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1. Neither Living Nor Dead by ncfan

   Fandoms: Star Wars: The Acolyte (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • F/M, Gen
   • Work in Progress

   26 Jun 2025

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Mae Aniseya & Sol the Jedi
   • Mae Aniseya & Vernestra Rwoh
   • Sol the Jedi & Vernestra Rwoh
   • Mae Aniseya/Sol the Jedi
   • Mae Aniseya
   • Vernestra Rwoh
   • Sol the Jedi (Star Wars)
   • Osha is extremely present in absentia
   • The SolMae is subtextual but by the end the subtext is thick enough to cut with a knife
   • barely subtext at all
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies
   • Sol lives but he wishes he hadn't
   • Developing Relationship
   • intimacy issues
   • Triggers
   • Disturbing Themes
   • Nightmares
   • Depression
   • Trauma
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Self-Esteem Issues
   • Identity Crisis
   • Existential Crisis
   • Guilt
   • Colonialism
   • Space Colonialism
   • Generational Trauma
   • discussion of suicide
   • Suicide Ideation Adjacent Thinking
   • there’s a lot of suicide chat in this actually
   • the Jedi Order does not have therapy
   • or mental health services
   • they’re not great about mental health in general
   • something something you must give this to the Force
   • there’s not quite a culture of thinking mental illness is a sign of weakness
   • but there’s something pretty close
   • and suicide is definitely stigmatized
   • food hoarding
   • undereating
   • Mae and Sol get a long sojourn in a thematical purgatory
   • to work out some issues and discover whole new ones
   • raising a man from the dead has its consequences
   • though they’re still trying to work out what those consequences are
   • obligatory: the Star Wars canon is big enough
   • that I don’t consider myself beholden to lore unconnected with the Star Wars property I’m currently writing for
   • let alone Star Wars properties I have neither watched nor read

   Summary

   “I told you to stay on the ship,” Sol said, helplessly exasperated.

   “Yes,” Mae agreed, “yes, you did.”

   If either Mae or Sol went to Coruscant expecting to find the end of their troubles, they are destined for disappointment.

   [Continuation to Anamnesis.]

   Series

   • Part 2 of can I bear you one more time?

   Language:

   English

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