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You look at the brilliant crimson droplets hitting the white tile of the bathroom. It becomes a beautiful pattern of spatters as more and more blood hits the floor.
Why do I do this to myself?
You wonder for what must be the millionth time. You know you're right though, this will cause some trouble tomorrow. You have PE and even though you do have a long sleeved shirt for PE, it'll be hard not reopening the new ones. Plus changing from shirt to shirt will be problematic as well.......... Not to mention the fact that eventually you're going to run out of clean long sleeved shirts, what'll you do then? Blame it on your nonexistent pet? What little friends you do have will probably know you're doing it again, considering they think you've stopped.
What if they catch you again?
Highly unlikely. You're actually smarter than your depression will let you give yourself credit for and you know that. I guess I'll have to play the only somewhat believable card left, a bike crash.
When there are perfectly parallel cuts on your arm?
Ok you'll admit it's not that believable. I guess you'll just have to ride out tomorrow as it happens, even though this is the one thing you'll plan ahead for. You hate not being able to plan almost as much as those idiots at school.
Ugh. Don't remind me.
You think as you audibly groan. You look down at your dominate arm and think of the few friends you do have. It's free of scars because you've found its too much work to worry about cutting too deep with your non dominate hand, but it does have a single, lonely butterfly that had just started to fade. Ever since you found that stupid page on Pinterest and your friends saw it over your shoulder they continuously drew them on your arm ever since. Why do they care anyway? They're just gonna leave you in the end, like everyone else you've ever made the mistake to let in. You sigh again audibly. You have at least an hour before your mom gets back, you'd better clean up the mess before the blood dries. You find the alcohol you keep in a drawer in your bathroom and put some on a paper towel and get to scrubbing.