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”Nam-Gyu!” 

a voice called over, as Nam-Gyu shifted in the direction of the voice, his eyes coming in contact with a pair of brighter eyes.

“Gyeong-Su,” he said a few moments after, watching closely as the other made it over to where he stood.

”Hi Gyeong-Su.” A more stern voice interrupted, as Nam-Gyu tilted his head to catch Se-Mi and Min-Su both with the corner of his eye. 

the shorter male was sort of hiding behind the girl, his hand intertwined with her’s as she stood with her free hand resting against her hip, she wore a pair of sun glasses which matched her piercing.

Gyeong-Su only smiled and waved towards the others, before returning his gaze back to Nam-Gyu’s.

“When’d you two get here?” He asked a narrow glance following.

Se-Mi only smiled and adjusted the hand against her hip, “not too long ago, speaking of getting here…” she paused her gaze looking over at the small group, as if head counting.

”where’s Thanos?” She finally asked as Nam-Gyu just scoffed and crossed his arms.

”probably signing some fan stuff,” he said a annoyed sigh finishing his thoughts as he heard Gyeong-Su shift closer.

“Anyway what’s up with Min-Su?” Nam-Gyu asked pointing a finger towards Min-Su which made him flinch a bit, it’s almost laughable how much Min-Su would flinch at just Nam-Gyu’s gaze alone.

Se-Mi only sent him an ugly look after that before opening her mouth, “Nothing.” She said with a tenser tone that Nam-Gyu couldn’t care less about.

Gyeong-Su noticing the upcoming insults and tension just smiled awkwardly, “Ok! Let’s get going to that Café huh?” He gleamed trying to stir the fire away.

”yeah, we should.” Min-Su’s quieter voice agreed, which made Nam-Gyu just tilt a look at him, dropping his hand back to cross his chest.

He watched Min-Su scrunch up at the look, and Nam-Gyu just wanted to laugh at the other, but stopped himself when he watched Se-Mi send him a glare while squeezing Min-Su’s hand more. Nam-Gyu only set his hands up in a mock surrender before dropping them again with a gentle sigh leaving his lips, he was not going to ruin the afternoon by nitpicking Min-Su apart.

”where’s it again?” Se-Mi finally asked, her head tilting softly in Min-Su’s direction where he just gently smiled and moved to pull his phone out his pocket, his hands and eyes scanning his screen as he typed something up.

”should be down the street” he said moving his attention from his phone.

“Then let’s go!” Gyeong-Su beamed, his bright smile becoming overwhelming as Nam-Gyu just pinched his nose bridge lightly.

Se-Mi seemed to notice as she sent him a look that Nam-Gyu ignored, cause he knows she gets his feelings more than anyone. Even if he doesn’t want her too.

but she didn’t push as she let Min-Su basically drag her off, even though all of them know Min-Su is too timid to do that.

Gyeong-Su only watched them slightly as he turned his attention to Nam-Gyu, watching him softly as the other noticed him.

”what? I got something on my face?” Nam-Gyu asked with an annoyed expression coming over his face.

He watched as Gyeong-Su’s expression shifted from gentle smile to a more widen look, “No, I-I just-Uh! let’s go!” He stammered, his words fumbling as he turned away quickly and began speed walking off to catch up with Min-Su and Se-Mi, his hands going up in a wave as Min-Su turned his head back to look at Gyeong-Su.

Nam-Gyu could only watch, his eyes watching closely on the way Gyeong-Su moved, he felt the small grin reach his lips as he moved his hand to tuck a strand of hair behind his ear.

“What a fucking loser.” He muttered to himself.

Stepping into the small Café, Nam-Gyu was immediately taken back by the crowd of people in the place, tables filled to the brims and chairs cluttered around with bodies and the sound of music playing faintly in the background.

it reeked of a harsh cinnamon scent, it was overwhelming considering it was mixed with his own cologne and that god awful fruity shampoo Gyeong-Su likes.

he only squinted his eyes, narrowing down on the menu as he heard the muffled sounds of talking next to him.

”me and Se-Mi will try to find a table, you and Nam-Gyu can get your stuff first.” Min-Su’s voice spoke soft yet loud enough to hear over everyone and everything.

Gyeong-Su smiled softly, “Ok!” His smile could be felt when Nam-Gyu turned to look at him, Gyeong-Su following soon after waving off Se-Mi and Min-Su.

his eyes immediately caught Gyeong-Su’s, Gyeong-Su’s doe like eyes, they just stood there, just staring as if there was no words to say.

”wanna hurry? Se-Mi definitely won’t like if we take too long,” Gyeong-Su spoke up, a little bit of his hair falling down to cover his nose, it looked utterly stupid.

”yeah.” Nam-Gyu replied, shutting down his thoughts quickly.

Gyeong-Su only nodded in return, and turned his body away as Nam-Gyu shortly followed suit, they both didn’t say anything as they walked to the counter where a cluster of people behind the counter worked, the sounds of fumbling and running, the squeaks of shoes and other items hitting each other made Nam-Gyu grimace, it sounded so lively and honestly? It looked like hell to be doing.

he turned his head to the side to catch Gyeong-Su patiently waiting by the counter, his hands resting on the smooth surface, a finger tapping to a rhythm, that Nam-Gyu couldn’t hear but he assumed it was the song playing in the background.

Nam-Gyu kept staring, his eyes tracing curves and lines on Gyeong-Su’s face, and the more he stared the more Gyeong-Su’s face glowed in the light, god the way the sun beamed down onto him from the window just looked breathtaking, but Nam-Gyu kept that to himself, cause fuck saying that gay shit out loud.

”hi! Sorry for the wait,” a sudden voice bursted Nam-Gyu’s thoughts as he turned his head back to face the worker.

Gyeong-Su only smiled and waved a dismissive hand to show the worker he didn’t mind, to which the barista smiled at and nodded quickly before clearing his throat.

”Again so sorry, but what can I get you two today?” The guy asked, as Gyeong-Su shifted his attention to the menu.

Nam-Gyu already knew he didn’t want a drink, and the clutter of pastries looked half-decent, but he couldn’t go wrong with a simple croissant.

“I’d like a croissant” Nam-Gyu said first as the barista smiled at him and quickly typed it into his tablet.

”and you?” The worker then turned to Gyeong-Su who was still staring at the menu, but snapped his attention to the barista soon after hearing him speak to him.

”oh! Uh, a small latte would be fine” Gyeong-Su said with a warm smile as the worker just nodded and tapped it into his tablet.

”ok, it won’t be long if you two don’t mind?” The worker said with a laugh that Gyeong-Su followed with before saying “ok,”.

Nam-Gyu then turned to pull his wallet out when Gyeong-Su quickly typed into the card reader, a gesture Nam-Gyu just stared at. But before he could even say anything about it Gyeong-Su was moving off the counter to try and find Se-Mi and Min-Su.

And Nam-Gyu just followed him closely behind, just so he wouldn’t get lost, his hands ghosting the fabric of Gyeong-Su’s leather jacket as Nam-Gyu just walked behind the taller man.

they moved through the small Café quickly as Gyeong-Su spotted Min-Su near a small window that had the best view of the city from it, Se-Mi sat right next to Min-Su her arm resting against his as they sat close with Min-Su’s phone between them as if they where scrolling through somethings.

Nam-Gyu just rolled his eyes, he was sick of the affection spilling off the two it was honestly sickening how soft they where with one another, but Gyeong-Su seemed completely unfazed, his expression still a bright soft one as he made his way over with Nam-Gyu not even a bit behind.

”Whatcha two up too?” Gyeong-Su asked a teasing tone lingering over the words as Min-Su looked at him with a soft smile.

”just looking at instagram stuff, Thanos posted some photos from a thing he’s doing.” Min-Su said moving his phone to show the others.

Nam-Gyu quickly caught onto the photo, Thanos’s bright purple hair sticking out compared to the rest, his narrow cat like eyes filled with excitement as he had a arm slung over Mi-Na’s shoulders, her eyes soft and affectionate as she stared up at him.

it made him feel sick, but he didn’t say anything and just tensed his smile as Gyeong-Su just looked closer.

”oh did he finally get with Mi-Na? Guy’s been raving about her, right Nam-Gyu?” He said with a chuckle, his elbow poking at Nam-Gyu lightly, the contact making Nam-Gyu blink and turn his attention to Gyeong-Su.

”yeah.” He replied as Gyeong-Su stared at him, the same soft look lingering over his expression.

Gyeong-Su then turned his gaze over to Min-Su and Se-Mi who seemed to have went back to scrolling as they shared the phone between them.

”seem’s like it,” Se-Mi said with a grin as she turned her attention away from the phone to stare at Gyeong-Su and Nam-Gyu.

”that’s great.” Nam-Gyu gritted between his teeth, his lips falling flat as he looked at Se-Mi her lips now losing that grin as she looked at him back, a mutual expression shared between them.

Gyeong-Su then sighed and flopped down in the open seat closet to the window, his arms going to rest on the shiny table as he watched Nam-Gyu closely.

“Standing must be tiring” he joked as Nam-Gyu just scoffed and took the empty seat.

Taking the seat Nam-Gyu instantly let out a breath and took his phone out, his attention shifted to the way he lingered his eyes over the screen, before hesitating and just staring down the instagram app, but he just sighed and opened it, his eyes immediately meeting the same exact photo.

He stared at it more and more, before shifting his gaze to the caption, “me and my senorita @Kang_Mina 💜” he just stared at it, reading it as he blocked out the world around him.

he seemed to be so stuck that he didn’t notice when Se-Mi and Min-Su left to get something or when Gyeong-Su happily thanked someone for something, and or when the sudden warmth hit his face meaning something was placed in front of him.

”Hey? You good.” Gyeong-Su’s voice ripped through his thoughts as he quickly placed his phone down, face down and shifted his face to stare at the other.

“Yeah, im fine.” He mumbled rubbing a tired hand over his face before dropping the hand near his plate where a fresh croissant rested.

he sort of looked at it for a minute before picking it up and taking a bite from it, the warmth immediately coming through, the softness of the croissant was perfect and the soft crunch made him sigh happily as he swallowed the bite and let out a breath he barely noticed he was holding.

