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Jimin was 5 when he found his passion. He doesn't remember the situation in all details but he was attending his aunt's wedding, being able to convince his mom he wasn’t that sleepy, the small boy stayed on the dance floor, rocking to the music, getting the attention of all the other guests.
That’s how it started with dancing for him. Classes for kids, then more advanced lessons when he went to school, going into professional training when middle school arrived.
Dance was his soul, his life, the fire that burned his whole body to be alive. He lived off of it. But becoming a professional dancer , and making an actual career out of it, not only being a teacher, was a rather difficult challenge. When the boy was reaching the end of his summer before high school, that's when his aunt, the same one that got married 10 years before, suggested for Jimin to try out at the trainee auditions, with encouraging voices from his family to back her up.
Their boy knew his voice was rather good, high with that nice raspy edge, he never focused on it the same way he focused on dancing but it was something for the start too, its not like he was talentless. So he did it.
And he got in.
He became a trainee, worked his ass off and at the age of 19, the amazing soloist , a new gem in the Korean idol industry was introduced, Park Jimin.
His fame grew fast, his voice being trained and worked on, bloomed into another weapon of his, next to his looks and dance skills. Jimin was a whole package. Claiming titles after titles, awards after awards. He became the Korean IT boy, and people loved him. He truly was the nation's darling.
His fandom, the PJMs knew how to make Jimin feel all the love, they knew how to appreciate his hard work and most of all, they respected him, his privacy and most decisions.
He got sure of that the moment he decided to come out as gay. It was a big step, around 3 years after his career started, in the moment when his fanbase was already pretty massive. He sadly lost some fans, and faced hate , one so strong that he never experienced anything like that before, but he knew that the fans that stayed were truly the ones he needed, and loved. The ones that inspired him to keep on with his career.
As much as Jimin loved his PJMs, there had to be some privacy in his life. And that privacy was the 2 weeks that every year Jimin spent in Golden Hill Ski resort, situated in the most beautiful place on earth for the idol.
Sapporo, Japan.
He was 12 when he first came to Sapporo with his family in the winter. The city absolutely stole his heart , walking in the snow and seeing his parents giggling together by the fireplace as he and his brother played some games. He had the best memories from that time. It was the last trip he took with his grandma before she passed, the woman holding a dear place in Jimin’s heart.
So when his first idol winter vacation came and his manager asked him where he would like to go, Jimin immediately picked Sapporo.
Picking the resort was a tough job but Golden Hill Ski resort was truly on top when it came to quality, design, luxury and most importantly privacy. It was a very well hidden place in the woods, a place where many celebrities from Asia came to rest with their loved ones and family. Coming there was like signing an NDA about who was there with who.
Privacy was the top priority.
But that wasn't what made Jimin come back there every year.
It was the one boy , who Jimin can swear , worked every fucking job in that hotel. He was a baggage boy, a receptionist , a waiter, a consultant, and even a lifeguard at the indoor pool, but for the last 2 years as Jimin came to the resort, the one place he knew he would find him was behind the bar. A bartender known for his social skills and amazing showmen performances while mixing cocktails for all kinds of celebrities.
Jeon Jungkook was it all. He was the do it all , nothing was impossible for him and that was one of the things that truly caught Jimin's attention.
Their relationship was strictly for pleasure and good time. Jimin was in the resort only for 2 weeks a year and those two weeks were filled with Jungkook. The two were inseparable, and the hotel manager, wanting to keep their biggest guest happy, gladly let Jungkook just accompany Jimin around everywhere.
Everyone knew that when Jimin leaves his table after his evening drink, a mojito or pornstar martini usually, not long after there would need to come a replacement for Jungkook as he had a much more important job to handle.
But Jungkook wouldn’t pick any money in the world over the possibility to please Park Jimin.
And that's how their lives went, both busy everyday, only to come back in distant memories to their 2 weeks a year, arching with need for that time to finally come again on the calendar.
One thing they agreed on was no contact in between their meetings… to make things more… exciting.
So Jimin was beaming with anticipation when November rolled around. It was the 6th year of his annual trips, and the blonde male couldn’t deny that he was more and more excited for those trips each year.
It wasn’t about the beautiful place, skiing, rest and letting his mind off of all the stress anymore.
It was all about the Bambi eyed boy, his bunny smile and charming personality.
Yeah, It started off as simply good time and pleasure but Jimin started to let his heart and soul enjoy it even more - but - there was no place for feelings and love in his life. Not if he wanted to keep everything nice and uncomplicated .
——-
It was already evening when Jimin was getting ready for the first dinner of his stay. He loved the food in the resort's main restaurant and being able to finally enjoy a meal alone, not on his couch , and not worry about someone taking pictures was truly so refreshing.
He put on his shiny silver hoop earrings, decorated with diamonds on the inner ring and took a final look at his outfit in the mirror.
Black well fitted pants and white flowy shirt, with lace accents matched perfectly for the night , his hair styled perfectly as always and make-up done very very lightly, just some Smokey eye and a red lip tint to add some color to his face. Jimin knew he was attractive. He loved dressing up , not even for the paparazzi but for himself.
But tonight he was well aware it wasn't just for himself. He knew what face he would see as soon as he entered the bar area. The face that he couldn’t get out of his mind for the whole dinner, trying to enjoy his food while he was practically shaking from anticipation of seeing the man of his dreams.. his favorite person.
As soon as he finished his meal, drank the last bit of wine and paid the check, Jimins body was moving on its own to the bar. As he took the last turn he finally arrived at the spot, instantly smelling the mix of expensive room perfume that was filling all the hotel areas, smoke and liquor. He heard the live band performing and the chit chat of other guests. He saw how drinks were being poured into crystal glass, and finally the tattooed hand that gave out those exact drinks.
Oh he knew those tattoos by heart. He knew every single one of them since they appeared on Jungkook's skin. It was one of his favorite things to do , laying down on Jungkook's chest and trailing his finger over the colorful ink on his arm, asking the other male what each one of those tattoos meant. One he never got an answer to was why exactly on his finger over the m , jungkook put the letter J. In his mind it spelled Jimin.. but the older male never was the one to give into his stupid delusions.
He moved confidently right to the bar and leaned over, not catching Jungkook's attention yet as he was finishing off with other clients, but when the bar became empty he finally spoke up.
„I hope you don't drink too much on your job. I know you have a weak spot for that 30 year old whiskey behind you, "Jimin said with a smile on his face.
Jungkook froze hearing that voice. A voice of an angel he could say. Was he in love with jimin? God- since he first got his eyes on the idol, he pictured their wedding, but he knew reality is never that easy. Becoming friends with him was the greatest gift to Jungkook and only then their relationship got deeper. He just never said anything, too scared to lose Jimin. He only got him for those 2 weeks , he didn't want to lose that also.
„I see one wine bottle has already gone down, you fancy anything else or is this all for the night pretty face?” Jungkook turned around with his very well known smirk plastered on his face. „I would recommend the special but i don't want to carry you to your bed again.”
