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Loneliness. That is what you are currently feeling right now. Maybe you regret leaving your, now ex-friend group. Either way, it would be awkward to go back to them now. There was a new quietness in your life now. You are starting to not mind it now. You have some more free time for yourself. Though...you had notice that you feel a little more...anxious? You are not quite sure about what this feeling is. You continue to study and have a crisis about your future.
You don't want to disappoint your family.
You don't want to be a burden to them.
You don't want to end up being a stain in society.
You don't want to have a worthless life.
You don't want to be homeless.
You don't want everyone to look down at you.
You don't want to be a financial dependent on someone.
You don't want to work at a soulless job.
You don't want to be considered a failure.
You don't want to be considered as someone who threw their life away.
You don't want to work to death.
But you guess you have to.
You continue to do your homework when you felt pain in your chest. It was subtle. You dumbly thought it could be you slouching most of the time. But you can feel your breathing gets faster. The pain in your chest doesn't go away. You feel fidgety and restless. You want to rest in order to get this...whatever this is in control but you also need to finish your work. You try to slow down your breathing and continue to work.
Guess you'll get used to it.