”it’s that good huh?” Gyeong-Su joked, his eyes staring at Nam-Gyu softly, a raised eye brow teasing him as he just shrugged him off.

”very.” He replied before quickly scarfing down the rest of his croissant.

When he finished he looked over at Gyeong-Su who was sipping his latte as he stared out the window, the glow from the window beaming down on him, enlightening the most outstanding parts of Gyeong-Su.

His brown eyes glimmering underneath the soft sunlight, and Nam-Gyu felt stuck staring as he just stared without much notice, his eyes glued on how Gyeong-Su looked underneath the light.

“Ow!” Gyeong-Su quickly quipped, pulling the cup away from his lips and as he placed it down he shifted his tongue to stick a bit out his mouth.

Nam-Gyu continued to stare at him but now with a sudden confusion as he just watched Gyeong-Su, and well Gyeong-Su must have noticed him cause their eyes met suddenly and Gyeong-Su just let out a breathless chuckle.

”sorry burnt my tongue” he said as un muffled he could with his tongue out of his mouth.

And before Nam-Gyu could say or do anything he quickly pulled his tongue back into his mouth and just leaned against his chair, his head moving back.

oh? Nam-Gyu thought as he watched Gyeong-Su sit like that for a minute before shooting back up and turning in his chair bit to catch Min-Su and Se-Mi.

the pair was walking back together, a muffin in Min-Su’s left hand while Se-Mi held a small paper cup in her right hand, and between them was their intertwined hands.

Gyeong-Su then turned back towards the table when the others made it back, before quickly taking back their seats and becoming comfortable in the limited space.

”so? What’s everyone doing after this?” Gyeong-Su asked one of his hands messing around with his empty latte cup while his free one rested near the cup.

”probably gonna watch a movie back at home.” Se-Mi replied with a small nudge that made Min-Su look up and nod of agreement with.

Gyeong-Su then turned to Nam-Gyu who just stared back.

”nothing probably, but I don’t exactly want to head home.” He mumbled a tired groan leaving his lips as he waved a hand in front of him.

his words seemed to enlighten a idea in Gyeong-Su’s mind as he sent Nam-Gyu a bright eyed look.

”Hey! What about me and you go to my place?” Gyeong-Su asked with a smile that Nam-Gyu stared at.

”oh? And do what.” He asked with an uneasy look that Gyeong-Su brushed off.

”we could watch something,” Gyeong-Su said casually as he looked at Nam-Gyu with a look.

”watch something.” Nam-Gyu repeated an unimpressed expression sitting on his face.

Gyeong-Su then shrugged and smiled a bright smile, “or we can go to that one place you like?” He added with a slight shift in his tone.

”we could,” Nam-Gyu replied a narrow gaze following Gyeong-Su as he turned away to smile at Min-Su who was crumping up his muffin wrapper.

the sun still beamed from the window as Se-Mi sighed and stood up with a stretch, “ok then, you two do what you tweakers do, me and Min-Su are off.” She said before grabbing Min-Su’s hand and turning off, a quick wave being lifted as she and Min-Su drifted off and out the door.

“What a bitch.” Nam-Gyu grumbled underneath his breath as he placed his phone back into his pocket, and after doing that he quickly crossed them and sighed, his eyes catching Gyeong-Su who was standing up.

”so, you taking my offer?” Gyeong-Su asked with a lopsided smile.

Nam-Gyu just sighed and uncrossed his arms, “sure, where too.”

The words lingered in the air as Gyeong-Su shrugged and moved to start walking out the Café, Nam-Gyu following him from the side, their shoulders barely touching as Gyeong-Su just thought.

”what about a book store?”

Nam-Gyu didn’t reply and just nodded before shifting the door open for him and Gyeong-Su.

”sure.”

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-TIME SKIP-

Nam-Gyu stretched a hand over his head as he walked with Gyeong-Su, they had went to a book store, then walked into a candle shop because Gyeong-Su said “it’s fun!”, they also ended up in a pet shop. Nam-Gyu wasn’t too amused at the sight of the other happily smiling and giggling at the fish that couldn’t do anything back but stare and swim around mindlessly.

While they had fun, Gyeong-Su was a bit upset when they left without a fish because Nam-Gyu slapped his hand and had to drag him out the store with a narrowed look.

Nam-Gyu was a bit tired and was definitely not up for anything else as he watched Gyeong-Su bounce around like a little boy on Christmas, his bright eyed stare gleaming onto every stores window as he pointed and sometimes talked about the items, Nam-Gyu wishes he could be so as well, but he was never one for window shopping or whatever it was called.

”You done yet.” He muttered stifling a yawn as Gyeong-Su nodded.

”definitely, kinda surprised you didn’t find a book,” he replied as Nam-Gyu just shrugged, dropping his arm and letting them rest against his sides.

”nothing peaked my interest.” He noted as Gyeong-Su just turned his attention towards the street lights.

“That’s concerning,” Gyeong-Su said with a small laugh, Nam-Gyu didn’t say anything back as he just rolled his eyes and turned his attention away from Gyeong-Su.

And then they finally stopped roaming and began wandering back to Gyeong-Su’s apartment complex Nam-Gyu felt his hands get colder, so he quickly stuffed them into his sweaters sleeves and kept walking, he was sure Gyeong-Su noticed but didn’t say anything as they kept walking, but he did hear a slight chuckle leave Gyeong-Su’s lips.

When they finally made it to the complex Gyeong-Su became a gentleman and held the door for Nam-Gyu who just thanked him silently, they then proceeded to talk and walk with small pauses, they had then walked all the way to the 3rd floor with-out speaking. It made Nam-Gyu’s feet hurt like a bitch because the complex’s elevator broke but he didn’t say anything.

”God, your couch better be fucking comfortable.” Nam-Gyu groaned as he dropped his hand to look at Gyeong-Su who had a hand covering his mouth, a yawn being dragged out.

”why? You gonna take my bed if it isn’t?” Gyeong-Su joked back, his eyes catching Nam-Gyu’s from the corner of his own.

”no shit.” He shot back as Gyeong-Su just laughed and turned to open his door.

“Ok,” The other replied with, as he pushed his door open for Nam-Gyu who only walked in.

his body immediately being hit by the intense heat that the apartment held, he shrugged it off and sighed, before turning around to stare at Gyeong-Su who was closing and locking his door, a small click being heard as he turned to find Nam-Gyu looking at him.

”something wrong?” He asked with an innocent smile resting on his lips.

“It’s hot as hell in here, you know that.” He said watching Gyeong-Su turn around with a small shrug as he started taking off the leather jacket he had on off.

Nam-Gyu didn’t want to admit but he felt himself watch, his eyes following how the jacket dipped off his shoulder, clearing a little view of his neck, the skin that wasn’t covered by Gyeong-Su’s low v-neck shirt making Nam-Gyu stare more, he silently followed the way Gyeong-Su shrugged off the jacket before pulling it completely off and hanging it on his door.

Gyeong-Su’s head than started twisting a bit so he could see Nam-Gyu, his eyes were narrow as if examining the other and Gyeong-Su’s had a soft kiss to them, a look Nam-Gyu wasn’t exactly opposed to.

”yeah, but I can’t complain when it’s cold as fuck outside.” Gyeong-Su chuckled, his body turning so he was completely facing Nam-Gyu.

Their gazes caught each others as Nam-Gyu just nodded in agreement, before turning around and leaning down to take his shoes off, he heard Gyeong-Su kick his offs, the soft thud they made against the floor made Nam-Gyu sigh as he finally got his off.

Gyeong-Su then walked past him, his hands placed on the back of his head as he walked towards his couch, his head bobbing to a rhythm he probably made up on the spot.

Nam-Gyu wanted to laugh at how stupid he looked but opted on just shaking his head and following the other, before reaching the couch Gyeong-Su dropped down, his body dipping into the couch as he rested on the soft pillows his arm drape over the back as Nam-Gyu just rolled his eyes and dropped himself on the couch, leaving a decently arm spaced length between them.

”whatcha feeling?” Gyeong-Su’s voice asked as he turned his head to look at the other.

Nam-Gyu just gave him a tilted expression and crossed his arms, his hands still engulfed in his sweater, “I don’t have any idea, why don’t you just throw something on.” He said dropping his head to rest against the back of the couch.

”ok, but don’t complain when it’s something completely boring!” Gyeong-Su said with a grin as he picked up his remote and began looking through his apps.

Nam-Gyu just shifted his attention from the TV to his hands, where nothing rested but the fabric of his sweater, it was boring to say the least, but he couldn’t complain..it was nice being in the presence of another who isn’t too overly stupid and energetic like Thanos, oh he thought dropping his thoughts and letting out a breath, yeah it’s not the time to think about him, Nam-Gyu muttered to himself as he looked back up to see Gyeong-Su land on a movie called “50 first dates.”.

the movie didn’t seem half bad, but the idea of a romantic comedy being something he was watching made him look at Gyeong-Su with a lifted eyebrow.

Gyeong-Su only looked back with a smile that made Nam-Gyu pause, “no complaining, the movie is good!” The other said smiling as he shifted in his position, moving a bit so his arms now laid in his lap.

And Nam-Gyu just nodded and turned his attention to the screen, where the movie started up.

it took a few minutes but Nam-Gyu began feeling his eyes closing, fluttering every few seconds as he tried watching the movie, but definitely lost interest after the opening sequence began, but on the other hand, Gyeong-Su seemed fully awake, he eyes opened and attention focused on the movie, his body sat straight unlike Nam-Gyu’s that was now shifted to the side, like he was leaning against nothing, his head also bobbled a bit as he struggled to keep his eyes from closing sometimes.

he could hear the movie, it was muffled and he definitely couldn’t tell what was going on at the moment, he could also hear Gyeong-Su softly humming along to the song the movie was playing, the soft hums filled Nam-Gyu’s head as he turned his head to the side, his eyes now staring at Gyeong-Su, his eyes still completely glued to the screen.

he looked in Nam-Gyu’s own words, “like a fucking idiot.” But definitely not in a bad way, more in a way of how someone would tease another.

Nam-Gyu felt so lost in his tired thoughts that he couldn’t realize when he shifted closer to Gyeong-Su, his body heat ghosting Nam-Gyu’s own body as he tried to keep a straight head, his hands shaking as he gripped onto the fabric covering them without a second thought.

