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It’s been three days since Carla stared into Lisa Swains eyes. Three days since Lisa rushed out. Three days since the pair have acknowledged each other.
Carla’s mind has been racing the past few days. She never considered the possibility of falling for someone of the same gender. Not this late into her life. She was making herself go crazy replaying the moment with Lisa over and over again in her mind. Carla might be the most confused she has been but she knew one thing for certain, she had to talk to Lisa. And Carla knew exactly where to find her.
Okay, maybe Carla didn’t know Lisa as well as she thought she did. She’s been waiting under the stairs at the police station for the last fifteen minutes. No sign of the women she most desperately wants to talk to. Another 10 minutes go by, the doors to the police station open. Carla springs up from her chair.
“Lisa, hi. We need to talk”
“If you have a police matter to report speak to the front desk. I’m busy.”
“Lisa please”
“It’s DS Swain. And do you mind I’ve got a lot of work to do” Lisa remarked.
“Okay DS Swain then. Please just talk to me. This is important. I don’t want to lose our friendship over this” Carla begged.
For a split second DS Swain dropped the facade and her facial expressions softened. She nodded her head towards an interview room; silently communicating with Carla for her to follow. Lisa was about to talk when Carla cut her off, wanting to be the one to explain herself.
“I wanted to say sorry, you must think I’m some sort of tourist or something” Carla says awkwardly.
“Don’t. Don’t do that. Don’t put words into my mouth. But yeah. Tourist sums it up pretty nicely. Had a few drinks and wanted to have a bit of fun with a woman. You straight birds honestly. All the same.” Lisa harshly spits back.
Carla was stunned. It was clear she was talking to DS Swain right now and not the Lisa she was beginning to fall for. Carla knew the harsh words Lisa spoke was to try and push Carla away. To protect herself. DS Swain was building her walls up so high. Carla felt as though the truth would only make the situation worse. It was clear that DS Swain needed a friend. A friend to help Lisa lose the DS Swain hard act. A friend to show Lisa that her walls don’t need to be built up that high.
“Lisa your friendship means so much to me. I enjoy the time we have been spending together. Please, please, please can we put this behind us. I don’t want this to be the end of what could have been a beautiful friendship”.
A small smile found the way to Lisa’s lips. It was clear that Carla was not going anywhere.
“Okay” Lisa says.
“Okay. So we are going to stop avoiding each other then, yeah Lisa?”
“Yeah Carla” Lisa turns to leave. “ I think we both better get off to work”
Carla walks out of the door first. Turning the wrong way towards the exit. Hearing a snicker from Lisa she turns around. “What?” Carla exclaims.
“Your going the wrong way”
“Right, thanks” Carla awkwardly responds. Turning around and walking the correct way out of the Police station.
Driving back to underworld Carla felt a slight weight being lifted off of her shoulders. However still slightly annoyed at herself that she didn’t tell Lisa the whole truth. Because Carla doesn’t think she’s a tourist. She doesn’t think the moment was just a bit of fun. And she just wished she had someone to talk to about all of this. She tried to talk to Ryan but she didn’t feel like she couldn’t articulate her thoughts properly. Talking about Lisa made her feel like she was 10 with her first crush all over again. Ryan didn’t help with that feeling either. Teasing Carla about wanting to kiss the police detective. She appreciates Ryan for acting so casually. Like it wasn’t a big deal for Carla to have a crush on a female. And she knows deep down that Ryan is right. She wants to kiss Lisa Swain.
Carla Connor wants to kiss Lisa Swain. The same Lisa Swain who thinks Carla is a tourist. The same Lisa Swain that Carla had agreed to be just friends with.
Carla put her car in park and rested her head on the steering wheel. It was obvious these feelings for Lisa were not going away any time soon. And for the first time in a very long time, Carla was unsure what to do next.