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"Megumi!!!"
"yeah unless it's Megumi-kun to make you come here in a hurry!"
Shoko exhaled the cigarette smoke, stared at Gojo with a smirk on her face and leaned back in her chair "is he panting?" she thought.
Gojo entered the room, closed the door and took a deep breath "so he's fine then..."
"of course he's fine! he returned to his room to rest!"
Gojo ran his hand through his hair and was ready to leave the room when Shoko's voice rang in his ears again
"you know, i don't mind if you want to fool the others, but can you at least stop whatever this all is in front of me?"
"but i didn't do anything??"
"so your 6 eyes suddenly have a bug in it? oh wow Gojo Satoru, install an anti-virus i guess!"
"wish i could and what can i say, i'm just a good teacher who's worried for all his students!"
"good teacher my ass!"
"why are you always so mean to me?"
"cause you deserve it?"
Gojo laughed softly "don't forget the meeting Irie-san"
"there's no need for me there, say that to yourself!" she turned off her cigarette "and since you're a good teacher who's worried for all his students and didn't come here only to see Megumi, i inform you that Maki, Inumaki, and Nobara are fine too."
Gojo's face took on a more serious color, of course he could tell that they were all fine with 6 eyes, but he needed to see Megumi... he had to see closely whether he was fine or not.
a simple check, he thought
just a simple check...
"See you Shoko!"
Shoko waved to him and Gojo headed towards Megumi's room. that damn exchange event was never supposed to be like this where did that fuckin plant-shaped curse come from? and most importantly, Megumi...
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Megumi was leaning against his bed while scrolling through his phone when Gojo knocked on the door and entered the room. "since when did he knock this way?" he thought
he put his phone aside "Gojo-sensei!"
"hi hi Megumi-chan, such a busy day huh?" he sat down on the bed next to Megumi.
"well you saw what happened yourself; i'm surprised that Yaga-sensei didn't have a meeting right away."
"oh Megumi, of course he did, i think it should be started by now"
Megumi looked at him in kind of surprise, Gojo didn't care about the meetings! Megumi knew that Gojo usually doesn't care about these things but this time it was no small matter.
"so why are you..."
but before he could finish his words, he felt Gojo's hand on his cheek. Megumi frozed! those bright green eyes stared at Gojo as he was trying to steady his breathing. what the hell was going on today?
Gojo ran his thumb gently over Megumi's cheek. he needed it. needed to feel the warmth of Megumi's body on his hand. God, this was the first time Megumi had been hurt like this and Gojo might not get there in time. just one small mistake was enough to change everything. after entering the battlefield, he'd been acting like someone who had everything under control just to send a hollow purple in there where his other students could get killed by it! feeling the anger again, he cursed them all in his mind! that damn ugly weed it better be dead for what it did to Megumi! "so this is why Shoko was like that..." he thought.
they were sitting close enough that Gojo could hear his shaky breath, and before Megumi could say anything, Gojo whispered, "i'm just glad you're okay..."
Megumi couldn't help but smile, he could see the difference between the Gojo before him and the one he was usually used to seeing around. feeling a sad, worried sort of kindness that had no definition for it, making him want to touch Gojo, to hold his hand and even throw himself into his arms if he could. who'd they think they were fooling? it's been a while since the way they touched each other wasn't the same.
"maybe putting my life at risk is not that bad after all"
with Gojo's next move, all these thoughts were pushed aside.
Gojo pulled back his hand as if he had just realized what he was doing and laughed a little, annoying as ever "Megumi-chan, if you stay weak like this, even Yuji might leave you behind you know"
Megumi frowned "you clearly saw that i was trying"
Gojo stood up "i didn't say you didn't try either..." he ruffled Megumi's hair "But you shouldn't get hurt like this when I'm not around. you're not allowed to."
Megumi watched Gojo walk toward the door, appearing to have nothing further to say. "get some sleep if you can. see you later at the students' meeting"
"Gojo Sensei?"
Gojo turned and looked at the boy who was sitting on the bed more calmly than before "what is it Megumi-chan?"
"about that cursed thing you showed me a picture of and was here today, just wanted you to know that the only way to deal a critical damage was through its eyes..."
feeling more satisfaction, Gojo smiled "you've done well, rest now."
Gojo'd only been gone a minute when Nobara burst into the room "so? what happened?"
"something was supposed to happen?" Megumi answered with his usual annoyed expression.
"who do you think you're trying to deceive right now?? i saw him leaving here myself!"
"tch" he whispered but explained what had happened in the past few minutes to Nobara anyway. it wasn't like hiding it from her would be of any use or if he cared what she would think about it. although he didn't mind listening to what Nobara had to say.
