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Hi Sparky.
I guess the nickname and maybe my handwriting tells you who this is but in case your brain is beyond salvation at this point, i'm Katsuki. Well, Bakugo to you i guess, though i wish it wasn't but i'm getting ahead of myself.
You know, i never really disliked you, when we met i mean, and for most of the other extras i can't say the same. You were whatever, at the begining. I mean, annoying as fuck, but whatever, everyone was annoying their own special fucking way.
God this is going terrible and i've already thrown away three starts so this is it, even if it's fucking horrible, just bear with me. That's why i didn't want to just say it.
Anyway, i didn't even disliked you when we first met, i mean, otherwise i would've blown that pretty face off a few times already. And then you wormed your way in my life. Like i was your friend, like you didn't really give me any choice in the matter. Like we were friends because you decided so. And you didn't take no for an answer. I'd insult you and push you away and even literally say "I'm not your friend" and your reaction would be something like "Yeah, friend, whatever you say". And what the fuck was i supposed to do? I tried all my arsenal with you but you never even react to it. I think that annoys me the most. I feel like i'm never in control with you. I wasn't in control when you decided we were friends, i wasn't in control when you got progressively closer (both physically and emotionally, much to my fucking dismay). I also wasnt in control when one day you started saying that we were "best friends" like we are stupid five year olds. And in that moment i realized i hadn't had any control at all because hell, we kinda were best friends. With all the hang outs and jokes, and texts, and extra training, and studying and doing homework. That was best friend fucking behavior right there. So i kind of stopped keeping track. I mean, that was it right? What else could possibly be out of my control if i already ended up being best friends with him? Well i'm fucking stupid, because in retrospective the answer was obvious.
I know for a fact that literature is what you are least shit at and i also know you like to read even in your free time (that's another reason to write it rather than say it) so you have probably figured out this is a love letter, or whatever.
A confession letter i guess.
But i would be too much of a coward if i didn't even write it, so:
Kaminari Denki, you electric, overwhelming ball of sunshine, i'm in love with you.
As much as i hate to admit it, it did take me by surprise. Feeling this way about anyone would be unexpected for me. Im Bakugo fucking Katsuki damn it! Great Explosion Murder God Dynamight! Love is such a dumb thing. And being in love with you? we are nothing alike, it's a miracle that we are even friends.
How could i, Bakugo Katsuki be in love with Kaminari Denki? Kaminari who is all smiles, grins and stupid jokes. Kaminari who flirts every two words and doesn't do boundaries. Kaminari who would rather throw himself out of the window instead of studying for tomorrows test and i have to practically chain to myself so that he at least passes because suddenly him passing is the most important thing to me. Kaminari who cries with every shitty love movie, even the happy ones. Kaminari who makes me make him his tea because "I do it better". Kaminari who can convince me to do anything, like making him his fucking tea. Kaminari who doesn't understand shit in psych class but somehow understands me better than i do. Kaminari who holds my hands and hugs me and i can feel the static but it feels like something else. Kaminari who has a mole in the back of his neck. Kaminari who i have to physically shut him up because he's being way too funny and i can't keep my cool-angry reputation if i laugh that much. Kaminari who always gets me my favorite snacks without me asking. Kaminari who smells like those awful men perfumes but in him it smells addictive somehow. Kaminari who's left canine pokes out. Kaminari who i want to be way too much with and way too close to and do way too different things than what an allegedly forced best friend does.
I think at some point the question turned to ¿How could he, Kaminari Denki ever love me, Bakugo Katsuki back? And i still don't have an answer to that. But somehow you managed to want me as a friend, so much so that you made me be your friend, so maybe, just fucking maybe, you could possibly perhaps in some reality... love me back? I still don't have very high hopes for this, but i do have some hope.
So just... let me know?
If you dont like me like that i am sorry. In case it made you uncomfortable or whatever. I'd still want us to be best friends (like stupid five year olds, yes). And i'm sorry if all of this makes it awkward. That's of course another reason to not say it face to face. This way i kinda planned what to write and you can process it alone without me anywhere near to freak the fuck out about it.
In the slim chance you do like me like that, i have a million other things to say, too long to write, and too risky to say in case you don't feel the same. So i'm just gonna say this and stop making you read this much. Especially when i'm shit with words.
I'm so in love with you, Sparky, and i think you are incredible.
Thank you for reading this.
-Bakugo, hopefully Katsuki to you.