„ oh my god it was one time! And its not my fault you guys had limitless champagne night! You know .. rich people are the weakest when it comes to free stuff.” Jimin mumbled, a small pout on his face, but it was all playful. That’s how he and Jungkook worked. Always playing their little game, always hiding just how really excited they were to see each other.
„ when do you finish today? I'm actually in the mood for a walk around, but alone it doesn't seem that fun. Would you be a good worker and satisfy your client by accompanying me later?” Jimin asked, a small flutter of his eyelashes as he played into the part.
„hmm i'm not sure. I finish in 30 but that would be past my working hours, will I get paid for that?”
„Well I didn't know you guys added a new thing to thr menu, does it mean i gotta pay off my debt for spending time with you for the last 6 years too?”
Jungkook let out a small laugh as he put the glass down in front of Jimin. He didn't even notice when the bartender made his favorite winter drink. It tasted like apple pie with cinnamon, perfect mix of sweet and sour just how he likes it. „For you… everything is on the house. And that means I would love to go on that walk. Will you wait for me till i finish and i'll be right with you „ Jungkook said and Jimin nodded, taking his drink and walking away to find a good seat for the time being, as he can enjoy the live music.
——
30 minutes never went so slow for Jimin, his eyes wandered to Jungkook every two seconds , only to see that the other one was staring at him just as intensely. It was a game and they wanted to start playing.
When the clock ticked the time Jungkook's shift ended, Jimin didn't even have time to stand up, when the other one was at his side with a coat and his arm out „ are you ready for the rest of the evening ?” Jungkook asked, his gentleman ways of treating Jimin always made him absolutely weak on his knees.
„ well if you insist” he said, imminently linking their arms together as they made their way to the entrance.
——
The weather was rather peaceful that night. Snow was adoring the ground and trees but the sky was clear, showing off the stars. The ones that got lost easily in the Seouls skyline, here Jimin could drown himself in that beautiful view.
„ I listened to your album in the summer, you know. You rocked it again, it was something so different from the last one but so- fitting.” Jungkooks voice brought Jimin back to reality as he turned from the sky to look at the other male's face.
”You achieved such amazing duality in your presence and work I'm really really impressed.. and the lyrics were really beautiful too” the man said , smiling slightly as he could see jimin's blush on his cheek, and this one wasn't from the chilly air.
” You are feeding my ego Jungkookie, it's not a good idea after I drank red wine, I might not want to let you go for the whole night with all this sweet talk” he said , as he held Jungkook's arm.
One thing he noticed is how buff Jungkook got , well it was a rather pleasant surprise for him. He was muscular a year before but with each passing visit he just gets.. bigger, and Jimin couldn’t be more pleased with that.
”But I appreciate that… I wasn't sure what people would think but I couldn't be more thankful to the support of my fans, Muse was such a different album from face but I'm happy I could bring this side of me into my music… the more romantic side.” He sighed, their feet brought them up to the pretty view point , overlooking the city. Jimin stopped and stared out in front of himself. This was his favorite place in the world.
”well… you truly showed a beautiful side of your heart… but speaking from experience… your album about your ‚muse’ and love lacks one track, about how mind blowing you are at love making” Jungkook said as his lips softly brushed over Jimin's ear, feeling the olde male shiver.
Jimin chuckled and turned around to face him „ I was getting impatient for your move, I this was the longest we went with just chit chat in last 3 years „ his voice filled with happiness boomed as he pulled the taller male down, connecting their lips over the view of the night city.
—-
Stumbling into Jimin's apartment, messily making out, they didn’t even notice the lamp that fell down into the floor. All Jungkook could focus on was Jimin, his beautiful lips pressed right against his , as Jungkook was tasting everything he had to offer. Their lips connected, the taller one taking full control of the kiss, biting into Jimin's plush lips as if there was no tomorrow. He pushed the idol into the door, one hand holding his waist , pushing him, the other one quick to close the door.
When he heard the lock, finally being able to use both his hands, Jungkook quickly put his palms under Jimin's thighs, softly patting him . The older one didn't need any other sygnal to know what to do. He jumped up and Jungkook caught him , his hands gripping the males ass, grabbing into the soft plush cheek.
“ f-fuck you always know what i w-want you to do huh?” Jungkook mumbled, his lips moving into jimin's neck, leaving kisses and little nibs all over it.
”You must have trained me well..” Jimin replied , his breath hitched and eyes closed as he held onto Jungkook as if his life depended on it. And at that moment it felt like if Jungkook was his source of life and energy, he couldn’t survive without the bartender, and he needed more.
His hips were moving around in circles, his ass falling more into Jungkook's hold. As the younger was working hard, leaving his mark all over jimin's dainty skin, the idol was whining and begging for more.
“B-bed,, pleas- fuck just get me on the b-bed now. I'm gonna g-go crazy if you won’t undress me and yourself in the next second.” He panted out, his voice hushed, as he was trying to calm down, but soon Jimin knew he would be ever louder, his moans were becoming more prominent with each touch and kiss.
Jungkook couldn’t do anything when the male was begging him so beautifully, and being truthful, nothing in their world could make him not listen to Park Jimin. Whatever he wanted, Jungkook was ready to give it to him.
It took him seconds , and there was Jimin in all his glory, laid down on the bed, his pants and shirt tossed somewhere in the room as he stared at Jungkook’s surprised face with a small but devilish smirk.
”so .. like my surprise?” The blonde said chuckling and Jungkook was brought back to life.
Staring at the beautiful goddess-like creature in front of him, Jungkook could swear he went to heaven and that’s how they are welcoming him. Like the day Jimin came into this world he laid in front of his lover.
The younger one took a quick scan over the room and no, he didn't forget taking jimin's underwear off of him, it was just pants and shirt… oh.
”you fucking tease..” he said under his nose, tongue poking his inner check.
” Parading yourself without underwear around the hotel? Letting everyone see what kind of desperate baby you get the moment you come here? to me?” The male smirked. It was a fucking gigantic boost of confidence for Jungkook. Because he knew well enough all of this naughtiness Jimin was showing, was for him and him only.
”You want me to walk around jealous all week now, keeping my eye on you? Making sure no one gets even the slightest idea of touching you? I mean you make it so easy for them honey..” his hand found its way to jimin's chin, holding it softly, caressing his cheeks before he grabbed it and pulled the male in closer.
” Good thing I never let my baby off my sight… or without my mark” he said before shoving Jimin back into the bed.
The idol was drowning in the powerful energy Jungkook was showing. God fuck him into another week because he was sure , he could come Just from the youngers way of speech.
”i- i only did it for you. I wouldn’t let anyone else see me like that.. you know it…"Jimin whimpered out his answer, moving on the bed to get closer to jungkook.
”I know you did baby, but you can't risk it, I don't like sharing, especially when it comes to you.” Jungkook smiled down at the beautiful creature on the bed before grabbing his shirt, pulling it off of himself over his head. “ doesn't mean you wont get punished for being so indecent.”
Jimin could feel a smile growing on his face , this is exactly what he needed.
In a matter of seconds Jungkook, wearing only his boxers, climbed into the bed right over Jimin, his lips coming into contact with the other males' ones in a second. Jungkook moved his tattooed fingers over his body, gripping Jimin's waist, holding his body down before grabbing both of his legs , and pushing them apart.
