicting emotions washing over him. He bent down, pressing a tender kiss to her temple.
He opened his mouth, wanting to tell her how he felt, to say out loud the words that were lodged in his throat. But he stopped himself, the fear of making promises he couldn't keep holding him back. He couldn't say it. Not now, not when he didn't know what the future held.
Instead, he whispered, "I'll come back," as if he was willing himself to believe it.
With a last lingering look, he turned and slipped out of her room, closing the door softly behind him. He made his way back to Ron's room, each step feeling heavier than the last, the guilt of his decision pressing down on him.
As he crawled back into bed, the moonlight casting long shadows across the floor, Harry's mind was filled with the memory of Ginny's touch, the feel of her against him. He knew the risks they faced, the dangers that lay ahead, but for now, he held onto the memory of their night together, a bit of warmth to guide him through the dark times.
Sleep came fitfully, filled with dreams of Ginny and the life he wished they could have. In the quiet of the early morning, Harry allowed himself to hope that he would be able to keep his promise, that they would both make it through what was coming, and find a way to be together, even if he couldn't bring himself to say the words out loud.