“You ok?” Gyeong-Su’s voice asked, it was loud..louder than expected as Nam-Gyu’s own tired filled eyes widened and he blinked.

”yeah.” He replied turning his attention to the screen where a mess of colors appeared, maybe he was too tired for this shit.

”ok, if you’re tired though just tell me,” the other said as he turned his head to face Nam-Gyu, noticing how sluggish Nam-Gyu looked, how Nam-Gyu had squinted eyes staring at the screen and how much he dipped into the cushions.

Nam-Gyu didn’t reply to that as he just nodded slightly, bringing a hand to rub against his face before dropping it, Gyeong-Su saw the way the sweater was pulled over the others fingers and wondered if Nam-Gyu was cold, but he didn’t react to it as he turned back to the movie.

and they sat like this for a moment, Gyeong-Su trying to ignore Nam-Gyu who was shifted closer to him, ignoring how Nam-Gyu’s hands rested in his lap, his hands fidgeting with the sweater that covered them, and he also tried to ignore how Nam-Gyu was barely touching him.

”Gyeong-Su…” a tired filled voice snapped Gyeong-Su out as he turned his head quickly to Nam-Gyu.

”yeah?”

”im tired as a fuck. How are you still functioning.” Nam-Gyu tirelessly mumbled, his head dropping to rest against Gyeong-Su’s shoulder.

Gyeong-Su straightened up immediately at the touch, his eyes widening as he looked down to see Nam-Gyu’s slicked black hair against his shoulder.

he swallowed a small pause in his throat before pulling himself back.

“Good question.” He murmured as he shifted to try and make it more comfortable for the other who was now staring at him as much as he could.

But Nam-Gyu didn’t say anything, his eyes lidded and tired looking, he looked absolutely exhausted but still had the same narrow and sharp eyes that he always has.

”I can turn the film off, and let you-“ 

“shut the fuck up.”

Gyeong-Su froze, his eyes now looking at Nam-Gyu’s which were staring directly at him, a glint glistening in them as Gyeong-Su just swallowed his words.

”but actually turn off the film, its fucking annoying.” Nam-Gyu murmured his voice lacing with sleep as he tried to keep his full attention on Gyeong-Su.

”yeah ok.” The taller male sighed, turning his head to the tv his hand reaching out for the remote, and when he grabbed it he quickly shut off the tv, a soft click sound coming from it before the room became engulfed in sudden darkness that was mixed with the soft light from Gyeong-Su’s kitchen.

And after shutting the tv off Gyeong-Su had shifted back a bit, his body dripping into the couch more as he felt Nam-Gyu drag a clothed hand over his arm before resting it right above the wrist. The softness from the fabric making Gyeong-Su feel warm, and the way the warmth dipped into heart caused him to look at Nam-Gyu.

Nam-Gyu’s face was softened, he looked absolutely stunning underneath the warm light from the light, he realized how his eyes now became fully closed, a loose strand of hair now draped over his eye.

Gyeong-Su felt tempted to tuck it behind his ear, he just kept staring at the softness of Nam-Gyu’s features, how he looked so peaceful, a steady breathing coming from the shorter male’s body, and Gyeong-Su could only stare, watching how Nam-Gyu’s body rested, how the head rested against his shoulder moved slightly with every small gesture from Nam-Gyu.

But the single strand of hair made Gyeong-Su fight himself, his hand moving up slowly and with his steady hand he moved it against Nam-Gyu’s cheek, the gesture making Nam-Gyu lean into the touch as Gyeong-Su just reached out his fingers, his fingertips touching Nam-Gyu’s cheek and becoming slightly tangled with the hair as he began moving his hand, brushing it against the skin as he slowly tucked it behind Nam-Gyu’s ear.

when he was done he pulled his hand back and slowly dropped it, his eyes stuck on Nam-Gyu’s face, the way his hair stuck to his shoulder and out in some way, he looked at how soft the others expression looked compared to his normal expression.

“God.” He mumbled underneath his breath silently as he looked away from Nam-Gyu.

Biting the inside of his cheeks, Gyeong-Su lifted his free hand into his hair, his fingers becoming tangled in his hair as he began moving his hand through the hair with a gentle touch.

”I wonder about you sometimes.” He muttered softly to Nam-Gyu who slept peacefully against Gyeong-Su’s shoulder.

his face pressed into it softly as his hair covered his face where it was pressed into the shoulder, his expression was tired yet soft, as the steady breathes confirmed to Gyeong-Su that Nam-Gyu was in-fact asleep.

Gyeong-Su wasn’t in the most comfortable position but he wasn’t going to try and move…at least not yet as he stayed there silently, he couldn’t do much without moving but turn his attention away from Nam-Gyu and onto the ceiling where he wondered.

Has Nam-Gyu always been so clingy?

the question lingered in his head as he kept looking at the empty space of the ceiling before feeling a heavy drop to his eyes, his eyes now becoming heavy as he turned his head against the back of the cushion, where he could feel Nam-Gyu’s hair barely touching his face.

he dropped his hand from his hair as he kept staring to his side, his eyes lidded and tired as he just let out a breath.

And he turned away from it and back to staring straight up at the ceiling as he yawned and felt his eyes flutter, a little tired smiling lifting on his lips as he felt his eyes close.

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Nam-Gyu shifted in his sleep, his head resting against something firm yet warm..it felt uncomfortable but not too bad as he let out a breath and slowly blinked his eyes open.

he could feel a faint beat of a heart as he tried to get his eyes open, opening them he could see the blurry image of a body, more so a white, low v-neck shirt.

wait.

he paused his eyes clearing more as he lifted his gaze as much as he could still resting his head down, his eyes catching the glimpse of a very peaceful sleeping Gyeong-Su, his face resting against the end of the couch, his cheek pressed into the cushion as he slept, one arm resting off the edge and the other…Nam-Gyu blinked trying to figure out everything when he felt a sudden shift of something on his back.

a gentle hand moving a bit up his spine, sending a shiver through Nam-Gyu’s body as he just stayed put, his mind was still a bit tired, and the warmth radiating off of Gyeong-Su definitely was tempting to just keep enjoying, as it was perfect for a much needed sleep.

but he couldn’t just take what was given to him, as his eyes slowly opened and he quickly felt his hands tighten against the fabric of Gyeong-Su’s shirt, and before he could think twice or even think at all he quietly shoved himself up and he let go of the fabric softly, he could feel the arm against his back slid down his back and land right around his hip, it sent a feeling to his chest that he brushed off, feeling the pressure from his hold lessen as he turned his head to look at the tv which was off, but the sun from the window gleamed from it as Nam-Gyu just sighed and dropped his head a bit, it dipping down and close to Gyeong-Su’s.

Nam-Gyu then lifted his gaze to look at Gyeong-Su’s sleeping features, he definitely looked more peaceful, less energy fueled and definitely less aware.

he almost laughed at the fact the other was drooling and murmuring somethings in his sleep, very inaudible things but still things, it was kind of…cute? In Nam-Gyu’s own mind.

he could feel the arm around his back shift a bit before stopping, making Nam-Gyu just stare at Gyeong-Su, meeting no wide eyes because they where currently closed.

”you’re so fucking stupid.” He whispered as a little chuckle left his lips, he was assured Gyeong-Su was asleep as he sighed and looked around to see if there was anyway for him to leave without waking the other.

”you say that all the time.”

Nam-Gyu’s eyes widened quickly as he slowly twisted his head to look back at where Gyeong-Su’s face was, the tired voice snapped him straight from his thoughts as he screamed and without any hesitation or thought behind the action, gripped onto Gyeong-Su or the closest thing to his hands and quickly rolled off the couch. To which he succeeded as he and Gyeong-Su rolled off together.

and not even a second later they where on the ground, the impact was rough and the thud their bodies made from falling off the couch must have been loud enough for weird looks, but most importantly it had flipped them over.

Nam-Gyu only swallowed a caught breath as he winced and tried to move a hand to hold onto his hair and to hold his head up, his head was pounding now, it hurt like a bitch and he could basically hear colors, as a slight ring lingered into his ears.

his eyes were still screwed shut from pain as he let out a small sound of pain and after letting it out he slowly began opening his eyes, his right one opening first and when it did he immediately caught onto Gyeong-Su’s worried face.

the wide eyes staring at him with downright concern as he slowly turned his attention to the sides of his face where Gyeong-Su’s elbows rested, and he was holding himself up using the plank.

”that hurt you know.” Gyeong-Su finally said breaking the silence as Nam-Gyu opened his other eye and looked directly at him.

”no shit.”

Gyeong-Su only stared at him disappointed, his eyes still laced with the concern that Nam-Gyu was not used too.

He was left utterly stupid underneath Gyeong-Su like this, but it didn’t matter much as the other just let out a tired breath and shifted back, moving back so his body was away from Nam-Gyu’s, his arm moving to his side, and his face now completely away from Nam-Gyu’s.

Nam-Gyu watched carefully as Gyeong-Su pulled himself off the floor, his body now knelling over Nam-Gyu’s as he just laid stupidly unmoved, he felt his face warm at how Gyeong-Su looked, his hair was messy and ruffled and he was currently stretching his hands over his head, which lifted his shirt a tad bit above his stomach which gave Nam-Gyu a fairly decent look at the skin.

it sent a flush to his face as he just blinked and shoved his gaze to the side, his eyes now looking at the couch he had fallen off of.

He didn’t say much as Gyeong-Su got off the ground, running a hand though his hair before glancing at him.

”you gonna get up dude?” Gyeong-Su asked his voice edged a laugh as Nam-Gyu just scoffed, he could hear Gyeong-Su’s foot steps walk away as he just stayed on the ground.

”yeah.” He mumbled back after a moment dragging a much needed hand over his face.

he then dropped it and shoved himself onto his shoulders, letting out a dragged breath he pulled himself fully off the ground, once finding his footing he just looked forward, staring out the window into the soft sunlight of the morning, he then shoved his hands into his pants pockets and turned around to find Gyeong-Su wandering in the kitchen.