” Now this is the sight I missed this whole year… delicious…” Jungkook mumbled, his eyes scanning every inch of Jimin's skin.
” You're exaggerating…” a shy voice was heard from underneath Jungkook but the younger one didn't want to hear any of it.
” Oh but I'm not baby. You are the most stunning being on this earth and with each year you only become more beautiful.. let me show you how much i adore it”.
Jungkooks face disappeared, as he moved down, kisses laid down on his belly and down to his perfectly waxed crotch area. Jungkook was not slacking, tracing kisses all over to jimin's already hard and leaking member.
He moved his lips in soft touches all over it as his finger was already circling Jimin's hole. He didn't push in yet, but from the reaction Jimin was giving him he knew, soon there will be begging involved.
“K-kook… fuck just more.. you know I haven’t slept with anyone in a y-year.. just fuck.. give me more”
ah. There it was.
Jungkook couldn’t deny, having the nation's sweetheart idol, laying on the bed , whining and moaning out pleas for Jungkook to give him more, made the male pretty confident in himself. Jimin was fully his, he trusted Jungkook enough to let go of his power and let jungkook take the lead, so of course the younger couldn’t disappoint.
”don't cry baby.. i'm gonna give you everything you need very soon. ” Jungkooks words echoed in the room as he pulled his two fingers right in front of Jimin's mouth.
”Now suck like a good boy , the wetter you make them, all nice and wet, the faster you will feel them, alright?” He said and Jjimin didn't even give him an answer , his plump lips already taking in Jungkook's long fingers as he sucked on them as if life depended on it.
When Jungkook pulled away there was a string of saliva connecting Jimin's mouth and his fingers.
“How fucked out you look already… fucking god beautiful… I haven’t even done much yet.. and you are here almost cumming”
”can’t ,.. can't hold back with you..” the blonde mumbled which earned him a chuckle from the other male.
”don't hold back… i'm here to make you let go, let go for me Mimi“
Jungkook moved himself down once more, this time not stopping only at small kisses, but taking Jimin's dick into his mouth, sucking on the tip, making Jimin open his mouth for the prettiest softest moans to leave it.
Jungkook was quick with his moves as he sucked Jimin into his mouth. Not wasting a second , his fingers making their way back to the older male's hole, as he slowly pushed one of them inside.
Jimins breath hitched as he felt the very soft yet noticeable feeling of being stretched.
The fact he fingered himself in the shower before dinner really helped him, as it was less painful now but still enjoying the pleasure of being slowly stretched by the other male. Jimin couldn’t lie, he was looking forward to this for.. well ever since he and jungkook parted last year. Something about their relationship always made him want more, need more., but they were blunt to those 2 weeks only.
Jungkook didn't waste a second of the time they had together, he had all of his attention focused on Jimin and his pleasure, listening to his voice, how his body was talking , reacting to the pleasure. He followed that lead with each move of his tongue and fingers.
„Look at that mess… you are such a stunning view dearest” Jungkook mumbled , pulling away from the boy, leaving jimin's dick red, wet and leaking pre cum already, but that wasn't the only mess around the idol. His hole was clenching around nothing, searching for fingers that Jungkook had already pulled out.
„You need that much love… I can't just deny you, I will give you everything you desire. Now, tomorrow, whenever you will ask” the taller male mumbled as he gripped the underside of Jimin's thighs , pushing them right into his chest, exposing the male, making him fully on display, just how he liked.
”Q-quit the chittering already.. c-come on… please just fuck me already” Jimin begged with his weak voice, his eyes barely staying open , but oh god how much he loved that view, Jungkook manhandling him into every position. Jimin didn't even notice how or when the younger got rid of his boxers but he could feel the probably painfully hard cock poking his leg. Oh Jungkook was massive , he always carried a big package but the more he grew his muscles the more it grew with him. Last year Jimin was stuck to bed for a day after their first night, but later on-
Let's just say Jungkook made sure to keep him stretched and used to his length for the rest of his trip, so there weren't many problems.
With a couple of pumps , Jungkook lubed up his dick enough to know it would slide into his partner right away. He didn't need to ask for protection. They both knew they were the only ones who ever got them like this, and if it wasn't like that, one would say.
it's not like they were exclusive, of course. If any of them wanted to sleep with other people during their year they could, but … they just didn't want to . It never felt right. No one knew Jimin's body like Jungkook, no one made Jungkook's heart flutter like Jimin. They were satisfied with the two weeks per year they got…. But wanting more isn’t a crime… they just didn't want to admit it, and burst the bubble.
Jungkook aligned himself with Jimin's already clenching hole, and started to slowly push in, greeting his teeth at the familiar yet so powerful feeling.
Jimin held his own hand over his mouth, the first few inches came in, and no sound was heard from the idol but the more he had inside him, the more vocal he started to be, filling the room with the filthiest sound when Jungkook's hips hit his ass.
“F-forgot.. forgot you were this big.. fuck”
”oh is it bad sweetheart…” Jungkook said teasingly, pulling half of his length out of Jimin, before hardly pushing back inside. “Because I think you love it.”
Jimins body shook with pleasure as he was being pounded, not able to express anything anymore, as Jungkook started to pull out and back in, in a truly inhuman pace. He was always energetic , and not only his bunny smile lived up to his nickname. He was an animal in bed and that's exactly what Jimin needed.
With the tallers mouth sucking on his neck, his hole being fucked mercilessly, Jimin was seeing stars, mumbling incorrectly into the air, repeating over and over,
”f-fuck you are the b-best!”
”g-go go please f-fuck go!”
”don't stop GOD PLEASE DO NOT STOP IT”
He was loud, he was showing off to Jungkook and all of his neighbours that he was in a pure ecstatic faze right then. His nails scratching Jungkook's back, holding and tugging at his hair every time the taller hit that right spot inside him, his dick leaking all over his belly, just from how Jungkook rubbed his abs on it with every thrust.
”J-Jungkook please.. p-please “ he begged , not even sure what he was actually asking for.
”come one sweetheart..” the black haired male grunted “ tell me what you want pretty… I will give you everything… you want faster.. maybe you want me to pull out huh?” He teased, slowing down as if he was actually going to pull away, but Jimin stopped him, pushing his hips back into his dick.
”m-mark me all over… outside and inside… i need it “ the melodic voice hit jungkook's ear like a spell, making him go back to his previous pace, starting even faster and more rough with each thrust.
It didn't take long , stimulating Jimin's every single weak spot, for him to be trembling, crying out Jungkook's name as he came all over his stomach, and with the sight of that , so did Jungkook. He pumped his cum right into jimins hole, keeping him full, fucked out and in the most relaxed state he has been for the whole year.
The blonde was panting as he fell back against the pillow, the last thing he felt was a pair of lips with a silver hoop, connecting to his own before he fell into slumber.
—-
Jimin woke up in pain. Well it wasn't as much of a pain as a feeling of soreness all over his body. The sun was shining through the window as he rubbed his eyes lightly. It took him a few seconds but soon he recognized his surroundings. He was laying in his bed in his hotel room, under his blanket but the thing that wasn't his was the clothes he had on.
