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Steve Rogers couldn’t remember the last time he’d been to a real school.
Not the tiny classroom tucked inside the pediatric oncology wing when he was six, where all the other kids wore masks and pushed IV poles beside their desks. Not the hospital tutors who rotated through his room during relapses. Not the endless years of homeschooling at the kitchen table while doctors tried to keep him alive.
No, this was different.
Today he was supposed to walk into an actual public high school in Brooklyn alongside hundreds of strangers who had spent years growing up together while Steve’s life had been measured in treatments, blood counts, and stretches of isolation.
Honestly, the idea terrified him.
“Mom, do I really have to go?” Steve asked quietly, lingering near the doorway to the kitchen instead of sitting down. Nerves twisted hard in his stomach, sharp enough to make him feel sick. Most of his life had been spent avoiding places exactly like this, crowded hallways full of germs and noise and people who didn’t know how fragile he’d once been.
Sarah Rogers glanced up from where she was making toast, already dressed for the day despite the exhaustion that always seemed to cling to her now. The scarf wrapped around her head matched the pale blue of her sweater, though neither hid how tired she looked these days.
Still, she smiled at him.
“Yes, Steven,” she said gently. “You do.”
Steve groaned softly, dragging a hand down his face. “Mom…”
“It’ll be good for you,” she continued before he could start arguing properly. “And James will be there.”
That made Steve hesitate.
James Barnes had been his best friend for as long as Steve could remember. Before the cancer. Before the hospitals. Before the years started slipping past them faster than either boy knew how to stop. They’d once been inseparable, the kind of kids everyone assumed would grow up side by side forever.
But things changed.
Steve had spent the last few years fighting for his life while Bucky had been thrown into high school alone after losing his arm in a car accident. Somewhere in the middle of all that pain and distance, phone calls had become texts, texts had become silence, and now Steve honestly didn’t know where they stood anymore.
“We haven’t actually talked in forever,” Steve admitted, voice quieter now. “Not really. People change.”
Sarah’s expression softened at that. “Some things don’t.”
Steve wasn’t sure he believed her.
He looked down at himself instead, tugging absently at the oversized school sweater hanging off his thin frame. Even now, after the transplant had finally worked, he still looked sickly. Pale skin stretched too tightly over sharp bones, blond hair only just beginning to grow back in soft uneven patches. The school had made an exception and allowed him to wear a hat, but Steve knew that wouldn’t stop people from staring.
“I’m gonna look ridiculous,” he muttered. “Everyone else there’s known each other for years, and I’m just… me.”
“Steven Grant Rogers.” His mother’s tone sharpened just enough to make him look up. “You survived things most people can’t even imagine,” she said firmly. “You can survive high school.”
Steve huffed out a breath, folding his arms across his chest like that somehow protected him from the conversation. “That doesn’t mean I want to.”
At that, Sarah stepped closer and rested a hand gently against his cheek. Up close, Steve could see the exhaustion hiding underneath her smile, could see how thin she’d gotten lately.
Something twisted painfully in his chest.
“I know,” she said softly. “But you deserve a life outside hospitals, Stevie. You deserve normal things too.”
Steve swallowed hard and looked away before she could see how much those words affected him.
“Fine,” he muttered after a moment. “But if this is a disaster, I’m blaming you.”
That finally earned a quiet laugh from her.
“I can live with that.”
She pressed a kiss to his forehead before stepping back toward the kitchen. “Now eat your breakfast. James said he’d walk with you to the bus.”
And somehow, hearing that made Steve even more nervous.