He looked a bit confused as he opened a cabinet to pull a small bowl out and place it on the counter, he then quickly opened a smaller drawer to grab a spoon, as he turned around to drop it into the glass bowl, it made a sound that was very annoying to Nam-Gyu but he didn’t say anything as he watched Gyeong-Su lift his gaze to catch Nam-Gyu.

”you hungry? I might have some cereal lying around.” He said casually lifting the empty bowl to Nam-Gyu.

”really?” He replied with a grimace, his face dropping into an uneven expression.

”what you too good for a bowl of cereal?”

”no, it’s just we could probably make a better breakfast with whatever you got in the cabinet.” 

Gyeong-Su raised an eyebrow at him, a very amused expression lingering on him as Nam-Gyu just stared back.

”wanna prove that?”

Nam-Gyu thought for a second before sighing and pushing himself past the couch and walked towards the small kitchen where he stopped right behind the small ledge that separates the front-room and kitchen.

he leaned against it, his arms folded in-front of him as he stared at Gyeong-Su who placed his bowl down and just crossed his arms.

”yeah, got any flour?”

”I should, whatcha thinking of anyway?” He replied with as he uncrossed his arms to turn around and open a cabinet where he began looking through the stuff.

“Pancakes and maybe some bacon or whatever basic shit people eat for breakfast.” He joked.

Gyeong-Su then pulled a bag of flour out of his cabinet he placed it on the counter below the cabinet before continuing to rummage through it for whatever else was needed.

”ah, so a classic movie breakfast.”

”I guess.”

then Gyeong-Su pulled out a small bottle of vanilla extract from the cabinet, he placed it near the flour and closed the cabinet.

”you could help me look, Im pretty sure you have a recipe in mind if you’re asking or offering.” Gyeong-Su said turning around to look at Nam-Gyu who just pushed off the counter to make his way into the smaller kitchen.

”yeah yeah.”

so he moved himself into the kitchen, watching Gyeong-Su move a bit to make room as he immediately went into another cabinet, pulling out a larger mixing bowl and a fairly big frying pan that he placed onto the stovetop and closed the cabinet, Nam-Gyu was thankful he wasn’t looking for dishes cause he’d definitely not find shit.

”where’s your sugar?” He asked quietly sliding a small hand over the smooth surface of the counter.

Gyeong-Su tilted his head to look at Nam-Gyu over his shoulder, “check that cabinet, most of my dry stuff is in there normally.” He said pointing to the cabinet above Nam-Gyu.

”Alright.” He replied opening the cabinet and quickly beginning to move stuff and dig around for the sugar.

he then spotted the small bag of sugar behind a bag of powdered sugar, “bingo.” He whispered grabbing both and securely pressing them against his chest as he turned and placed them onto the counter that held everything they needed, he did notice the lack of wet ingredients as he sighed and turned towards the fridge.

opening it he noticed the lack of things in Gyeong-Su’s fridge, he had the basics like milk, eggs and some butter lying around, he also had a beverage he liked lying in the back near a basically empty container of apple juice, the sight of the empty fridge made Nam-Gyu blank.

”dude do you not buy shit for your fridge?” He asked pulling the eggs out, while also pulling the milk and butter out, stacking the butter onto of the eggs while his other hand held the milk.

”I do, just not a-lot cause I normally don’t cook for myself.” Gyeong-Su said with a shrug as Nam-Gyu made his way over placing everything carefully onto the counter, moving things around for everything to be on the counter.

“Really? The fuck do you do then.”

”I eat out, or I quickly put something simple together” Gyeong-Su laughed as he looked at Nam-Gyu.

The look was soft, but something laced within it made Nam-Gyu’s face warm up.

”I’m dragging you to the store next time, you need to get better shit for yourself.” He said twisting his head to look at the stuff in-front of him.

”what fun, a store hang-out!” Gyeong-Su beamed as he walked out the kitchen, patting Nam-Gyu on the shoulder softly as he passed by.

the touch lingered as Nam-Gyu looked up to find Gyeong-Su now standing on the other end of the ledge, he was sitting on the stool, his arms folded as he leaned on the cold surface, the lingering gaze made Nam-Gyu swallow a little harder then usual.

”so, what’s on your mind?” He asked with a lopsided smile.

”pancakes.” Nam-Gyu said shoving his stare towards Gyeong-Su’s face as he turned to dig around in the others kitchen drawers looking for measuring spoons and cups.

“Ah..for real?” He asked a questioning tone dripping from his words as Nam-Gyu just stifled a laugh and pulled out the small measuring cups and spoons and placing them onto the counter as he turned.

their gazes connecting again as Nam-Gyu just raised a amused expression at the other, “yes for real.” He pointed as he softly opened the flour bag and picked the measuring cup, flicking it to the 1 Cup and shifting it into the flour bag.

he shook it lightly before taking the cup out, he was incredibly careful as he dumped the flour into the mixing bowl, the flour dumped into the bowl with a silent thud as a small cloud of flour lifted from the bowl.

Gyeong-Su was still leaning over the counter when he pushed the flour to the side an opened the sugar, flipping the cups to the 1/2 and scooping the sugar up, be dumped it in without stopping as he then looked over the counter to look at the items, he paused before turning his head to see Gyeong-Sub staring.

his expression was soft, nothing Nam-Gyu was used to, he looked at him with a gentle look as if Nam-Gyu was something soft and deserved to be stared at like…that. Which he wasn’t, soft wasn’t his thing anyway.

but something about Gyeong-Su made Nam-Gyu want soft and gentle to be his thing, god just the way Gyeong-Su looked at him, smiled at him and touched him were too fucking soft, as if Nam-Gyu was a fragile object, someone to smile at with the softest eyes ever, with that goddamn smile, not a bright or loud smile, just a normal soft smile. Someone to softly touch, let gentle lingering hands ghost his body, linger on places that should just be casual.

everything drove Nam-Gyu slowly crazy, he never understood someone could look so goddamn gentle, but the way Gyeong-Su was…it was something Nam-Gyu wasn’t sure he was capable of having.

”so…what else is gonna make these pancakes, well pancakes?” 

Gyeong-Su’s voice ripped Nam-Gyu from his stance, his daze as he just blinked and quickly pulled his attention back to the counter of litter ingredients.

”powdered sugar.” He coughed quickly grabbing the smaller bag of powdered sugar.

ditching the measuring cups as he just tipped the bag over the bowl of Flour and Sugar and started pouring a bit of powdered sugar, when it looked like enough he moved the bag away, placing it onto the counter as he rolled the top onto its self.

He then stared at the bowl, the ingredients seemed to be all he needed as he shifted his hands to grab the half filled Milk carton, it was cold and a bit wet which wasn’t a nice feeling, but he ignored it as he twisted the cap off and grab the measuring cups back, going back to the 1 cup and holding it down with his hand while using the other to slowly pour the milk.

he was considering talking, maybe just asking how Gyeong-Su is because of how quiet the room is, nothing but the sounds of whatever Nam-Gyu was doing filling the empty space as Gyeong-Su sat quietly and patiently for fucks sake, it was definitely weird for Nam-Gyu as he’s shared a apartment with Thanos.

”how’s not helping me going?” He asked suddenly as he stopped pouring the milk right before it reached the top of the cup.

Gyeong-Su laughed at that, the softness of his laugh making Nam-Gyu’s chest tighten.

“Pretty fine actually,” he said, shifting his head onto his hand as he used his free one to mess with the flour bag.

Nam-Gyu only rolled his eyes as he twisted the milk’s cap back on, and slowly and carefully lifted the measuring cup over the bowl, dumping the milk in as he placed the cup down and turned to find a smaller bowl to put some butter into so he could melt it.

when he remembered the bowl Gyeong-Su was going to eat cereal with, turning back around to find Gyeong-Su just sitting there.

”where’s that bowl you had?” 

“oh, should be behind you.”

”thanks.”

and he turned to find the small bowl resting near the sink, grabbing it he quickly turned to the ledge, grabbing a stick of butter and placing about half into the bowl before picking it up and turning to place it into the microwave near the fridge, he pushed in about 30 seconds and turned it on, as he went back to dealing with the batter.

”hey since your lazy ass isn’t doing anything, crack like two eggs into that.” He said pointing a look at Gyeong-Su who just nodded and opened the small carton of eggs.

”on it!” He beamed tiredly, grabbing two small eggs out of the cardboard before gently placing one down.

lifting the other to the edge of the bowl before cracking it against the bowl, easily removing the yolk and whites from the shell before he tossed the shell into the small garbage near his stoll and went to repeat the process, and when he was finished he heard a beep from the microwave, as Nam-Gyu quickly opened the microwave door to grab the bowl, quickly taking it to the counter where Gyeong-Su was lifting himself from his seat.

”thanks for that.” Nam-Gyu said as Gyeong-Su passed from the stools to behind him, walking to his sink as he twisted the faucet on.

the sound of flowing water made a small part of Nam-Gyu relaxed as he poured the butter into the batter and turned to drop the bowl into the sink as Gyeong-Su just finished washing his hands.

”dishes after we’ve finished cooking” he noted drying his hands off.

”sure” Nam-Gyu replied dropping a few drops of vanilla extract into the weird mix of dry and wet ingredients, before closing the bottle of extract and placing it onto the counter.

He didn’t say much as he was suddenly handed a whisk, but he did twist his head a bit to see Gyeong-Su with that stupid fucking smile.

”thanks.” He muttered back grabbing the whisk and turning his attention back to the batter.

Gyeong-Su only replied with a yawn as he made his way back around the ledge, going straight back to his seat, he sat down quickly feeling himself lean back against the smooth surface of the ledge, his eyes drifting onto Nam-Gyu who was currently whisking the batter, one hand securing the bowl as the other stirred without a problem.

And soon Nam-Gyu had finished the batter, his face glowing as he smiled and let out a sigh.

”ok, let’s get these started.”

”woo-hoo!” Gyeong-Su tiredly pumped his hands into the air as Nam-Gyu tossed the whisk into the sink and twisted a knob on the stove top on, he then placed the pan down and grabbed the same stick of butter from before.

and gently placed a small amount onto the pan, lifting it to spread the butter around before quietly moving his hands onto the bowl, lifting it over the pan and pouring some of the mixture, stopping and moving the bowl back down after adding the amount needed.