"i'm telling you Megumi, he's scared!"
"you kidding me right now"
"what so you wanna tell me because he's the strongest he has nothing to fear? in the end, he's also a man, and the worst of all a teacher here!"
"so?"
"so? did you just say "SO"????" Nobara laughed in disbelief and hit Megumi in the head!
"hey what the fuck!?"
"i can't believe the smartest person here looked me in the eye and said, "so"!! he's not afraid of the others you idiot, he's afraid of wanting you more than what he is supposed to!"
Megumi's gaze turned poker-like "are you for real?"
"god, you boys are just stupid; everyone officially knows he treats you differently, and the only one trying to deny it is you, and of course that stupid sensei himself" Nobara started talking and giving advice that Megumi wouldn't listen to anymore. but her words made him think. of course, he wasn't stupid, he could see how different Gojo's behavior was around him, but what was he supposed to do?
it was like a very, very thin line had been drawn between them a long time ago. a line that had no boundaries, no rules. they could feel each other's warmth, breathe between each other's air, and hold each other's hands, but now that line was gone and neither of them knew how to cross it.
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Megumi yawned, looked at his watch which showed 4 am, and leaned against the pillar.
"yo Megumi-chan"
"you finally arrived, Gojo-sensei"
"hmm, did you get the tickets?"
"i did, Itadori said he and Nobara will be there when we got to the city"
"Okay, okay, now keep these for me!"
Gojo dumped a huge case and two bags of stuff in Megumi's lap.
"what?"
"take care of them, okay? i'll go to a store nearby and be here in a minute"
"but Gojo-sensei..."
Gojo laughed and ruffled Megumi's hair as usual "i'll be back soon"
"oh my god no i mean IS THE CANDY STORE EVEN OPEN AT 4AM?" Megumi took a deep breath and stared at the path Gojo had disappeared down. "god save me"
less than an hour later, the two were sitting in their chairs and Gojo was enjoying the new sweets he had bought "want some?"
Megumi yawned again and put his phone in his pocket "no"
Gojo was so engrossed in the sweets that he didn't realize Megumi had fallen asleep until his head fell on his shoulder. he swallowed the last bite of the sweets in his mouth and stared at him...
the heartbeat again...
he'd gone looking for some sweets just to distract himself. the thought of being alone with Megumi lately? it was driving him crazy. he wanted to hold him so tight that he couldn't breathe, but at the same time, he was terrified and wanted to run away as much that was possible. Gojo didn't understand this feeling.
or maybe he did, he just didn't want to admit it...
he didn't even know how much he'd been staring at him. before he could think of anything, he reached out and gently touched his index finger on Megumi's eyelashes. "what kind of boy looks like..." he ran his finger over Megumi's cheek before pulling his hand back. then he rested his head on the boy's head and tried to calm his breathing, thinking that they still had an hour left.
Gojo was dying to wrap his arm around Megumi's body, but he didn't move for fear of waking him up. he was aware that Megumi had difficulty sleeping and didn't want to disturb him, unaware that the younger boy never slept.
"What are you so scared of, Gojo-san?"
[ Yuji and Nobara's first thought after seeing Gojo and Megumi at Saitama Station was something along the lines of "just how long have you been married?"!! as Gojo bought him a dark hot chocolate without Megumi even asking, Megumi answered Gojo's phone and then reminded him of his schedule, Gojo took Megumi's bag and Megumi helped him get the other things and gave him his blindfold, while they were talking about what they should do "we're here too you know??" ]
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"seriously, shouldn't we go to the cinema?"
"to see that fuckin worm"
"ah, the one that the main character is actually the main villain of the story?"
Nobara eyed Gojo "Spoiler~"
"well i didn't know you wanted to see it Nobara"
"wow, sensei, i can't believe you liked this too"
"of course i did Yuji-kun. your cool good-looking teacher is a film enthusiast for sure"
"you mean a cool film enthusiast spoiler?"
Gojo ignored Nobara "okay, okay, so cinema? Yuji?"
"hohoo i'm in let's go~~~"
"Nobara? we have sushi too"
but instead of paying attention to Gojo, Nobara looked the other way "is Fushiguro getting hit on?"
"wow again? being a pretty boy sure is a problem"
Nobara chuckled "okay, what's the plan?"
Yuji stretched his hand "A or B sensei?"
but Gojo wasn't listening. someone was literally trying to rub himself against Megumi and another one was trying to stick himself to him, like, what the fuck!? without paying attention to Nobara and Yuji, he took off his blindfold and went to Megumi. he put his arm around his shoulder, pulling him close "is there a problem?"