One sniff of the T-shirt made it obvious who it belong too. So he remembered. He remembered that Jimin's favorite thing was to wake up dressed in his partner's clothes after sex.
Speaking of said partner, he also noticed how he was alone in his bed, it was pretty obvious based on the mess on the other side that he didn't sleep alone but where did his lover go?
the idol sat up, with a bit of a sore od course, on the bed and stretched again before calling out into the suite.
”Kook, are you in here?’ He said, maybe in a bit of a weak voice, but if Jungkook was indeed still in the apartment he would for sure hear him.
And like a wish, he came right through the door, in all of his morning glory, wearing only pajama pants that hung low on his hips.
”Morning doll, i had to take a quick call, i hoped you wouldn’t wake up as i was gone but i guess you just missed me that much” he smirked and climbed back into the bed , giving Jimin a quick kiss on his head.
” Are you feeling alright? I hope I didn’t go too much again, you know how weak I get to your begs, it’s like i can't even control myself” Jungkook said, his big eyes shining right at Jimin, blinding him more than the sun itself. But oh he could stare at those boba eyes all day.
” How cute for you to worry about me after rearranging my guts, but yes yes, I'm quite fine, you didn't did yourself from last year… well yet” Jimin smiled and laid back down on the bed.
” Did you already tell your manager that i'm here, i want you by my side all day today, tomorrow i have some sightseeing planned so you can do other stuff but now.. you stay with me”
”oh i already told him the moment i got your schedule for the trip… the moment your footsteps into this hotel im at your service” the black haired male leaned down, capturing Jimins lips into his own.
” You said I didn't outdo myself yet… but it won't hurt to try huh?” Jiungkook laughed, pushing the blanket down on the floor, and soon their clothes followed by.
The best morning indeed.
—-
Days were passing in the most perfect way Jimin could have asked for. He was skiing, visiting amazing restaurants and going on long walks and jungkook was almost always next to him. They laughed, talked, exchanged stories and their fears, kissed and made love for hours, every day and every night. Nothing could keep them apart.
Well except for the fact that despite being put on special service for Jimin, Jungkook still had his other chores to do. It didn't stop them most of the time though.
Sneaking around the kitchen, as Jungkook licked the whipped cream right off of Jimins lips, only for Jimin to end up licking it off his dick 2 minutes later.
Fucking jimin against the wall in the sauna, damn that Jungkooks was supposed to just go there and check if the temperature was okay. He saw Jimin laying down on the bench, naked , ass up and sweat all over his body. He couldn’t miss out on that.
Bouncing on Jungkook's cock slowly as they enjoyed a bath in the jacuzzi, completely giving themselves into the pleasure and relaxation as heat from the water and their own bodies was rising.
They were taking advantage of every single minute spended together, but there was something else in the air that year.
Jimin felt it, with each day that was passing, each moment closer to their parting Jimin knew he couldn’t do this anymore. He didn’t want to be without Jungkook anymore, he wanted him for more than just for 2 weeks, he wanted to laugh with him everyday, he wanted endless nights together so they don't need to fight over picking a movie, because they will watch them all together, cuddled up on a Couch on a random Sunday. He wanted to experience life with Jungkook, he wanted a real relationship with him .
But their deal wasn’t about this, yes they used pet names, they acted romantic, they went on dates even, but what if for Jungkook it was just part of the deal, what if that was just how he acted in those casual things, to make it more real and more passionate. Jimins body started to fill with fear of rejection, and heartbreak. Anxiety was making its comeback into his brain in every possible bad situation. There were so many chances that his confession would scare Jungkook away so it was better to Stay quiet.
Having Jungkook for just 2 weeks was better than not having him at all.
It was the second week of his trip that the male decided to call his best friend in Seoul, Kim Taehyung, a model.
”Are you really again on this? Last time we talked you said that this trip will test your feelings, if you feel it, you will go for it and if not , you will just stay in casual hookups. You tell me you are in love with this man but won’t do a thing?” The younger male's voice boomed through the speaker as Jimin was rocking himself in the bath.
”it’s not that… Yes I did say I will go for it but I didn't think it through… back then i didn't realize how down bad i was for him, how much i wanted him to be really mine… for us to have a future together. It hit me so much now. You know that he surprised me with a box of various stuff he collected over the whole year , that reminded him of me? That box is like twice my head size Tae!”
”Yeah and that’s exactly why I’m telling you to risk it. Who does this shit for their fuck buddy, he clearly shows romantic interest in you, he always did. Didn’t you say that he always and I say always, makes some grand surprise dinner at the end of your stay?”
”well yeah he does,, last year he took me out into the wood cabin where he made a whole picnic in front of the fireplace… god that night was like no other… but he does it because it's the last night we get to spend together before i leave…he wants it to be special” jimin mumbled, his face blushing at the mention of those diners.
They were always something else, so much thought was put into them, Jimin and Jungkook dancing for hours before laying in each other arms until the sun would go up, alarming that it was time for them to part…
”Well you do something special this year too!!! Jimin, come on! What do you have to lose! You tell him how you feel and he might feel the same and you will be happily ever after in love!” Taehyung said with excitement in his voice, proud of his amazing plan.
”Well what could happen is that he will laugh in my face , saying that im stupid to think he would ever see me as more than a fuck buddy!”
The silence was way too loud for those 3 seconds before Taehyung started again.
”Are you sure the same Jungkook from your stories? The sweetheart Bambi eyed tattooed guy with a weakness for banana milk? ” he said and Jimin could sense his face at that moment, completely judging his sudden lack of confidence „ You are Park Jimin. The darling of Korea, the It boy of this generation, if he doesn't want you, he is stupid and that he will remain, but if he does… that’s what you want right?”
Jimin knew that his best friend was right, he knew that trying won’t hurt him … at least he hoped.
”just .. give it those last days to check out how you feel about him. And if the feelings won't stop, confess on the last night, if it goes bad , you leave in the morning anyway , you won't have to see him again later. But it’s all up to you, remember Min. I’ll support your decision”
”Thank you hun, you weirdly always know how to put sense back into my head, i'll give it a thought” Jimin said , but soon his words were cut by a knock on his bathroom door. „Shit gotta go, let me know how it went meeting Yoongi's parents”
”will do soulmate!” And with that the other line was cut, as Jimin sank back into the foam.
”Who is this !?” He yelled out, hoping that the person on the other side is a tall man with a arm full of tattoos ready to join him in the water but well-
Not everyday.
”Mister Jimin” a female voice was heard. „Jungkook asked me to inform you that he reserved a dinner table for you at the terrace restaurant for tonight, will you join him at 8 pm?” She asked with a nice but a bit nervous voice, she must have been new.
„ oh! That's so soon! But yes yes- tell Jungkook I’ll be there…thank you dear.”
he could hear the girl run away as soon as she got the confirmation and jimin looked at the clock. 6:30 pm.
Jungkook invited him out, he invited him for dinner in the most romantic restaurant in the resort. He invited him for a date!!!
Jimin was a blushing mess, covering his face as his feet kicked a bit under the water.
It took him a second before he stopped and registered his reaction.