He didn’t say much as he waited painfully slow for the pancake, in the mean time he had grabbed a spatula from the dish rack and began tapping a faint rhythm against the plastic.

”ill get this put away then,” Gyeong-Su suddenly said as he pulled himself off the ledge and back into the kitchen.

”you should, since I did everything else.” He joked watching Gyeong-Su from the corner of his eye.

he was currently placing the flour, sugar, and sugar back, as he softly shut the cabinet when he finished mindlessly placing things back, he then picked the milk and egg carton up and took them to the fridge where he barely opened the door without dropping anything, quickly shoving the items back in before shutting the door and shifting his attention to Nam-Gyu and the stove.

Nam-Gyu had finally flipped the pancake, his eyes greeted with a decent looking pancake as he just silently cheered.

neither said anything as the first pancake finished and Gyeong-Su was shoved to grab a plate, and after he had brung it over, Nam-Gyu placed the fresh pancake down and began another.

And soon enough the next pancake finished and Nam-Gyu silently placed it on a plate, looking into the mixing bowl where most likely enough batter to make two more pancakes rested, he debated whether he should or shouldn’t make them when Gyeong-Su came up behind him.

”want me to finish the rest?”

his voice was soft and warm, it sent slight shivers through Nam-Gyu’s body as he swallowed something quickly and twisted his head enough to look at Gyeong-Su who stood barely inches away from Nam-Gyu, his head tilted slightly.

”actually yeah.” He said without much thought as he shoved the warmth in his chest away and made space for him to walk by Gyeong-Su handing him the plastic spatula and heading out the kitchen.

he then shifted himself onto the stool near Gyeong-Su’s, a plate rested between the two stools as he eyes lingered on Gyeong-Su who began making the other pancakes, without much hesitation.

It took a minute but soon Gyeong-Su was sliding two fresh pancakes onto the Plate, a soft expression on his face as he beamed a sweet smile at Nam-Gyu as he leaned over the counter from the other side.

Nam-Gyu caught his eyes immediately, as he inhaled the soft scent of vanilla from the pancakes, the warmth from the fresh ones basking in the air as he just sighed.

”Fork?”

Gyeong-Su then handed him a fork, he doesn’t know where it came from but he wasn’t going to ask as he rolled his eyes and poked the fork into the soft fluffy pancakes, softly cutting a small piece out before eating it, the warmth was immediate as he happily closed his eyes to swallow.

”this is way better then some shit cereal.” He whispered as he opened his eyes to watch Gyeong-Su quietly take a piece of the pancake and shove it into his mouth.

”definitely, but not to much on cereal now.” The other joked as he took another piece from the pancake.

“Sure.” He said back as he also continued to eat the pancake, the fluffy bites basically melting in his mouth.

then it fell silent, as they both picked and ate at the pancakes with basically no real energy to do much else, Nam-Gyu was almost about to pick up his phone from his pocket when he heard Gyeong-Su.

”so, you need a ride back to your apartment?”

it was a simple question and a very casual gesture, but something in Nam-Gyu’s stomach twisted at his words.

”oh..yeah probably.” He muttered quickly taking a last bite from the pancake as he placed his fork down.

”cool, I can take you soon. I got somethings to do today anyway” the other noted as he shoved the final bite into his mouth and picked up the empty plate.

Nam-Gyu watched him turn and place the plate into the sink before wiping his hands off and turning back to him, he had a stuffy looking face, almost like a chipmunk as he finished eating and safely swallowing the food in his mouth.

he didn’t want to pry into Gyeong-Su’s life outside the friend group but something was itching him to, “so whats on your to-do list anyway?” He asked simply as Gyeong-Su just looked at him with a raised eyebrow.

”well take you back home, then I got some small things to get done, and im meeting with someone” Gyeong-Su’s list was fairly normal, but the last bit hit Nam-Gyu wrong as he unintentionally tensed.

”thanks for asking I guess,” he followed with a laugh as he seemed to gaze over how Nam-Gyu tensed up.

Maybe he was glad Gyeong-Su didn’t seem to notice as he watched the other tap against the counter with a casual glance stuck on him without much thought.

”Ah, well if you want, we can get going now” he said without much thought as he got off the stool and patted his sweater down.

”oh? Ok, you know where my car is if you don't mind waiting a bit?” Gyeong-Su told him with a laugh as Nam-Gyu just sighed.

”I definitely don't.” He replied as he walked towards the door and slid his shoes back on, before pulling the door open, his head twisting a bit to see Gyeong-Su messing with his hair, like a fucking idiot.

he only rolled his eyes at him before walking out the door and closing it softly behind him, making sure to hear a soft click before he just stopped.

he immediately felt a stuck breath leave his body as he scrubbed a tired hand over his face, letting it linger over his nose, as he just stood there stunned and confused.

his mind was all over the place and he felt a tightening grip on his heart as he bit the inside of his cheek.

”fucking shit.” He muttered dropping the hand.

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He stood outside of Gyeong-Su’s door for a moment more, his hand finally dropping from his face as he sucked in a harsh breath and let it out.

his eyes catching the door handle moving as he quickly pulled away from the door, taking a step forward as he turned and faced the door as it opened with a slight creek.

annoying but his eyes caught onto Gyeong-Su as he exited the door and softly shut it behind him.

”oh, hey thought you’d be at the car?” Gyeong-su said with a small laugh as he shoved his hand’s into the leather jacket pockets.

Nam-Gyu only felt himself stare, his eyes scanning over Gyeong-su, how his hair still looked fairly messy, but was neat and styled enough, Gyeong-Su now wearing a slick black leather jacket over his white shirt, a pair of simple cargo pants and a few piece's of jewelry, consisting of a few rings on his finger, a simple silver necklace and he now had a pair of small earrings on.

he looked pretty decent for someone who doesn’t exactly dress to you know dress? But he looked nice…his smile complimented it completely.

”Nam-Gyu?”

Gyeong-Su’s voice suddenly snapped him out his daze as he looked back.

”oh. Yeah, nah I just decided to wait.” He replied crossing his arms as Gyeong-Su only nodded and started walking.

”hm, sounds like you.” The other mumbled back as he stopped before the stairs his arm suddenly coming out the pocket, the open palm facing Nam-Gyu.

he only raised an eyebrow at it as he tilted his head at Gyeong-Su, “what’s this about?”.

Gyeong-Su just smiled and pointed his head towards the hand again as if waiting for Nam-Gyu to do something, which fucking fag shit.

“Cmon! Just take my hand.”

Nam-Gyu only scoffs and quickly grabs the others hand, feeling the warmth seep through his skin.

”you’re a fag for this.” He mutters as Gyeong-Su just shrugs and continues to descend down the stairs, a slower Nam-Gyu close behind due to his hand currently being pulled by the other.

They didn’t say much walking down the stairs, it was slow walk, but it was comfortable, no weird awkwardness, no strange feelings..Just two friends casually holding hands as they walked down the stairs not sharing any words, just enjoying the others company, it threw Nam-Gyu off as he walked down the final step, his hand being slightly squeezed as he looked at Gyeong-Su who was smiling at him.

was it weird Nam-Gyu wanted to kiss him? Fuck-no he didn’t want to do that..why would he want to do that?

his mind threw so many thoughts at him as he tried to convince himself he didn’t want to feel more from Gyeong-Su, his soft eyes watching Nam-Gyu as they just stood in-front of the stairs, merely steps away from the parking lot Gyeong-Su normally parks in.

”GYEONG-SU!”

a sudden loud voice boomed through his ears as he quickly ripped his hand out of Gyeong-Su’s, he could immediately feel the warmth disappear and the confusion lacing between Gyeong-Su’s expression as Nam-Gyu twisted his head towards the voice.

there he saw someone he never met, their eyes narrow and lively, they had sun kissed skin and hazel eyes, their hair slicked back into a small bun as they waved their hand into the air with a wild wave, Nam-Gyu definitely never met this person.

but his eyes caught how Gyeong-Su’s expression shifted from the confusion to a happy look, a smile lifting onto his face as he waved back.

”JU-WON!” 

Gyeong-Su’s voice boomed happily as Nam-Gyu twisted his head slightly towards Gyeong-Su, his eyes catching how happy and bright his eye’s were, they where basically sparkling as Nam-Gyu just looked.

His head then turned back when he saw Ju-Won? Yeah Ju-Won walk up to the two, his eyes stuck on Gyeong-Su as He just dropped his hand, it almost hitting Nam-Gyu’s shoulder but didn’t.

”hey! Sorry I came here sooner than expected,” the guy said with a laugh as he grinned at Gyeong-Su who just smiled back.

”It’s good! I was just heading out to drop off a friend, but you can head up now if you don’t mind?” Gyeong-Su said as Ju-Won just nodded and drifted his gaze towards Nam-Gyu who just stood quietly.

”ok, and Sorry, Hi I’m Ju-Won.” 

Nam-Gyu just narrowed a gaze before crossing his arms against his chest.

“Nam-Gyu.”

Ju-Won didn’t say anything back as he nodded to Gyeong-Su, passing by and patting the other on his shoulder as he passed by, walking up the stairs, and as soon as he was out of sight Nam-Gyu let out a sigh and started walking.

He felt Gyeong-Su’s gaze lingering on him as he walked towards the door of the apartment building, stopping to see Gyeong-Su stop near him.

”Ju-Won doesn’t bite dude.”

”guess I didn’t catch that.”

His voice was neutral as he pushed the door open and slipped out, keeping a hand against it so Gyeong-Su could follow him, which he did as he stepped out onto the pavement in-front of the doors.

They both stepped out without any words as Nam-Gyu just dropped his hand, letting the door softly shut with a soft click, Gyeong-Su only slightly shifting to move away from the door, Nam-Gyu then sighed and walked away from the door, as Gyeong-Su followed behind, neither stopped walking, and no words being exchanged as they walked towards the parking lot, Nam-Gyu could hear Gyeong-Su begin mumbling a soft hum as they walked, it was comforting to a extent as they finally reached the parking lot.

it was bright outside, and Nam-Gyu just stood near the sidewalk as Gyeong-Su came near him, he felt Gyeong-Su step closer then usual, his arm grazing against Nam-Gyu’s as they stood closer together then normal.