"oh Gojo Sensei!"
"you were staying behind Megumi-chan"
"Sorry, we just wanted the address..."
Gojo, ignoring the crowd, pulled Megumi with himself to go back "Yuji and Nobara were about to decide on dinner..."
"Hey"
Gojo turned his head and glanced at the group of boys behind him, an unknown gaze, without letting Megumi go "next time you open your mouth, it would be in your best interest to actually ask for an address!" Gojo's eyes gleamed, and a cold sweat beaded on their bodies.
"you can't feel it can you?" Nobara whispered.
Yuji was completely clueless about the changes of cursed energy around them: "What?"
Nobara looked at Gojo, the way he was smiling while talking to Megumi and totally different from a minute ago, she grinned "the one who has the power to destroy us all is not Gojo-sensei, it's Fushiguru!"
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"so you're still training?"
"can't you see?" Megumi replied while doing push-ups
Gojo smiled mischievously. "don't get out of this position, okay?"
Megumi stayed where he was and waited. Gojo sat down facing him, pulled his legs, pushed himself between Megumi's arms, and lay down under him, ignoring Megumi's "What are you doing??" eyes.
he put his hand under his head and glared at Megumi.
"Sensei?"
"Hmm?"
"What the fuck?"
Gojo laughed "rude"
because of their height difference, he had to spread his legs apart so he wouldn't bump into Megumi's legs "you'll practice better this way"
"i can't do anything at fuckin all!!"
"bingo. and you don't have to. your shoulders are wide enough now. you just have to stay in this position."
Megumi tried to keep his mouth closed and ignore Gojo's smile, but after a few minutes, he understood what "this way is better" meant. basically, his whole body was stretching more and his arms were getting more pressure, but...
Gojo laughed softly "it's harder, isn't it?"
Megumi's arms were shaking very gently "i didn't expect..."
"of course you didn't, that's why i'm here so you can fall on me"
"i'm not going to fall!"
"oh so you want to stay like this until morning?"
"no, but i'm not going to fall i'm not that weak"
Gojo could see Megumi turning a little red from exhaustion "i didn't say you were weak, but you're going to fall"
"no"
"yep"
"no"
"oh Megumi you really look cute when you're nervous"
"what?"
Megumi moved his hands a little to better hold the position and Gojo laughed again "you know this one is even hard for me so i don't do it very often?"
"okay, that's it"
as if Gojo saying this was a sigh of relief for him, he relaxed his hands and threw herself on Gojo's body. it wasn't like it was the first time he'd been in his arms, or if he had to be worried about Infinity. Megumi just closed his eyes, slowly breathing while listening to Gojo's heartbeat. Gojo laughed again, pulled one of his hands out from under his head, and patted Megumi's back "good job, Megumi"
but Megumi couldn't understand, he was the one practicing, tired, so why was Gojo's heart racing so fast??
he didn't move, wanted to listen to his heart as much as he could and it seemed like Gojo wasn't in a hurry either!
so they stayed.
like there's nothing else to do.
the two knew that nothing had been normal between them for quite some time. but until the time comes and someone takes the first step, they could enjoy their peace.
until the time comes...
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Megumi entered his room, Gojo came in behind him and closed the door. the whole time during their return to the dormitory, Megumi remained silent, leaving Gojo unsure what to do.
it was his own fault.
they were just supposed to wait for the cursed user, do nothing till he showed, but when Gojo trapped Megumi between him and the wall for better cover, clinging to him in the dark and cold—everything changed.
Gojo was afraid that Megumi'd get hurt, even though no one had arrived yet. like he used a tiny sound as a reason to get closer. Gojo looked around while Megumi's hands were on his chest, staring without a move. he could feel it—
how their hearts pounding from being so close
how Gojo's eyes were shaking with excitement
how their hot breaths mingled, and they didn't even realize how close they were.
Megumi had his eyes closed, finally, waiting for something to change that night, however upon hearing footsteps and Gojo's retreat, Megumi was jolted back to reality, quite bewildered. this led to his remaining silent until he reached his room.
"you did a good job today Megumi, it's time to rest."
Megumi said nothing. honestly, he was tired. very tired. but not from the mission! just how long was this farce going to go on? before Gojo headed towards the door, he raised his head and wrapped his hand around Gojo's wrist. Megumi guided the old man close, then backed them both up till he was against the wall, with Gojo pressed up against him.