Fuck.
He knew he was in love.
—
Jimin was quick to get ready, the anticipation of seeing Jungkook made him arrive at the restaurant 10 minutes too early, as the waiter showed him their table. It was a bit isolated, away from other guests, the candle in the middle illuminating a very soft and romantic light , giving the view of the snowy mountains outside the window a nice touch.
Jimin sat down and ordered himself a glass of wine , hoping that it would calm down his nerves a bit. But why was he even nervous. They had diner dates before, it was something so normal in their relationship, they weren’t just there for physical pleasure, they trully enjoyed their presence.
But he still held Taehyung's words deep in his heart. He needed to test himself and his emotions tonight, to finally be sure what to do with Jungkook. He needed to set his feelings down once and for all.
—
Jungkook was running late at this point, but why was that? He was always so on time especially when it came to meeting Jimin, but he felt a bit differently tonight. Well not tonight. It has been going on for years.
You see, Jungkook realized that he was in love with the beautiful male many years ago. He knew that no one ever would make him feel like Jimin and no one ever will be so perfect like the idol. He knew that Jimin was his one and only but their story was just written differently. He was a hotel worker, and Jimin was…
he was Jimin.
In no possible realistic universe was it meant for them to be together, and Jungkook was fully aware of that. It didn't matter to him that one word from Jimin and he would be on his way to Seoul right then in that second, because he knew that this word would never come. He was just a vacation stress reliever, and he always told himself, reminded himself, that's all he's gonna be.
That morning during a staff meeting the hotel manager announced that they would be opening a new location to their company, without any other information on where that location would be, he just handed a list of workers that would transfer to the new hotel after Christmas.
and Jungkooks name was on that list.
Which only meant one thing for the male, this was the last season that he and Jimin would be spending together. Normal person would use that fact to finally confess his feelings , throw the shot out and hope that maybe Jimin felt the same, that maybe they were destined to be together no matter their distance.
But Jungkook couldn’t act so selfish, he wasn't the only one in this relationship and dropping something so big on Jimin could not only ruin his career but also scare him away completely, so if he only had couple days left with the love of his life, he needed to spend them the best way he could.
That's exactly why it took him extra long getting ready, as he was now running to the restaurant, not wanting to keep jimin waiting as it was already 7 minutes past their meet up time.
When he arrived at the place, he bowed to the waiter and instantly knew where to go. After all he picked out that table just for them.
“I hope your waiting wasn't too sad dearest” he said with a small apologetic smile on his face as he walked over to Jimin, holding a small bouquet in his hand, giving it to the blonde.
” Well if you can't keep me company at least wine can” Jimin joked before standing up to meet jungkook's eyes on their level “i was getting scared you decided to bail on me”
” bail on an angel like you? Only a fool would make such a decision, let's sit now , hmm? And I am no fool” Jungkook said with a charming smile as he pulled out Jimin's chair for him to sit before sitting down on the opposite side of the tabel.
”i see you already started tonight’s drinking without me but i would like to suggest champagne for start, what do you think?” The younger male said, the nervous hint in his voice couldn’t go unnoticed for Jimin.
” You know i can't say no to that but… kookie” Jimin said, grabbing the male's hand on the table “ what’s going on, i can see you have something big on your mind right now. Wanna talk about it?”
Oh the angel that Jimin was, one smile making Jungkook feel so heard and so understood.
”It’s fine really, I just found out about some work promotion this morning. That's all, it's been on my mind a little bit” the male said, wanting to change the subject as quickly as possible.
“Jungkookie dont even! A work promotion! That’s absolutely amazing!! For someone who was watching you climb up the ladder of success at this hotel it’s only a matter of fact you reach higher, maybe next year i'll come and you'll be the manager huh?” Jimin winked at him, showing Jungkook how truly excited he was for the younger.
“ yeah- we will see. But please lets not waste time on work, its one of our last diners i just… want to enjoy this evening with you.” Jungkook said as they waiter arrived with the finest bottle of champagne. He let Jungkook try it first and when he gave the nod of approval the waiter quickly filled their glasses.
”we will think about our picks for the meal and you can come back in a second alright?” Jungkook said with a small smile, as Jimin was staring at him with the biggest heart eyes. Someone would need to be stupid not to notice the way he looked at the younger. He was such a gentleman, so elegant and handsome with his actions and looks. Jimins just couldn’t get enough of him.
“I want to raise a toast, for you “ the blonde said as they were left alone, picking up his champagne glass “ for the person who taught me how to trully enjoy life, how to look out for a new day with a bright view. For someone who supports me like no one.”
”you flatter me too much darling, you know how that works on me”
”oh i know, but that part will be finished after diner huh? “ Jimin’s smirk brought a blush on Jungkooks face.
”then let me change your toast, not to me only but to us, how we both changed our lives, for now and for forever.” Jungkook said bringing his glass closer to Jimin’s .
” To us.”
—-
Being with Jimin made Jungkook forget all of his worries. They laughter, talked for hours in the restaurant before finally moving to Jimin's apartment.
Their night was filled with kisses, rough and soft touches, marks left on their bodies and passion only growing between them with each second.
Jimin was holding onto Jungkook's neck as he rode him , covered in the moonlight, listening to those sweet praises Jungkook put into his ear. The minutes felt like hours as they took in every moment carefully, enjoying each other as long as they still could.
—
Jimin always caught himself losing time when in Sapporo, each year those days passed so quickly he couldn’t even notice when the last morning of his trip arrived.
The idol woke up in Jungkook's arms, cuddled tightly into the younger male's chest, their legs tangled together just as they fell asleep. The boy's eyes were still trying hard to stay closed but Jimin knew giving up to his sleepiness on this day would be a crime. It was all they had left for the next year, and Jimin promised something to Taehyung and himself…
When the blonde finally managed to get himself out of his lovers arms, he walked to the bathroom , to wash himself up. After a quick shower, skin care and basic hair styling Jimin walked into the bedroom once again.
Jungkook was holding onto the pillow as if it was Jimin, still sleeping soundly. The blonde didn’t have a heart to wake him up so instead he gave his lover a small kiss on the cheek before leaving the room.
Don't get Jimin wrong he would love to spend the whole morning with Jungkook in bed but his manager texted him the night before asking if he could take at least couple pictures or selcas in the snow so they could post it on his socials later, and Jimin really didn't mind. It was the only work he would have to do this whole trip so really , taking a couple pictures wasn't a bother to him.
He was standing outside the hotel, throwing the snow up laughing as a young girl employee took pictures of him. She was nice enough to agree to help Jimin out as he didnt think before how he would take the pictures to be frank.
He stood next to her looking at the photos “ oh my they are great!! Thank you so so much for helping me with this ! I couldn’t be more greatful. You said your sister is a fan right? Please bring her later today. I would love to meet her “ he said as the girl quickly thanked him, bowing and running back to the hotel's main building..
Jimin's eyes went back to his phone as he picked it up , in order to take a nice selfie in the sun. When he looked into the screen he could see a figure running right into him from behind, but before he could react he felt strong arms grab his waist and spin him around.
“AAAAUGHHH” Jimin yelled at the sudden movement. Soon he was turned around in the man's arms as he held onto his neck.
