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Why hadn't I stopped them?
I was so close.
It should have been me.
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I should've been the one to die.
They didn't deserve it.
I was a bad friend to them. I wasn't doing it right.
I made them feel bad and got them killed.
It's all my fault.
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I should've been the one to die.
Why didn't I do enough to stop them?
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I should've been the one to die.
It would've been easy to just talk to them.
But no, I had to fuck it all up again.
I can hear their voice in the back of my head screaming still.
“You fucked something up again! Bravo! You knew I was going to do it and you just let me die! Great job! What a friend you are!”
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I should've been the one to die.