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„What in the sweet hells were you thinking? That killing this man in front of the guard was clever?” Astarion shook his head in frustration. “Now we will be late to that meeting and you know what that means!”
Tay looked up to his beloved, not fully understanding what has brought them into this situation. “You said that was our target and that I just had to stab, I thought you meant right now at that moment.” He rubbed his temples. To be true, he didn´t even thought the slightest in that situation, he even couldn´t really remember the last hours fully. The only thing he could remember was the headache which hindered him to think clear since afternoon.
“Can you eventually give me an answer, darling?” Astarion turned to his partner who sat like a heap of misery at his feet, not looking at him. “You know, I like killing as much as you, but you can´t just stab someone in a fully occupied guesthouse where some of the guest are the fucking Fists!” Astarion was raging. He walked over to Tay, crouched down with the intention of removing his hands from his face so that he could show Tay his anger. He knew that Tay had the habit of going away to avoid dispute and guessed that his partner just tried to get away from his anger by holding his hands in front of his face.
“Tay, sweety,” Astarion said barely trying to suppress his anger “I want you to answer my question and I don´t want you to run away again, you did that too often in the last few weeks and I can´t deal with it anymore, I need you to be strong because I´m not.” With this words he managed to take a look at his beloved face. And was shocked. He´ve never seen such a sheer desperation on his lovers tearful face. “Darling-” Astarion wanted to tell Tay that he should pull himself together but instead he pulled Tay to him and laid his head on his shoulder. He could hear his beloved heartbeat and he smelled the desperation he radiated. “Gosh,” Astarion thought guiltily, “why did I not notice that he was so desperate?” - “Darling, please don´t cry, I didn´t mean to be so mean to you and I didn´t have to shout at you, I am such a fool not noticing how bad you felt, please my love, don´t cry anymore. After all it´s not so bad, it´s early in the evening and we have plenty of time to escape. It´s just an inconvenience and we will be out here in no time, that lock breaks from alone, really,” Astarion babbled, not knowing what to do with his crying partner.
He could always count on Tay that he knew a way out of seemingly hopeless situations and it was always Tay who supported him when he needed him. But now it seemed that he had to support his love and not the other way around. “Well, this will be a challenge” Astarion thought by himself, but he was eager to take the challenge. He loved Tay more than anything and wanted him to know that.
“Please darling, talk to me”
“I- I am sorry, I- I can´t remember anything, I just have such a headache, I can´t – I think I´m getting crazy...finally…” Tay´s voice broke. Full of frustration he hit the ground with his fist, “I can´t remember anything and that drives me crazy, I can´t remember, I can´t think, I can´t-” he cried out loud, a sound with such a desperation that Astarion winced but he sat down next to his love and embraced him. Than he began to stroke Tay´s face, wiping away his tears with his sleeve. “Shh, darling, don´t cry, we will manage that, we will make you whole again, we get there and I will be there for you forever. We will get there in time and talk to Withers, you´ll see that he will know what to do. After all, it was he who gave you your new life, he will know why you have this headache and this memory gaps and I won´t accept a ‘no’ from him!”
“You really think he will help us, right?” Tay looked up to Astarion´s face, trying to understand why his love was so optimistic. -”Yes, he´ll help, he must, he-” - “He can´t”, Tay whispered, “AO doesn´t want gods to interfere with mortals, you know that!” - “Yes, right, but he doesn´t interfere with mortals, hm? Have you already forgotten that I´m no mortal? He HAS to give answers, at least to me!” Astarion raised his voice in glee. “We will get our answers and a cure for you, I am certain!”
“Come on, my love, let´s get out of here, we have an appointment to keep!” He took a lock pick from his shoe and opened the door. “I´ve seen three guards in one of the rooms, one in front of the cells and one at the door. If you cast invisibility on us, will it last till we reach the door or shall we make a rest in between so you can cast it again?”
A few minutes later they were outside and headed towards Waterdeep, where there was waiting a cure for Tay who just wanted to be a good person after he died. They would deal with the murder charge later, it wasn't so bad, after all they knew some very influential people who still owed them something.
Astarion took Tay´s hand, “If you ever feel bad again, my love, then tell me, I don´t know if I will always have a cure for you, but I know that I´ll always be there for you and that I´ll always love you!”