Gojo didn't say anything, nor did he protest, he just stared at his lips and Megumi could tell that he was tired too. slowly raising his hand, he slipped his finger under Gojo's blindfold, and a few moments later, Megumi was staring at his eyes, a starry blue sky that he wanted to get lost in.
maybe it was because of the darkness that he felt more courageous than before, the thought that there was no one to see or judge, that now you are in my arms, so it's enough, that "i'm tired of staying on the other side of that invisible line"
Gojo placed his hand around Megumi's waist and lowered his head, but not too much, just close enough so he could feel Megumi more, to feel the warmth of his body, something that he didn't know was pushing Megumi to his break point.
the two of them were alone
no one was there
no one could see
Megumi didn't know. he couldn't understand.
why was Gojo so afraid?
why after all this time he still wasn't sure about him??
Megumi took a shaky breath and stepped forward. he stood on his tiptoes until he reached Gojo's height and a few moments later, his lips were on Gojo's.
time stood still. as if they both momentarily had forgotten to breathe. Megumi moved his lips to feel Gojo better, and a tear slid down his cheek. he was scared. Megumi knew the feeling between them was not normal. but he wondered if Gojo was willing to cross this line as well?
feeling Gojo's lips move, continuing the kiss, a sigh of relief escaped him and grabbed Gojo's clothes. he stood comfortably on his feet so that Gojo could lean towards him. Gojo placed his hand on Megumi's cheek and wiped away the tear marks while kissing him, making Megumi open his lips a little wider to feel Gojo better.
and God, the way Gojo was kissing him...
slow and long...
after a few minutes, they both slowly pulled back. Gojo was running his thumb over his cheek and his gaze had a special glow of pleasure and calm. something that was in stark contrast to their darkness for some reason.
he wanted to move his head away to get a better look at Gojo's face, but before he could fully do so, Gojo grabbed him by the waist, pushed him back against the wall and pulled Megumi's lip between his, starting a deep kiss. a kiss that took away all of Megumi's fear.
Megumi placed his hand at the nape of Gojo's neck, running it through his hair, as Gojo pulled Megumi even closer. Megumi opened his mouth at the feeling of Gojo's tongue on his lips and Gojo pushed his tongue into his mouth. Megumi shivered and Gojo wanted to feel him more. it made the kiss that he thought was going to be soft turn into a very deep and erotic one so that a few minutes later he pulled Megumi's tongue into his mouth and sucked it so hard that Megumi's moan was muffled in his mouth!
Gojo pulled Megumi's lips into his mouth once more, Megumi licked Gojo's lower lip and Gojo continued the kiss by playing with Megumi's tongue between his lips and then taking Megumi's lips between his again.
it was getting out of their control
they both knew it
and they just couldn't help it
not even when Megumi moaned in pain from the bite on his lip
or when Gojo slid his hand down to Megumi's waist, over her hips and thighs, gripping tightly, pulling him as close as he could
the moment they realized everything was out of their control only made Megumi kiss Gojo's lips again and Gojo held Megumi tighter.
they didn't know how much time had passed
but Gojo didn't want to back down
not now that it seemed like he had finally tasted the forbidden sweet he had been wanting to try for so long.
but wasn't it too much for Megumi?
with a heavy heart, he kissed Megumi one last time, soft and gentle, lingering for a moment before pulling away. Megumi placed his trembling hand on Gojo's arm and stared at the thin trace that still held their lips connected. he didn't realize how his whole body was trembling in Gojo's hands, and how Gojo was trying to keep himself calm.
they were both panting, slowly, Megumi's lips were completely red and swollen, causing Gojo to rub his thumb over him thinking how much he wanted to stick his finger in his mouth. "next time."
"i'm sorry if i... made you wait so long..."
Megumi smiled "you should've known, Gojo Satoru, that there's only one person for me, and it's you!"
and what more could Gojo want? more than the boy in his arms? before Megumi could realize the lump in his throat, he buried his head in Megumi's neck and took a deep breath as he hugged him. unaware that Megumi had seen the spark of tears in his eyes already. he wrapped his arms around Gojo's neck, and a tear slipped down his cheek instead.
it all began that night, with a silent promise sealed by a kiss
kisses that no one should see
things that no one should know
words no one should hear
everything without determining their relationship! about exactly what they are. Megumi thought there was so much time for it, maybe Gojo thought the same.
"After this mission..."
"After the meeting..."
"After class..."
"After Gojo came back from the mission..."
"After we came back from Shibuya..."
"After..."
Megumi rested his head on his knees, listening to the crackling fire and the chilly wind. it appears snow is on its way.
he couldn't cry. he just couldn't, now wasn't the time.
but when no one was watching, he missed him more.
the warmth of the body he was afraid to forget.
"After cullin game..."