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10th of Solace 9: 44 - It hit me finally today. For the first time in... Well too many years, there is no plan, there is no set path forward. The inquisition is nothing more then a memory and I am once again just an elf with a tattooed face.
And gods have a missed it.
My feet are taking me back up to the free marches, to my clan. The words sound strange to say now. The people I called family for nearly 20 years feel even less like home now. Now that home is missing.
Elgara has been my only company these past weeks, making some burdens less tiresome to carry. Some days he is the only thing keeping me walking. But, all I can do right now is push that aside. I dont think I'm ready to unpack my heart yet.
19th of Solas 9: 44 - I know these woods. Soon enough we will pass by the city of my birth. I wonder if the ashes are still there, if the fields are still full of wheat and the well bucket still leaks. I wonder if they still hate elves and magic, or if this whole ordeal knocked a little sense into them. In any case I could just throw up the inquisitor card for the first time if they start trouble.
Imagine. The little elf mage they drove out in fear showing up 20 years later as the woman who saved the world. I would love to see the look on those damn templars faces.
I don't know.... Maybe I will go.... Elgara will be fine a day on his own..... And I don't think I'm ready to see my clan again after all....
22 of Solace 9: 44 - the plot was still empty. Even in a sea of new homes and streets I've never seen, where my home once stood is still an empty barren patch. So much had changed, yet so much was still the same. The chanty moved, the old building burnt and crumbling, probably a victim of the breach.
No one seemed surprised I was there. The usual disgusted glances from elders but elves and shem alike all just nodded my way. Maybe the arm gives me away, or I guess the giant eyeball sewed into my cloak...... Yeah probably that. No one seemed alarmed by my staff, and in fact I saw a few mages in the city all treated the same as me.
It's strange in a way. Seeing a place so familiar yet so foreign. So many memories coming fresh to my mind. All from smiles and laughter, to the grabbed ears and drunken curses.
I saw Calen. He's a circle mage now. Well, what's left of the circle anyway. Said he was helping to lead the younger mages. He said he was..... Sorry.... For what happened. I know it wasn't his fault but it still felt nice.