”Nam-Gyu, do you want to go out tomorrow?”

Nam-Gyu paused his head twisting to catch Gyeong-Su as he just look back with a crooked smile and an awkward stance, his hand in both pockets as he stood like a straight line.

”what?”

”would you like to go out tomorrow? Like something simple.” Gyeong-Su replied a soft tone laced between his words as Nam-Gyu stared at him like he was asking some stupid shit.

What the fuck.

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Nam-Gyu freezes, his body stopping and all his thoughts pause and begin blanking out, he just continues to stand there, staring straight into Gyeong-Su’s own, the softness in the look, the warmth in his smile making Nam-Gyu catch his breath between his throat.

Gyeong-Su stared at him patiently, a warm, gentle smile staying on his lips as he watched Nam-Gyu just stare at him with wide eyes and an unreadable expression on his face.

Nam-Gyu wanted to reply, but no matter what his mind wouldn’t let him, giving him many different answers every time he tried making something up, sometimes he’d hear “yes.” Others he would hear “no.” It ruined him. Cause he didn’t know what was truly coming from his mouth, so he didn’t say anything.

He felt his breath hitch before he snapped his head towards the car and ran, it wasn’t a far run so when he finally got to the door his quickly pulled it opened, hearing the click it made before he shuffled inside, the sound of his clothes ruffling as he pulled himself inside and basically slammed the door after him, the loud thud making him sink.

Nam-Gyu stayed there not moving, his hands stuffed into his sweater’s sleeves, and his eyes glued onto the dashboard as he desperately looked around before landing on his lap, noticing how uncomfortable he felt, and how his body felt so much tenser.

but he couldn’t do much before he heard the divers door open softly, the sound of someone sitting in the seat and the soft thud of the door as it shut, he tried blocking out the sound of Gyeong-Su who was currently putting his keys in the cup holder before twisting in his seat a bit so he could face the other.

Nam-Gyu still glued to his lap just swallowed a little bit before finally catching Gyeong-Su’s gaze.

they sat staring at one another, no words just a new tension.

Gyeong-Su let out a sigh before shifting his arms a bit, “Nam-Gyu-“ he began as Nam-Gyu just groaned and dragged a hand over his face.

”Gyeong-Su, this isn’t something…friends do.” He stated keeping a distance between them, as he shifted back in his seat, now facing the window as he could feel Gyeong-Su just staring at him.

”ah, yeah..sorry.” The other replied before finally shifting back to face the front, his hands moving onto the stirring wheel as he let out a breath and turned the car on.

Nam-Gyu ignored how his heart tensed at his own words, his head was light and he was honestly fucking not in the mood with himself, but maybe he could shrug it off before he got home to Thanos.

but for some reason he couldn’t shrug off the lingering feeling of a gaze on him, even though he knew Gyeong-Su was driving, the sound of bumpy roads and the loud street and traffic filling Nam-Gyu’s ears as he just stared outside, keeping himself from turning to Gyeong-Su.

He basically toned the other out completely, keeping his eyes facing the passing buildings and the bright sun, it was boring but he wasn’t exactly expecting much from a morning, so he dropped a hand into his pocket, digging out his phone, he then quickly opened his messages and noticed the millions of texts from Thanos.

all asking where he was.

He sighed before clicking on the conversation and quickly typing a halfhearted “With Gyeong-Su, I’ll be back soon.” Response before sending it and clicking off to see the group chat, where Thanos, Se-Mi and Min-Su seemed to have been texting all of last night and some of this morning.

it seemed fairly normal, with Thanos just asking of boring it was without him around, but soon drifted to small talk about Gyeong-Su and him, he read some of it but honestly couldn’t give a shit, it’s not like him and Gyeong-Su where anything.

and before anything Thanos had replied to him.

”oh? The fuck are you doing with him at 11am in the morning dude.”

the text was very Thanos, so he quickly typed back, “nothing, he’s driving me home. I stayed the night with him cause it seems you had a fun night yesterday.” His response wasn’t much different from how they’d normally text but he did feel a bit defensive.

he watched Thanos’s text bubble for a moment before it sent, “stayed the night my ass, also the fuck is that supposed to mean boy.”.

Nam-Gyu bite back a groan as he typed back.

”why is this such a problem? You do this shit everyday. But the minute I end up doing something it’s suddenly wrong?”.

The bubble suddenly went away as he watched Thanos’s text message just disappear, he was currently left on read. Which not surprising.

he sighed dropping his phone into his pocket as he dragged a hand over his face, suddenly aware of Gyeong-Su who had stopped at a red light and turned to him a bit.

”you ok?”

he had that soft tone, he sounded so patient..it was something Nam-Gyu felt attracted to slightly, not like he’d admit that.

”yeah, just Thanos and his usual bullshit.” He said turning to finally look at Gyeong-Su, his soft expression right where Nam-Gyu expected it.

He looked utterly relaxed, like Nam-Gyu’s “rejection” wasn’t still on his mind, he still smiled at Nam-Gyu like he didn’t just basically reject him, and honestly it made Nam-Gyu swallow a harsh truth.

”ah, well we’re almost there so you’d probably want to fix whatever.” He said shrugging lightly before turning back to the road.

”probably.” Nam-Gyu sighed keeping his eyes on Gyeong-Su who just stared ahead continuing to drive silently.

And that silence fell over them again, only being filled by the soft gravel underneath the car’s wheels, and the very soft sound of a hum, which Nam-Gyu listened to instantly as if it was normal for him to.

he wasn’t quite sure how long he could keep looking at Gyeong-Su, the way he smiled normally and softly at the world around them, how Gyeong-Su just seemed ok..maybe that eased him a bit.

he wasn’t sure why but he suddenly heard a sudden sound come from his phone as he quickly turned away from Gyeong-Su and pulled his phone back out.

immediately he read a text from Thanos.

”it’s not a problem bro. Im just worried about your bitchass sometimes fucker.” 

the text made Nam-Gyu blink, he felt something in his mind stir as he just turned his phone off and shoved it in his pocket.

He then let out a breath turning towards the window as the car came to a stop, he could hear Gyeong-Su pull his key out and suddenly unbuckle his seat belt before turning to Nam-Gyu who just stared at him with a lifted eyebrow, before following with unbuckling his seat belt.

”I thought you were just dropping me off.”

Gyeong-Su just shrugged with a grin on his face, “yeah, but i’d like to say hi to Thanos you know?” He replied before exiting the car and shutting the door softly, Nam-Gyu just shook his head and exited the car too, shutting the door and making his way to Gyeong-Su.

”yeah sure.” He sighed dragging a hand through his hair, pushing a few loose strands behind his ears as he walked with Gyeong-Su.

the other was a bit forward, his hands now stuffed into his pockets as he walked with Nam-Gyu who was currently struggling to find a good balance between messy hair and decent looking hair, Gyeong-Su would’ve laughed because Nam-Gyu looked utterly beautiful no matter what his hair looked like but he held back, kept his hands in his pockets and smiled as he paid all his attention to the other.

Nam-Gyu could feel Gyeong-Su staring at him, it was a moment of weakness for Nam-Gyu because maybe just maybe he yearned to stare back…yet he wouldn’t let himself cause its not worth falling for someone who couldn’t replace what he wanted.

soon they reached inside the building, Gyeong-Su again having the habit of holding the door open as Nam-Gyu walked inside, he only shook his head as Gyeong-Su followed behind, they didn’t say much as they continued walking, a common silence falling over them.

Then a loud voice came in.

”my boys!”

Thanos’s voice suddenly cut into Nam-Gyu’s ears as he paused where he was, his eyes immediately catching the bright blue ones as Gyeong-Su also stopped raising a hand to wave as Thanos walked over to them.

he was dressed in a bright green shirt, baggy cargo shirts and the cross necklace he always wears, Nam-Gyu thought he looked like well Thanos…stupid and fucking bright, like neon bright, fucking eye hurting bright.

compared to Gyeong-Su, Thanos was a neon disco ball that shined through any other person, and Gyeong-Su was like a dimmed light bulb that shined like a star in the vast darkness of the space around them.

”Thanos! Hey, just dropping off Nam-Gyu” Gyeong-Su said catching Nam-Gyu from the corner of his eyes.

Thanos only smiled before shifting a gaze to Nam-Gyu who dropped his hands to cross them against his chest.

”thanks for keeping Nam-Su safe” he said with a tone that sounded too genuine in Nam-Gyus opinion.

”its Gyu. Nam-Gyu.” He bit back sending a glare at Thanos who just shrugged him off.

”yeah yeah Gyu, whatever you say!”

Nam-Gyu would have spoken up again, if Gyeong-Su didn’t place a hand on his shoulder, grasping it incredibly light.

”well then, I should be off!” Gyeong-Su said as he took his hand back but not before gently patting the shoulder.

Thanos only nodded as Nam-Gyu shifted to catch Gyeong-Su looking at him, his soft expression was admirable.

”yeah, ok bye.” He muttered as Gyeong-Su sent him a lopsided smile and pulled himself out of Gyeong-Su’s space.

Thanos didn’t say anything but waved Gyeong-Su out as he turned off, sending a wave up and walking out the door, but not without sparing a singular, sparking gaze to Nam-Gyu who just stared back.

he knew he was still staring even after Gyeong-Su disappeared out the door, but he wasn’t sure why…he couldn’t pinpoint why his mind was aching to look for Gyeong-Su.

”You good bro.” 

Thanos asked, dropping an arm over his shoulder as Nam-Gyu looked at him with a mildly annoyed look.

”yes.” He said back noticing the drop in his own tone

“just asking.” Thanos replied dragging him closer as he just rolled his eyes.

”let’s get going you fuck.” He groaned as Thanos only smiled.

”ight”

and after shoving Thanos off a bit, they walked their way to the elevator stopping to step in, and finally making their way up.

Nam-Gyu didn’t know why, but he took his phone out his pocket, turned it on, and quickly made his way to the message app, holding a finger over Gyeong-Su’s name.

he knew Thanos could see him, but the other didnt say anything as he continued walking with him.

so he sighed and opened the messages, dropping his fingers over the keyboard and hovering.

what would he even say.