” Well this is a surprise! I thought you were still sleeping!!”
” Well you might be tiny but the pillow is tinier, you can't fool me into thinking it's you, it didn't took me long to wake up and well…” jungkook pointed to the window in the resort building. “ I saw you through the window and decided you need to be surprised , I'm a bit betrayed that you left me my darling” he said and put Jimin back down on the floor.
“I want to spend the whole day with you today, and for tonight im taking you away from here alright? So be ready to go out and take your purse, no money thought, im paying” the younger smirked giving Jimin a quick kiss on his cheek.
Before Jimin could pick up a fight about the last part of Jungkook's statement he was dragged Back towards the building. Running after Jungkook , hearing his laughter, looking at his smile in between the snow.
Jimin loved jungkook.
Ands he will tell him tonight.
—-
The night finally came and Jimin could not calm down his excitement, he was running around his room getting ready, wanting to look the best he could for their last night together and for maybe… a start of something more than just a vacation romance.
Jungkook was waiting for him right in front of his door, flowers in hand ands they walked down to the main hall of the hotel. Jimin was mesmerized with how handsome Jungkook looked, of course he always looked handsome but there was something about him that night, the way his hair was styled, the way the black dress shirt hugged his chest. Jimin couldn’t stop staring at the male- and oh- how fucking hot Jungkook was while driving a car, the idol just sat there in the passenger seat totally hypnotised.
”I could literally such your cock right now, that's how good you look” Jimin said with a straight face, 100% meaning every single word.
“Darling you are so vulgularf tonight, and here i prepared such a date night for us and you just want to skip straight to sex? Not that i would complain about having your mouth on my body right now” Jungkook laughed as he laid down his hand on Jimin’s thigh.
“Well you can’t dress like sex on a stick and expect me to be calm about this, especially since you fed me all that champagne during lunch, i can still feel it you know “
Jungkook could only smile, enjoying the domestic moment they shared. Their conversation and teasing kept going on till they arrived at the restaurant. Jungkook parked the car in front of a single building which could go on as a house for some people but the sign made it clear that they served food in that establishment.
Jungkook turned off the engine and turned his face to Jimin, and his reaction was exactly how he imagined it to be. The boy was shocked, his eyes scanning everything that was standing in front of him. He slowly stepped out of the car still staring at the building, and Jungkook just walked right after him, standing next to Jimin.
“how did you find it…” the idol said, something so unbelievable in his voice.
“Well… you only had the name of the dish, description of the place and we both knew its in Sapporo, i wasn't even sure if it would be open after so many years but i couldn’t give up.. so - i really hope the chef is still the same and it will taste how you remembered it -“ Jungkook's voice was cut by Jimin’s lips touching his own as Jimin pulled him down for a kiss.
”Thank you… thank you for helping me find it, it’s exactly the same… just as i remembered it” Jimin mumbled as they walked hand in hand into the restaurant.
What was so special about this place you ask? This was the restaurant where Jimin spent his last vacation with his beloved grandma. The place was their favorite spot as his grandma used to work in this establishment back in her young days, when she still lived in Japan for studies.. Jimin held absolute lovely memories from this place, telling Jungkook about it almost every year as they tried different ramens, because it never compared to the one he tried in this little establishment. It was a long standing restaurant passed from one generation to another, with secret recipes and tradition put into them. The young boy Jimin was, he didn’t put any memory or care into the name of this place, that's why it got lost for him, in the distance of his memory, not being able to find it even though he tried many many times. But here he was, thanks to Jungkook, staring at the wall filled with pictures, but only one brought his attention. He recognised her everywhere, her locks, always perfectly styled, and eye smile he got from her, she couldn’t be older than him right now in that picture.
” You take a lot after her” Jungkook said, standing next to Jimin “ just as beautiful as you are “
”She would have loved you so much, she always had a weak spot for charming men like you , who always went out of their way to make someone happy.. i would be a bit worried she would steal you from me if i'm being honest” Jimin laughed, handling his coat to Jungkook as he hanged them away.
“Well you wouldn’t need to worry about that, maybe she was the greatest woman on earth but she was not Park Jimin “
” well actually -“
” … you don't tell me she was Park Jimin-“ Jungkook said with a dumb folded face as they sat down by the table.
”it’s a genderless name! I was named after her! And she wasn’t Park Jimin aways ! That was after she married my grandpa!” Jimin said in defense as Jungkook blurted out in laughter.
Jimin was telling Jungkook stories of him and his grandma, how they spend their time , how she practically raised Jimin, giving him the courage to dance, to perform.
Jungkook was holding his hand as the older man talked with so many emotions, happiness but a hint of sadness in his voice as the blonde missed her everyday.
They soon ordered, and when Jimin wanted just one ramen jungkook was not taking it. He ordered half of the menu telling the idol that tonight was special and he wanted Jimin try every single thing they had there.
The room they settled in was filled with laughter, glasses clicking and conversation going on forever. But Jimin knew that soon he needed to build up his courage and tell Jungkook what he told himself in front of the mirror 30 times before leaving.
‘I have romantic feelings for you, i want to do something about it , i want us to have a future together,’
Jungkook raised his eyebrow as he could sense that he lost Jimin there for a second “ you still here? What got your pretty head thinking so hard?”
Jimin stared right into Jungkook's shining eyes before nodding “ yes yes i'm still here… i'm just thinking about - life i guess… Jungkook i have to talk to you about something”
”Oh no this sounds very serious, am I in trouble or something? “ The younger one joked but seeing Jimin's face he sensed that the talk was one of the serious ones “ of course Min, anything , i'll listen you know it.”
”good, cause it took me a lot of courage to do this - and say this - i. I really thought about it a lot this whole trip but , to be honest, that thought has been in my mind since… since I can remember when… Jungkook” he took a deep breath. There. He was going to say this, it was now or never. “ I like you… i really really like you “ Jimins words were quiet and very weak but it reached Jungkook’s ears just fine.
”oh- Jimin you know i like you too, that's what’s this all about, you are my favorite person of course i like you”
“its-it's not just that Jungkook. I like you but… you know what I mean, I like like you…” Jimin's voice became weaker, trembling with each word. “ You are the only person who ever understood me, the only person who made me feel loved, seen as me, not as the idol I am. You have always been next to me and you know how much the time I spend with you means to me…Jungkook you understand me, you do so much for me every time.. like this? „ he motioned his hands around them.”I can't even imagine how much time you spend just to find out where this restaurant is. You do all of this for me …I couldn’t be luckier in life, than I am now, knowing you, being able to experience life with you as a lover …. But jungkook 2 weeks a year is not enough… you make me feel alive, you make life be worth living… i want.. i want to know you for a whole year.. i want to have a future with you” his voice broke, nervously playing with his fingers under the table.
”i love you jungkook, i always did and always will… and i want to build something with you, even with the distance…. „ He said it. He said those words as he looked straight at Jungkooks face, wanting to read his reaction, know at least something from how his face looked, but it was so.. blank. Anxiety washed over him in seconds as he leaned back from the table.
