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“We can finally legally drink and our boyfriends are busy! So rude!” Jisung huffed as he downed another shot of soju. He passed the bottle over to Felix and he too took another shot, although reluctantly as he scrunched his face from the bitterness, before speaking.
“What am I then?” Felix pouted, “This boyfriend is free at least!”
“Oh baby,” Jisung leaned across Chan’s king sized bed to squish Felix’s reddening face, “I just meant both of… all of? Yea all of our boyfriends aren’t free and it's a shame. I very much am enjoying time alone with one of my favoritest boyfriends.” Jisung was bold when he was drunk. They were all very aware of that as just because he can drink legally now didn’t mean he hadn’t had a few before. Often getting cuddly and touchy from just a single shot. As he was now caging Felix in as he climbed in his lap and guided him down on the bed, “So beautiful, I am so lucky. I. Have. The. cutest. Sweetest. Bestest. Boyfriend.” Jisung punctuated each word with a kiss over the many freckles across the bridge of Felix’s nose and onto his cheeks.
“I love you so much,” Felix giggled, tilting his head down to hide the blush that was now covering his face.
“Love you too,” Jisung brushed the hair out of Felix’s face and leaned in close, “Can I kiss you?”
“I’ve never kissed anyone,” The alcohol had melted through Felix’s brain to mouth filter, he meant to say yes but the overwhelming insecurity hit him like a truck.
“Wait,” Jisung rolled to the side and stared up at the ceiling in confusion, “You have three sexy ass boyfriends and you haven’t kissed any of them? Not even Chan?! Didn’t you ever play spin the bottle or seven minutes in heaven? What did you do in school, study?!”
“No, not everyone is eager to kiss every living being in existence like you,” Felix joked to hide his embarrassment.
“You say that like it's a bad thing!”
“It’s not,” Felix replied bluntly now, also staring towards the ceiling to avoid any accidental eye contact in this awkward situation, “I just… I am afraid, honestly. I see you, Minho and Chan kiss all the time, I’m afraid I’ll be bad at it.”
“I have never seen you so shy,” Jisung rolled back over towards Felix and placed a hand on his cheek, “It’s cute.”
“I am not shy!” Felix protested indignantly, “I am intimidated, there’s a difference!”
Jisung cracked up, clearly not intending to as he tried to reel it back in, “Wooohooohoho, Ok so I can see being intimidated by Minho and Chan but me!?” If it weren’t for the incessant drunken giggling Felix would’ve actually thought Jisung was offended.
“Shall I list the ways?” Felix scoffed, turning over to face Jisung now as if it were a challenge.
“Go on, humor me.”
“You’re fucking hot for one, I dunno if you’ve ever looked in a mirror but you’re hot. I love you so much that I don’t want to disappoint you. You’re hot. You’re really sweet to me, and an amazing boyfriend that’s also my best friend and even though you are my boyfriend already that next step is hard. And did I mention you’re hot because yea. Same goes for the other two… so hot and lovely I just love them so much it's scary. So yea…” Felix stopped there or he would've ended up rambling for the next eternity.
“Ok you’ve got that right we do have some very attractive boyfriends. Even if they are cruelly not here to celebrate with us!” Jisung said loudly as if they could hear them from wherever they were on their individual schedules, “You don't have to be so scared. You could be the world's worst kisser and I would still love you with all my heart because you are the Lee Felix I fell in love with. I didn’t fall in love with your ability to kiss or anything. I fell in love with you because I really really love you and I love your face. I love your heart. I love your voice. I love your everything. So as your boyfriend that loves you dearly I would really like to kiss you. As your best friend that also loves you dearly I would really like to kiss you because you’re so fucking cute and kissable it drives me nuts!”
“Thanks… but it’s still scary… I want to kiss you too but—”
“You shared a secret, let me share one!” Jisung interrupted, “I’ve never gone further than kissing. I am way too scared to and I hardly even make out with either of my boyfriends because I know that leads to more and I am not there yet.”
“Really?” Felix momentarily forgot about his woes. He would’ve never guessed Jisung was scared of anything when it came to showing affection. He was always so open and loving. At least in Felix’s eyes he seemed so confident and self-assured.
“Yup,” he admitted confidently, “But kissing is fun! I even kissed Changbin a while back, I like it. It doesn’t have to be deeper than that.”
“You kissed Changbin!”
“I asked him for a kiss. We kissed, it was cute and that was that.”
“Was it a kiss or just a peck?” Felix had so many questions. The sudden juicy gossip served to temporarily distract him.
“A peck and then I ran,” Jisung shrugged, “It was cute though. Now back to you, you don’t have to be ready. There’s no timeline, there's no—”
Felix didn’t care what Jisung was about to say. It didn’t matter anymore, Felix felt a small jolt of bravery and ran with it. He pulled Jisung back on top of him and moved his hand to rest at the back of his head, fingers tangling with his wavy hair as he pulled him in. There was only a slight moment of resistance before Jisung leaned into the kiss.
It felt like his world was on fire. Between the warmth of alcohol and the heat from Jisung’s body pressed against his, Felix felt himself begin to sweat. His body’s desperate attempt to cool down. He followed Jisung’s lead, so much for not making out. Jisung swiped Felix’s bottom lip with his tongue encouraging him to open up. There was a little hum, seemingly asking for permission. Felix gave in willingly, awkwardly at first not knowing how he was supposed to move. Jisung however was a great teacher as it soon felt as natural as breathing. Just when he really got comfortable Jisung threw himself off of Felix and back onto his pillow.
“Too much?” Felix huffed, just now registering that he was out of breath.
“Little bit,” Jisung tried to laugh but all that escaped as a strangled puff of air, “Told you so.”
“Shut up!”