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6.32pm
eddie is laying on his bed, staring at his phone smiling. there’s a knock on his bedroom door. he was so obsessed with his buddie fanfics that he forgot he wasn't in that reality. he was in a reality where he’s a single father who refuses to admit he’s gay and has a crush on a bisexual man named buck. he turns off his phone and opens the door to see chris standing there. ‘dad i’m hungry, i haven’t had dinner yet!’
‘oh- uh- sorry chris! coming right up!’ he says, still daydreaming of evan buckley.
as he’s making dinner, he hears his phone ping from his sons bedroom. the hell? he could’ve sworn he brought it through, and why would it be in christopher’s bedroom?! ‘chris! dinners ready!’ no reply. ‘it’s pasta! come get it if you’re still hungry.’ but chris didn’t reply. eddie knocked on his door, but no answer. eventually, eddie, who was worried, opened the door to find chris on his phone.
‘hey dad! do you have a crush on buck?’ he said.
eddie brought him to the dining room and had the conversation. ‘promise me you’ll ask him out tomorrow? i think he likes you back.’ chris smiled. how could eddie say no to that face? eddie promised him. then he of course got back to reading his fanfics.
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eddie, or as buck calls him, eds, woke up early. i’m talking like 5am. he got his uniform on that was slightly too small so he could show off his figure. that was the way buck liked it. he made his hair fluffy, because buck always complimented it when it was like that. he hadn’t even come out to the team yet, but he was already planning how he would tell them him and buck were together. he didn’t even think about getting rejected. he bought a really expensive ring when he was 18, and was waiting to give it to the love of his life. he put it in his right pocket. he was planning to propose to buck on a call so they’d have some alone time.
when he got to the station, buck wasn’t there, but he didn’t really notice because they went on a call almost straight away and he thought he was just running late. but nothing could’ve prepared him for what would happen on the call.
the fire truck stopped and everyone got out. they were responding to a suicide attempt. athena, hen, chim, and eddie were going down to check on the victim. bobby, and the unseen members of the 118 were up top. eddie stepped down, saw who it was, and froze. ‘buck…’ he whispered and muttered. he got closer to get a better look. ‘BUCK!’ he screamed and cried, running towards him. ‘oh my god.’ athena gasped. hen and chim looked at eachother, shocked. eddie didn’t even check bucks pulse and immediately started cpr, while bawling his eyes out. ‘eddie’ hen said, gesturing for him to move so she could check his pulse. hen sighed, ‘im sorry.’ she started crying. everyone did. eddie thought he’d be telling people that buck said yes to being his boyfriend, not that he’d be telling people buck died. his eyes were red as he cried. eddie radioed bobby, practically gasping for air between his sobs. ‘bobby.’
‘eddie? you okay down there? you sound upset?’
‘it’s buck. he jumped. he's dead.’ eddie sniffed.
bobby’s jaw dropped, ‘im on my way.’
eddie hugged buck for the last time.
they bagged him up and took him away.
‘its okay kid.’ bobby said as they took buck away. then he turned to eddie, ‘im sorry.’ his voice cracked. they hugged and cried in each others arms. how would he tell chris? and how would he ever get over bucks death?