” A-are you gonna say something??” Jimin said feeling tears coming into his eyes. Was jungkook disgusted with him so suddenly? Was he surprised? They acted romantic before it couldn’t be a surprise!
” I- Jimin are you hearing yourself right now?” Was all that Jungkook said, leaning back into his chair. “ you are not thinking straight , you do not know how it will complicate your whole life ! It’s not that simple okay?”
”What do you mean it's not that simple?! It’s love Jungkook, I love you and I want you to tell me if you feel the same! Nothing else matters in this moment “ Jimin said, his emotions starting to bubble inside him With each second. Tears were building up in his eyes. He was ready for the younger male to tell him he loves him, or tell him politely it's not the same for him but… not this! What did it even mean!
” Stop saying that word okay? Stop saying you… this is way more complicated. We are from two different words jimin. You think you feel all of this for me because of the ecstasy from this trip. Of course you are more excited and your emotions feel stronger ! But Jimin…in real life… i- you are on top of the world and i'm low low below it. The second you go back to your life you will realize i can give you nothing compared to what you have!! You are just emotional after this trip and you are sad about the end of it, that’s why you think it's love okay? Let’s just go back to the hotel and forget this conversation.” Jungkook said, something was different in his eyes, he didn't feel like the Jungkook Jimin knew… his eyes were washed out of emotions.
” You do not have the fucking right to tell me how i feel! Really? Is this exactly what you want to tell me? Try to make it all about how we are from different worlds? How fucking cliche is that!!” Jimin said, tears finally ran down his cheeks , as he was crying.
“ I do know what I feel for you, I know how I feel when I see you , when I am with you and exactly how I feel when I'm away from you. You are all I fucking think about Jungkook and i thought about everything before, how i want my life to be, my career, i dont care about those things if i dont have you with me okay? So don’t give me this bullshit!” Jimin stood up from his seat , the impact making glasses shake on the table. “ Just fucking admit that you dont feel the same okay? It would be 100 times better if you were just being honest and not playing this fucking asshole card that we don’t belong together. You enjoyed fucking me but now what? Emotions are on the table and you just give me some shitty talk so I will leave heartbroken? Was i not enough for you , or did you get bored after all those years?” Jimin knew he was talking nonsense, accusing him of all of this, but he couldn’t hold in his emotions, he was hurt, he was crying , and Jungkook…
Jungkooks face was blank, as if nothing was getting to him anymore, he was staring at the wall.
”Jimin, it's not about this. I'm just trying to save you from making a mistake. It’s everything you worked on…”
Jimin slammed his hand on the table in front of Jungkook, looking at him through his tears. “ Just tell me if you love me too… tell me if all of this time we spend together meant something more to you.. tell me Jungkook, do i mean anything more to you… are just friends who fuck .. or do you not even care… Before I leave, I just want to know.” His voice broke down, sobs leaving his mouth in between words, being completely quiet now as he begged Jungkook, for just an explanation.
”I can't… darling i can-“
”Don't, don’t… darling me. I'm leaving. I'm taking a cab. Don’t you fucking try to find me after you come back.” Jimin said , the last words before leaving the room and heading back to the hotel. The drive in the cab was quiet, the first 2 minutes he just stared at the road and thought how everything broke down in a matter of 5 minutes. Then tears, tears on and on. He lost Jungkook, not for another year but for forever, he lost the one person who made live worth….now he was alone.
Jungkook was sitting by that table as Jimin left. He held into the chair so tight his knuckled became white. But he had to keep his emotions down. He needed to control himself… he needed to be the bad guy. He needed to break Jimin's heart because even though the male thought he knew what he was doing.. Jimin was just listening to his heart, not his brain.
Jungkook paid the bill and soon left, but he didn't walk over to his car. Instead he walked to a tree, a big tree covered in snow, standing a couple meters away from the restaurant.. He stood there for a good couple seconds before smashing right into it with his full fist, a loud yell escaping his mouth.
He was in pain , he was in pain that he never experienced before. He couldn’t even tell Jimin how he felt, seeing his tears, his broken face…. Jungkook was a monster. But in a couple years Jimin would be thanking him for choosing the better future for them… or he thought…
——
When the morning came Jimin's face was puffy all over, his eyes were red, as he cried not only while falling asleep, but also in his sleep. It was 7 am when he left his hotel room, a bag boy behind him with all of his stuff. Walking through the hotel's hall felt familiar yet so sad.. because Jimin knew this was truly the last time he would be here, he was not coming back. Not after last night.
He arrived at the main hall, it was quiet, only him, the bag boy loading his stuff into the cab and the secretary working around the lobby.
But when Jimin's eyes turned up from his phone.. he saw him. He saw Jungkook standing right in front of him, still in his sleeping sweatpants and a hoodie.
”what the fuck are you doing here Jungkook” Jimin said, his voiced as cold as he could “ you said enough last night.”
” No-no fuck i didnt… i thought i could do it like that.. be the asshole in this story who broke your heart so you could hate me and move on but Jimin..,i cant okay? I need to be selfish..i want to tell you that.. your feelings aren’t alone… i - i feel the same… I did for years okay? But im not feeding you a cliche now … I know how fans get when idols get into a relationship and I know how hard it would be to hide ours. I want to give you the world the whole universe because you .. you are a star… but i will drag you down okay ? You have to understand that. I laid in bed last night, the whole night i was trying to fall asleep and the thought that you… you didn't know how i feel towards you… it made me want to rip all of my skin off” Jungkook said, his voice breaking every second word, he was a mess a complete mess, and there in his eyes Jimin saw that spark, that sparks that showed him that the younger male was being honest, the one he didn't see in him when they were in the restaurant last night.
It was all that Jimin needed to see to believe Jungkook.
”I don't care about my career, about all of those things and those people, okay? I want you so much, I love you so much, I don't mind risking everything okay?! Jungkook i know us , and i know that we can do this together, we can figure out everything and build our lives together.” The blonde said “ all I need from you is to hear it … 3 words, 8 letters jungkook… say it and I'm yours…” Jimin’s voice trembled as he walked up to the younger, his hand wanting to reach out to Jungkook, grab him and never let go.
”i-i cant Jimin… you will hate me for it soon. Just go okay… i- im sorry” Jungkook said , as his eyes closed, tears falling down his cheeks.
“I'm even more sorry … goodbye Jungkook… forever” and with those words Jimin left through the main door to the Golden Hill Ski Resort for the last time in his life.
——
The life after he went back to Seoul felt dull. Each year when he left Jungkook, it felt like that but… it just came away after a couple days of work, Jimin knew he would see Jungkook again anyway…but not this time. Jimin was thinking about him every single moment of his life, he couldn’t even focus on his new comeback, it was all Jungkook in front of him. Maybe the other male was right, hating him would be easier than knowing they both love eachother… but Jungkook.. he was too scared to be in Jimin's life… they just weren’t meant to be.
His days went on and on , and soon new years arrived. The blonde got invited to Taehyung’s party to celebrate and if it was anyone else, he would decline. Being honest, he wanted to spend every second alone , not ready to face the crowd of celebrities again, but it was Tae’s party.. he wouldn't miss it no matter the reason, and after all Tae begged him so much to come, at least stay till midnight, so he did just that.