Chapter Text

Nam-Gyu opens the message app with no real thought or intention behind his actions, but his fingers move between the screen as he looks around his contacts, looking for someone in particular.

”You know Nam-Su-“

”Nam-Gyu.”

he cuts Thanos off without sparing a glance as he finally finds Gyeong-Su’s contact, his name was just Gyeong-Su, but his photo stuck out…It was a shared picture between them, taken when they all hung out together during a party Thanos threw not too long ago. God Nam-Gyu can feel the hangover just thinking about that fucking party.

but the Photo was blurry, and kinda hard to see but he could make out himself and Gyeong-Su, his mind sorta blanked when he realized what the photo was.

Gyeong-Su was holding onto Nam-Gyu from behind, his face tilted enough so the two could look at one another, and well…Gyeong-Su was planting a very sloppy kiss on Nam-Gyu’s cheek while Nam-Gyu just had a scrunched face and a very soft smile.

Fuck.

He felt his stomach twist just staring at the photo, so he looked towards their last texts, which were pretty well something.

Gyeong-Su: Yk..can I apologize for it all? I feel bad about the fact that I may have started a small rumor between us because im an incredibly stupid Drunk😞💔
(Read January 14th 2025 at 3:14 am)

Nam-Gyu: Its one photo plus pretty sure It didn’t make it past Thanos’s instagram.  
(Read January 14th 2025 at 3:15 am)

Gyeong-Su: REALLY? Wait…His story or actual instagram…                                           (Read January 14th 2025 at 3:15 am)

Nam-Gyu: probably his story.
(Read January 14th 2025 at 3:16 am)

Gyeong-Su: oh thank god🙏
(Read January 14th 2025 at 3:17am)

And Nam-Gyu didn’t reply afterwards, he probably knocked himself out.

but god they don’t really text, and it shows.

so he paused and lingered over the keyboard, his thoughts spinning as he looked around trying to see what to form with the given letters.

and while he looked around, Thanos had looked over at him and realized what Nam-Gyu was so quiet it about. Oh this peaked his interest.

”hey. Just text him hey!” Thanos beams with a sharp laugh as he pulls the phone straight from the unexpected other.

”THANOS!” He yells trying to snatch his phone back from the fairly taller other, who was typing away on his phone. Right to Gyeong-Su.

“Shh My boy! I know exactly how to speak to Gyeong-Su.” He smiles, a sharp smile.

It makes Nam-Gyu groan and give up, his attention now on pushing open his door and slipping inside, allowing Thanos full access to his texts. And well…Fuck Thanos.

so he closed his door and walked off without reopening it, and when he heard Thanos walk in he was a bit startled when his phone was tossed back to him.

immediately he dropped his eyes on the screen.

“Don't ever throw my phone again bitch.” He muttered as Thanos walked past him with a sly expression.

”no promises~” his sing song voice spoke as he walked to his room, with a soft grin on his stupid fucking face.

And as soon as the door clicked and shut Nam-Gyu looked back at the texts seeing exactly what Thanos had done.

Nam-Gyu: Hey, text me when you can.  
(Sent)                                                 

The sent underneath his texts was a bit tense, he didn’t know why he kept staring at it as he scoffed and shoved his phone in his pocket.

deciding to block his phone out the way as he scrubbed a hand over his face and walked to his room, walking in and shutting the door behind him.

hopefully just hopefully…Gyeong-Su will text him.

Gyeong-Su sighed as he pushed his apartment door open, hearing it creak as he stepped in, quickly slipping his shoes off as he stretched and walked inside, stopping when he saw Ju-Won sitting by the counter connecting his kitchen to the living area.

Ju-Won was minding his business before peaking up from his phone to look straight at Gyeong-Su who smiled and waved at him.

”hey, so quick question.”

Gyeong-Su blinked before replying, “yeah? Whats up.”

He watched Ju-Won lean against the counter a bit, allowing his head to drop into the palm of his hand.

”you got something with this Nam-Gyu guy?” 

the question lingered a bit as Gyeong-Su froze, his body slowly slipping from its calm complexion as he blinked and moved a hand to rub his neck softly.

”uh-no why?” He mumbled out as he looked at Ju-Won who was still looking at him with a slight nod.

”just cause, I saw his friends profile Thanos? That one rapper, on Instagram and one of the photos on his account included one of you and Nam-Gyu.” Ju-Won spoke clearly and incredibly well as Gyeong-Su swallowed a huge amount of air.

”you seemed to have been clinging onto him and was planting a very sloppy kiss on the others cheek, look I don’t know if you’re hiding something from me but cmon man, you can tell me anything.” Ju-Won said with a laugh and a now familiar smile taking over his face as he watched Gyeong-Su nod and drop his hand.

“Yeah…yeah I can.” He lets out with a sigh as he takes his phone from his pocket, his eyes catching the notification immediately.

“Nam-Gyu❤️: Text me when you can.”

his eyes scanned over it so many times he couldn’t hear Ju-Won behind him, but maybe it was for the better as he looked at the notification more, just staring at it like he was hallucinating.

”do I call him?” He asked suddenly pulling his attention to where Ju-Won sat with a lifted eyebrow.

”yes..? Man you do you.” He chuckled before pulling his phone back into his face.

and Gyeong-Su just swallowed again, this time lifting his finger to open his phone and immediately pull up the call app and scroll til he found Nam-Gyu, biting his cheek a bit before sighing and pressing call, quickly moving to hold the phone to his ear.

god he hoped Nam-Gyu would answer, just so he could say something.

and after the first ring he heard a voice.

”I said text.”

he let out a breathless chuckle at the sound of Nam-Gyu’s voice before moving his free hand to rub his neck like he does when a bit tense.

”yeah I know! But uh I just wanted to see what’s up? We don’t normally call or text so let’s experiment huh?”

and the call went dead for a bit, and after a awkwardly long pause Gyeong-Su began worrying this may have been a mistake so he moved the phone from his ear and slowly went to hang up when he heard a question.

”what place tomorrow..?”

oh..OH!

Chapter Text

Gyeong-Su froze immediately, his hand barely gripping his phone as he felt it slip from his drip incredibly fast, but he immediately readjusted his grip and began realizing his mind was throwing too much at him.

fuck! Nam-Gyu just asked him what their first date should be! WHY CANT HE THINK??

he slowly stutters as he fumbles with his internal dialogue, thinking, running and trying to make something up..CMON GYEONG-SU JUST THINK! He internally screams at himself as he suddenly remembers something.

“dude do you not buy shit for your fridge?”

”I do, just not a-lot cause I normally don’t cook for myself.”

“Really? The fuck do you do then.”

”I eat out, or I quickly put something simple together”

”I’m dragging you to the store next time, you need to get better shit for yourself.”

”what fun, a store hang-out!”

his brain finally clicks as he hears Nam-Gyu’s voice from his phone’s speakers.

”Gyeong-Su. Do not make me regret answering this fucking call.” Nam-Gyu said, his voice deadpanned and incredibly…hot? Fuck Gyeong-Su’s head feels fuzzy.

”sorry! Sorry! I just..what about a grocery store?” He asked his voice too confident as he heard a surprised sound leave Nam-Gyu’s lips.

”a grocery store..?”

”THE GROCERY STORE!”

Gyeong-Su beamed his eyes lighting up as he immediately heard a cough come from behind him as he turned and saw Ju-Won choke on something.

his face immediately dropping as Ju-Won caught his gaze a little flushed look on his friends face, a sly grin lifting on his lips.

”sorry, continue with whatever that is!” Ju-Won whispered as he waved Gyeong-Su back to his call and lifted himself up and off the counter.

he quickly spun around Gyeong-Su a quick pat to his shoulder as he opened the door and slipped out with a wave and added smile that made Gyeong-Su smile back before he returned to his call.

”sooo! About that grocery store?” He smiled knowing Nam-Gyu couldn’t see how stupidly happy he was.

but he did hear a quiet sigh, “sure. Just pick me up tomorrow, at 4 no later or im canceling on you.” Nam-Gyu bit out with absolutely no harm behind it.

And Gyeong-Su felt his heart burst against his chest as he grinned and shook his head, though he absolutely did not know why.

”yeah..yeah! I wont be late, may be early though.” He said with a laugh that ringed through the air for a bit.

”good.” 

and thats when Nam-Gyu ended the call.

Immediately Gyeong-Su dropped his phone and blinked, his heart felt heavy and his face was warm..too warm as he swallowed a huge sigh and then he just smiled.

”oh my god.” He muttered before quickly pulling himself up and running to his room, the door shutting with a click.

The next morning Gyeong-Su was up and out the door, quickly pulling himself down the stairs without much fail and accidentally bumping into someone who he gave the best apology he could too before rushing out the door.

The minute he was out he checked his phone, the time was 3:00, which was an hour early but also gave him time to maybe get some…something from Nam-Gyu!

So he rushed into the parking lot and quickly pulled into his car and out the lot, flicking the music on without even thinking about what song to listen to and he was off, off to pickup one stubborn man.

and it wouldn’t take him long to approach the apartment building, pulling his phone out and immediately checking the time and noticing its 3:20 which meant he had 40 minutes to kill, so he got out the car and began walking towards the entrance when he saw Nam-Gyu.

his hair was the same but suddenly looked alot…so much softer that he wondered what it’d feel like flowing and tangling in between his fingers. But he quickly shook that away when he realized Nam-Gyu was in HIS Leather jacket, the same one he wore at that on Thanos party! Man he thought he lost it.

”Gyeong-Su.” Nam-Gyu spoke as he pushed open the glass doors and walked out.

Gyeong-Su only smiled and waved before deciding to press on something.

”so…where’d you find it?”

to that the other gave him a look, it was kind of nasty but at the same time gentle and sweet looking.

”what this?” He pointed to the jacket as he raised an eyebrow that made Gyeong-Su bite his tongue.

So he nodded and watched as Nam-Gyu just laughed and walked past him, but stopped suddenly to whisper in his ear.

”it’s yours. If you want it back make this date fucking perfect and you can take it off yourself.”

his voice was silky smooth and sent blood rushing straight to Gyeong-Su’s dick, which he was able to control for the most part as he swallowed thickly and nodded allowing Nam-Gyu to smooth his shoulders and walk back to the car without another word.