With no strength to dress up, he put on a pair of black pants, his iconic black Chelsea boots on heels of course, some white shirt and a nice jean jacket , decorated with some crystals. He stole it from a set of one of his music videos, liked it way too much, so it became a permanent addition to his closet.
When the elevator dinged on Taehyung’s floor , he didn't need the door to open to sense the party going all out in the apartment. He stepped into the dimmed room filled with people, chatter, music and colorful lighting, nothing he hasn’t seen before.
The model was quick to spot his best friend walking throught the door as he run up to him with the bright smile on his face “MIMI YOU ARE HERE!!”
Taehyung jumped on him, almost tackling the shorter into the floor, his arms circling around Jimin, holding him close.
”YOU CAME I KNEW YOU WOULD!! This will do wonders to you, everyone you know is here, it's a complete phone and camera free zone so you can have fun and talk feely. I know those past days has been…. Hard but I promise you… it's a start of a new year and new year brings new things… am i right? Just try to have some fun and after midnight hits you can go home” he said and Jimin nodded with a small smile on his face.
”yeah… i'll go find namjoon hyung somewhere , i had a thing to talk to him anyway so i'll handle that… we will stay in contact and i'll find you later” the shorter male said as they parted.
—
The night went on, he talked with Namjoon and even chatted for a while with Yoongi and Hobi , they asked about his trip but seeing Jimin’s face they knew asking for more was a mistake on both sides.
When the clock hit midnight, Jimin cheered with everyone but couldn’t blush away the feeling so empty inside him, he knew what was missing. All the couples kissing for the new year, the wishes everyone were exchanging, Jimin wanted to enjoy it, he wanted to be happy but not… not without him..
He was quick to wish all of his closest friends a good year, before excusing himself, the night was long enough for him already, he needed to get back home.
The drive felt as if it took hours and when he finally arrived in the elevator, his whole body felt heavy, all he wanted to do was lay in bed and never get up from it anymore. It was the only thing he felt for the last weeks. He leaned on the wall and his eyes closed waiting for that ding , announcing that he arrived at the right floor.
When he finally reached his destination he did hear the ding and the sound of door opening but his body didn't move for couple seconds. There was absolutely no energy in him to do so. But he had to, if he didn't want to travel back to the lobby , he needed to walk into his house.
When he arrived at the door and turned his key, pushing the door open, what he saw wasn't a dark messy apartment that he left behind. The hall was illuminated with tons of candles, and white petals all over the floor , making a path to the living room.
Jimin was stunned, did someone break in? What was happening ? Why would a burglar put flowers on the floor? Why was there someone inside his apartment and what was all this set for? He leaned down and picked up the petal from the floor. He knew in a second that those were peonies, his favorite flowers.
He held his breath, his steps were very very slow. There were only a handle of people who knew him so well to know that this kind of cliche situation was exactly what got his heart beating faster,… and only one of those people would ever do that for him.
But it was impossible for him to be here. He was in Japan, and he was far away , not being able to have any contact with Jimin, hell he didn’t even have Jimin’s phone number not talking about address… So why did the idol smell his perfume in the air?
That walk , a couple more steps as he would walk into the living room felt like hours. He didn't know if he should run away, turn around, or maybe run towards the light… what if he will get hurt again, what if it's not even him, what if he's making a big big mistake…
Thoughts were running through his head, he couldn’t focus or concentrate, he couldn’t even control his own moves, his body did that for him. He was just a puppet to his heart.
And before he made his decision, it made it for him. Here he was, standing in his living room door, looking in front of himself, tears falling down his face as his heart sped up once again, like it hasn’t done for weeks now.
In front of him , standing in the middle of his living room, in a tidy black shirt holding a bouquet of white peonies was Jungkook, no one else , his breath stopped the same moment as Jimin’s did, as they looked at each other. Neither of them said anything for 3 minutes, they needed to take in the fact that they were again together, somewhere that wasn’t Sapporo.
Jimins mouth opened as he wanted to start a conversation but Jungkook beat him up to it, taking a step forward.
”please- i- i gotta say it. I have to explain this cause i know.. I know you might hate to see me , you might want to kick me out and you can do that in just a second but please… first let me tell you…” the younger said , before he fell down on his knees right in front of Jimin.
”Park Jimin from the first year I met you, when i was still a stupid teen, I have loved you with all my heart. You made me the man I am today, you made me a better person because you inspired me to be one for you. You taught me love, devotion, passion and there isn’t a person on this planet I would want more than you. I was stupid to give up. I was scared and in the mirror all i could see was a little kid who didn’t even give it a try, who just gave up. I don't want to be that kid, cause I do not deserve someone like you to love me if I don't own up to it. So i tell you this now Park Jimin i love you. I love you with all my heart and I want to try , I want to show you I'm enough for you no matter what world you come from and where I am from, no matter what. I will be enough for you if you just let me show you…” he begged, his eyes looking at Jimin, who was trembling, crying as he held his hands to his mouth.
“W-what happened..w-why not… f-fucking god Jungkook you know what you put ,m-me throught!!” Jimin yelled out as he jumped down to meet the other male in a hug.
”y-you hurt me.. you hurt me by leaving me and now… now you are here… you are here with me”
”yes baby fuck i am here. And I'm sorry, I was stupid and I was so scared but I want to try with you. I want to make up for what I did. How much of a coward am I? I promise you i will dedicate every single moment of my life from now on to show you … that you deserve the world…just let me be with you , let me into your life and we can make it work” Jungkook mumbled, his face pressed against jimin's neck as he stained his skin with tears.
”of course,.. you stupid fucking dumbass of course … it's not gonna be easy but we can do this.. i need you the same way you need me… as long as we focus on that we will make it through.. but what changed your mind…” then blonde asked, holding Jungkook’s face in his hands to look right into his eyes.
” You might think it’s childish but ..fate… when I told you on one of our last days, I got a promotion…that day the manager told me they are opening a new hotel and that I will be going to that branch, they would make me leave Sapporo anyway… I was so scared when you told me how you feel because I didn't even know where I would be. How could i be good enough to be your lover if i would be on another continent but…fate brought me here… my darling the hotel is here” jungkook said with the happiness filling his tears now.” Jimin, they made me the manager of the hotel here- in Seoul. I want to think it’s because of my hard work but let's be honest it's probably because I'm Korean” both of them laughed through their tears, finally feeling more relaxed.
” That’s so amazing.. Jungkookie i'm so so proud of you… we are in here together… in one city finally…please don't let go of me now… no matter how scary it will get “
“never… never my love… from today , it’s a new year and a new life for us… no just 2 weeks, no lack of constant… it's our love … "Jungkook said, stroking Jimin's cheek, wiping the tears off his face. "But for now… how about you give me your number?”
”oh shut up!!” Jimin laughed, jumping right into the younger male's arms, their lips connecting in the longing kiss. Finally, not as summer lovers, but as each other's futures. Their kiss held pain, tears, laughter, passion and love. It held everything that the fututre had in stock for them.
But no matter what , they knew they belong together. Every day, all day, 365 days a year.