It left Gyeong-Su to stand there for a while as he collected his thoughts and other emotions but when he did and finally got it bagged, then he sighed and followed behind, entering the drivers side and slowly started the car, letting Nam-Gyu change the song as they started leaving.

Yep Gyeong-Su is making this grocery store date PERFECT! He just needs to make sure he buys actual stuff…he was low low on food it was driving him insane.

Soon enough they’d enter the grocery store together, Nam-Gyu finally letting him grab his hand, after alot of back and forth and a whole lot of pain from quick slaps and even shoves whenever Nam-Gyu got fed up. But Gyeong-Su finally won and felt the warmth of Nam-Gyu’s hand against his, it felt nice…comforting something Gyeong-Su could live with forever if he was allowed.

”Grab that.” 

Nam-Gyu said loud enough to make Gyeong-Su snap up and stare around before noticing the small box of…Condoms.

”whoa! Nam-Gyu!” He blurted quickly before snatching the box and shoving it into the cart with all of the other items they randomly grabbed.

Nam-Gyu didn’t say much just stared at him unamused yet so amused it made Gyeong-Su awkwardly rub his neck with his free hand, the feeling of cool metal from his necklace contrasting the warmth of Nam-Gyu.

“What? You a virgin Gyeong-Su.” He teased with a smirk that made Gyeong-Su feel stupid and weak.

”No.” he replied shoving his thoughts away and going back to shopping without much effort to think past the implications Nam-Gyu was throwing straight out at him without thinking twice.

he heard Nam-Gyu hum lightly before dragging Gyeong-Su to the checkouts and began helping him scan items with such ease that Gyeong-Su felt his hands become stuffy with all the stuff Nam-Gyu was scanning and stuffing into his hands with second thoughts.

Soon he shoved the box of condoms into his hands but not before opening it and pulling one out, sticking it into his own pocket and walking off, making Gyeong-Su blank and then snap back rushing to follow Nam-Gyu.

“You’re actually a fucking asshole.” Gyeong-Su muttered as soon as he entered the car and looked at Nam-Gyu who looked at him back with a more neutral look to his face.

”am I?” He asked leaning back more and staring directly at Gyeong-Su who rubbed his arm and sighed.

”yes.” He replied moving to start the car not paying more attention to Nam-Gyu who seemed to feed off of attention and especially the one Gyeong-Su would give him.

the other didn’t say anything but he could hear Nam-Gyu move a bit, and soon enough Nam-Gyu had a lanky hand wrapped around Gyeong-Su’s thigh, the warmth sinking into his chest easily and fast as he whipped his head towards Nam-Gyu who was staring at him with narrow cat like eyes.

”what?” Nam-Gyu said moving his hand higher on Gyeong-Su’s thigh, knowing exactly what he’s doing to him because he had that fucking smile on his face. Like he knew exactly what he was doing to him.

”in a grocery store parking lot?!” He blurted his flushed face becoming more clear as Nam-Gyu just smirked more and continued his advance on the flustered Gyeong-Su who was swallowing air stuck in his throat.

”no, just want to rile you up enough before we get back to your apartment. This leather jacket is getting fucking annoying I don’t know how you even wear this shit.” He ranted before leaning away and crossing his arms, allowing Gyeong-Su to breathe and take the wheel into his sweaty hands so he wouldn’t grab Nam-Gyu’s hand back.

So he started the car without much struggle and began driving off, still feeling his own emotions swirling in his stomach with his flushed face even more red than his asian flush.

He could hear Nam-Gyu ranting about anything he could, but especially Thanos who was apparently being a dick and is always doing “stupid” shit that could get his career ruined but fuck if he cared.

the more Nam-Gyu ranted the more he could clear his head and allow him to drive straight, “and what am I supposed to do when Thanos fucks himself over huh? Let him run over me more or for fucks sake let him be all goody too shoe with me.” He groaned letting Gyeong-Su nod and let him continue.

and so he did, the entire ride was his voice…filled with strong emotion on Thanos and his parties…and his fuckass emotions and almost everything was about Thanos that it almost made Gyeong-Su think Nam-Gyu was trying to fill a void with him.

but he wouldn’t right..Right?

Chapter Text

Gyeong-Su can feel Nam-Gyu press against him, making sure their flush against one another as he tries to keep a grip on Gyeong-Su’s hair while Gyeong-Su takes a moment to hold Nam-Gyu in his arms, the subtle warmth from the other messed with Gyeong-Su.

but when he felt Nam-Gyu pull away to attack his neck he could only muster a fuck and let his hands roam freely around the other’s back. Letting his hands slip underneath Nam-Gyu’s shirt as the warmth of the skin lit a small flame in them both.

Nam-Gyu quickly biting onto Gyeong-Su afterwards which pulled a long moan from him, the sound playing slowly into Nam-Gyu’s head as he allowed the noise to wrap around his thoughts. Now he knew how to pull sounds out of the taller one as he licked the red area, dropping a few kisses onto it as well feeling how Gyeong-Su’s pulse jumped.

”Fuck-Nam…Gyu” Gyeong-Su muttered softly his voice directly hitting Nam-Gyu’s ear, the rasp of his voice making him shiver as the warmth of the others hands now dug into his skin a bit harder, definitely was going to leave a mark from Gyeong-Su’s nails and Nam-Gyu wasn’t going to complain.

Actually Nam-Gyu loved the feel, the burning sensation from the touch that Gyeong-Su left behind as he pulled away far enough to drag Gyeong-Su to the couch, quickly shoving him down and feeling Gyeong-Su hook a finger at the bottom of his shirt staring at him with eyes that were covered in stars.

and well he could only let Gyeong-Su have what he wants as he helped effortlessly pull his shirt over his head ignoring the other rub a hand against his now bare waist a few times.

after his shirt was tossed aside he followed onto the couch, pining Gyeong-Su down as he sat right above the other’s waist his legs straddling Gyeong-Su from both sides. And Nam-Gyu would be lying if he didn’t admit the other looked stunning from his view, breathless, flushed and absolutely gorgeous from the sunlight hitting his tanned skin better.

”god Gyeong-Su.” He whispered feeling a hand against his chest and the gaze from the sun.

And all Gyeong-Su gave back was this stare, which Nam-Gyu seemed to feed off of, just the way his eyes looked lidded and fuck his eyelashes and how they fluttered against the skin made Nam-Gyu feral, something about Gyeong-Su made Nam-Gyu want to actually love him past the view of a replacement.

and sometimes Nam-Gyu can’t figure out what it is…it’s hard to pinpoint certain things down to Gyeong-Su because of how much he had to offer and that only drove Nam-Gyu more insane.

“Nam-Gyu, if you’re not gonna do anything but sit and look pretty im perfectly fine with that.”

the entire sentence snapped him out his thoughts and made Nam-Gyu smirk as he looked back at Gyeong-Su who stared up with a look of desperation in his eyes one look that made Nam-Gyu smile more than he assumed he’d ever with another.

“Ok than? Since you’re so fucking desperate.”

his voice sounded harmful, bitter and angry but in reality Gyeong-Su could only hear the voice of someone who’s choosing him after he’s never been someone’s first…or really anyone’s choice at all. And maybe that can convince him it’s all worth it.

So when he felt Nam-Gyu tug on his belt a bit he could only lay back and let Nam-Gyu have his way only giving him this look that he could tell Nam-Gyu liked alot.

When Gyeong-Su woke up he felt a sudden change in his home, something felt different.

so when he felt a tired Nam-Gyu tug on him to keep him from leaving the bed He almost died, something about the sudden sensation of skin to skin contact and the look of Nam-Gyu’s body flush against his with the only layer against them being a blanket and their boxers he must have thrown on before he feel asleep, something told him maybe he had finally won in life.

“Gyeong…where are you going.” A half-asleep Nam-Gyu mumbled his hair sticking out in many directions and a clear hickey against his collarbone that sticked out from where he wasn’t pressed against the other.

Gyeong-Su only looked at Nam-Gyu before sighing and letting a hand slip into Nam-Gyu’s very ruffled hair, “was going to get a drink…but I think im ok where I am.” He smiled feeling how Nam-Gyu pressed against his hand that was stroking softly through the hair.

“Mmm, cool.” Nam-Gyu yawned as he tucked his head into the space between Gyeong-Su’s neck and shoulder, letting himself relax there as he felt the taller man’s hand rest in his hair.

And soon enough Nam-Gyu would fall back asleep which left Gyeong-Su alone with his thoughts and the small breaths that hit his skin whenever he felt the rise and fall of Nam-Gyu’s chest.

But even with the closeness they shared, the new perspective that they now have after Gyeong-Su let someone into his arms after being shut off from others, always making sure to stop any advances from anyone including…Thanos.

Gyeong-Su felt a little lost, his mind went back to the moment Nam-Gyu began ranting to him about Thanos, how Thanos would do this or that and how Thanos had been trying to do this for a while without thinking and all Gyeong-Su can think of is when Thanos was drunk and high and Gyeong-Su was left to drag him home.

Thanos was moody, clingy and clearly upset that Gyeong-Su was dragging him away and all that Gyeong-Su could do is sigh and let Thanos whine into his neck. It reminded him of how Nam-Gyu sometimes complained about Thanos. And maybe that dug into him wrong as he tried to make himself sure.

Cause…Thanos was cooler than him, way more popular, a rapper and fairly famous god he even had people wrapped around his fingers and he looked great doing it. But Gyeong-Su? Yoon Gyeong-Su was an ordinary guy, a skater who had a small friend group, liked hip-hop and came from Hong-dae. He wasn’t Thanos and would never be Thanos.

But what made him so special to Nam-Gyu? Gyeong-Su could tell Nam-Gyu and Thanos both had something for one another but he was still the one Nam-Gyu went too…something just didn’t sit right with him.

was he actually a replacement? A sit in until Thanos proves to Nam-Gyu that they can be together without the unnecessary drama and pain. Then Gyeong-Su would become the one to lose.

Fuck.

even with Nam-Gyu sleeping against his chest Gyeong-Su felt miles away from truly having Nam-Gyu without feeling another’s presence. And maybe he’ll never truly own Nam-Gyu’s heart.

he needs sleep, and maybe a talk with Se-Mi and Min-Su.